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3. Outside the Field (Dream)

The third tumblr tune on my list is Dream, which is a sample of 'Dream Work'. This short version is a lot simpler than the full thing, but still has the same basic emotion to it. For me, the clip feels like being alone somewhere. Outside of a safe place where everyone else is. My first thought was 'space, outside of a planetary force field' and then I never had a second thought.

This drawing is kind of the opposite of the last drawing. With this one, I made the initial sketch and chose the colors, and that was it. It took less than an hour to make what you see above, and every time I tried to add something more or change it at all, it was ruined. I kept going back to this simple design. In my mind I feel like this isn't enough, but in my heart I know that it's finished.

It also feels strange because this is the second one that's set in space, out of only three tracks so far. But it does get more imaginative after this, I swear.

The usual video and original sketch. The next piece is probably going to take longer since it's more detailed again, but I'll post sketches or other nonsense in the meantime. Maybe..

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Me trying to cheer up my coworker after we both lost our positions at our old school and are now being transferred to a new school that has a bee as their mascot

Good news. we can finally Be Bees. this isn't your world, but we can Be Bees. this is Good news. you can Be a Bee. you'll live like a Bee. A Pet. A pet? A Pet. Mark, this is Good news. You'll live. for 30 years. THIS IS INSANE

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The other day on youtube I found a hate comment trying to insult Dorian Concept's music. They called it 'plastic music enhanced with digital trickery', which sounds way cooler than I think they meant it to. That phrase has been stuck in my head and I want to use it for something, but I don't know what yet.

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2. Comfort - 11.04.2012

This piece is done not because it's finished, but because I wanted to be done with it.

The second tumblr tune on my list is a pre-release sample of '11.04.2012', which is mostly the same as the album version but with added humming and clicking noises in the foreground. I loved this tune as soon as I started listening, tbh mostly because of his voice. It has a soft, dusty quality that reminds me of dried rose petals, which I would often find between the pages of old books at my grandparents' house.

In a review I can no longer locate, this song was labeled as one of the 'club tracks' on the album, one that you could really dance to. I never heard it that way for some reason. To me it sounds gentle and summery, like afternoon sun streaming through the windows of my childhood bedroom. It sounds like being somewhere safe.

At my first daycare, instead of putting us in cribs for nap time, they would put us in wooden crates. They were a lot like the cages you see cats in at the pet store or the vet's office, but made of wood instead of metal, and with a little mattress inside. I loved going in my crate; it was my safe space. Nobody could bother me or hurt me in there.

So, that's what I ended up drawing for this tune. I spent a long time on the wood patterns and I think they turned out alright. The bars look a little funny, and the lighting is off. The background isn't anything in particular. It's not what I wanted, but then I don't even know what I wanted. I sound negative about it because I'm tired right now, but in reality I'm very proud of myself for working hard and finishing such a complicated drawing. Never done something like that before.

Anyway, here's the low quality video of the picture with the tune that inspired it.

And here's the very first sketch that I did, it bears absolutely no resemblance to the finished product.

Ciao

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Some sketches.. i am working hard on the next DCTT drawing, it ended up being a lot more detailed than i had planned but hopefully it'll be done by tomorrow. Now that it's summer I have much more time to work on writing and drawing and other creative stuff so maybe i'll be posting more often (?)

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A super tiny puzzle that i did on vacation, and some sus screenshots. i wanted to post something today because I always post on the first of the month (lately) but i didn't end up drawing anything like i had planned.

I have had an unbelievably rough week and I've been on the verge of tears literally all day today. Everything that happens is too much. I feel stressed and upset and i know why but i don't know what to do about it. I'm going through a lot of emotional turmoil lately and it feels like everyone I thought i could talk to is trying to avoid me, like they actively don't care and they don't wanna be involved in my issues. I feel really alone.

Anyway. Happy three months to this pathetic, wet, kicked-puppy of an email. I wish i could say that it doesn't matter to me anymore.

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People on Sky instagram piss me off. TGC just announced the next traveling spirit and I guess it's one that a lot of people were hoping for. And instead of being happy and saying 'thank you' these absolute children in the comments are talking about "why would you send him at the same time as the Aurora event, I'm too broke for this" "I can't afford to get all the cosmetics from both, give us more candles" "you can only get 20 candles a day, I'm tired of grinding, GIVE US MORE CANDLES!!11!"

Shut!!! Up!!! It's literally a video game it does not matter that much! You're tired of grinding for candles? Then stop doing that and just spend your time enjoying the game like you're supposed to!! You're not going to die because you can't put a specific pair of pants or whatever on your avatar.

