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visiting our favorite place everytime i miss you

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finally!!

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ready to go home! ┌(⁠~⁠‾⁠▿⁠‾⁠)⁠~

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with my mom, without my mom.

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my music buddy✨

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the last week of staying here in binalonan

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Just like a duck swimming along, looking calm while paddling non-stop underneath. Kind of life I like, feels most days just keep moving.

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FINALLY, DONE!

Today was quiet but heavy in a good way like exhaling after holding your breath too long. Exams are finally done. The stress and the constant pressure all of it is over, at least for now. I started the day feeling aimless, unsure what to do with this sudden freedom. I took a walk, hoping to clear my head, but the cold air only reminded me how much I’ve been running. Today feels different, though. The deadlines is gone, replaced by the glow of December lights and the promise of rest. For once, there’s nothing to rush toward, and that feels... enough.

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Thank you AMA for this another day😇

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campsite blessing at CDCC compound for the upcoming National Bible Study and Camporal 2024

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walking alone in the middle of somewhere i only know.

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always missing your kakulitan guys HAHAHAHAHAHA, see you on december 21!!🫶

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the beauty of nature 🏞️

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TO ANYONE WHO’LL LISTEN, I JUST WANT TO RANT

I don’t even know where to start. Life feels like a never-ending show, one you can’t stand but still can’t turn off. Everyone’s busy with their own things, and somehow, I end up feeling more alone than ever. It’s frustrating. Everyone’s constantly putting on a perfect front, but behind it, it’s exhausting. The pressure, the anxiety, the need to keep up it’s a lot. You’re free to think I’m lazy, but this is how I feel. It’s not easy to pretend everything’s fine when it’s not. I’m tired of holding it all together. Maybe no one else feels this way, but if you do, know you’re not alone. This is for you. Keep going, even if it’s just one more step. Someone cares.

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MY MIND FEELS SO EMPTY AND DRAINED

Lately, it’s like my mind is a blank slate empty, but somehow heavy. I’m not sad, not angry, just... tired. Exhausted in a way that’s hard to explain. Even the smallest things feel overwhelming. A text sits unanswered. Dishes pile up. Deadlines loom, and I can’t seem to care. It’s not laziness I want to do these things but my brain feels stuck, like it hit a wall and decided, “That’s enough.” I scroll aimlessly, sit in silence, or try to push through it, but nothing sticks. Maybe