And it's like, I get that people are upset over all these events and things so close together. But literally over half of the comments on any event announcement post are all their little whining and complaining and BEGGING for TGC to give free candles or whatever and it drives me nuts!! As you can see. Stop being a damn baby it is just a game. It's just digital outfits in a video game.

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The Starway (Theme)

So a while ago I had gone through Dorian Concept's Tumblr page and listened to all the audios he posted. There were a lot of them that I really liked, and many of those evoked really vivid emotions and pictures for me. So I decided to make a drawing for each of them. And that was several months ago actually. But I finally got started !

This drawing goes with the first audio he posted, which is called 'Theme'. It has a sound of bright, electrical lights in a relative darkness, and the color red. I decided to make it part of the Starway (aka the Superway) which is a sort of inter-dimensional highway from my writing.

Here's a really low quality video of the drawing with the song it's based on.

And the original sketch.

I'm working on the next part but it probably won't be done anytime soon tbh. I'm once again thankful for my zero active followers; no one is expecting regular posts from me.

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Diskbug sketches. It's my bug-sona but in a super easy-to-draw form. The second page is all scenes from a storyline I play in my head when I listen to Dead Ends. Ideally I would make a comic or even an animation of it, but most likely it'll just stay as vague sketches.

Also on Spotify my 'Oops! All Dorian Concept' playlist has been saved by three people.. Who...? Like, I'm glad that people are using my playlist to listen to his music, but I'm also embarrassed because that means at least three people have witnessed the image I set as the cover art. Which is of course the cute picture of Mr. Concept from a few months ago that I absolutely covered in emoji hearts..

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Some DC stuff from recently.

everyone who has spoken with me in the past five or so months will agree that I deserve this award

my thought process was this: my heart hurts much more intensely than usual. my cardiac issues are usually made worse by stress. What do i do to de-stress? Listen to Dorian Concept. Therefore listening to DC will make my heart stop hurting. It didn't exactly work BUT i didn't die or anything so

i made a custom puzzle of my favorite album covers on Shutterfly. It's low quality (expected) but it was lots of fun! I hope i don't get in trouble somehow for using those images..

my sister showed me a thing called 'receiptify' which shows your top artists and songs on Spotify. Unsurprising results

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I've really been enjoying orange recently, so I took pictures of some orange things I like around the house and made a little collage.

There are like five projects that I'm working on right now so I'm about to be posting a lot more than usual, probably. A lot of it is DC related but I'm also trying to get into sewing/quilting so it's really all over the board.

Also happy two months to the email I sent to Mr. Concept! It almost definitely went to his spam folder and is long dead. But I'm still thinking about it.

Relatedly, I really like this sweater he wore in a recent video. With the orange lining. A lot of his music sounds really orange too, I wonder if that's why I like it so much.

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Wait I just realized I missed 11.04. I'm such a fake fan wtf

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Low effort memes I made instead of drawing or anything else productive. I hope nobody is going in the Dorian Concept hashtag and sorting by recent because it's just all my nonsense..

I also made an extremely accurate lyric video for E13 alt

It's times like these when I really appreciate having zero active followers. I feel so free~

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I have a hard time drawing anything more complicated than a sketch, not because it's really difficult but because I just don't really like to draw. It's not my thing. But this music is making me feel so much and I don't know how else to express it.

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Here are some quick sketches for each tune, except for six of them because I couldn't think of anything so I just put their titles. Not in order because it doesn't let me choose the order the images get added in for whatever reason. But that's fine

This is a Dorian Concept related project but I don't feel like explaining it. If you know you know I guess.

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I finally went ahead and finished this puzzle that I'd been putting off. The picture looks exactly how Dorian Concept music sounds which is why I like it so much, and in fact not a single piece of the puzzle was assembled without that very music playing in my headphones. I was putting it off because I was having a lot of fun and I didn't want it to be over. But then I remembered that I'm in charge of my hobbies and I can do the puzzle again as many times as I want to. So.

Also! Happy one-month to the email I sent to Mr. Concept asking for the picture he took of us at his concert! Still unanswered!

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Sketches I did to warm up and then got too invested in so I didn't actually do the drawing I was warming up for.

Since I drew these I found out that the guy I have been crushing on at work is engaged and has been for as long as I've liked him. So. The cute drawing of us on the second page is canceled I guess.

I like to turn on all of my layers sometimes just to see.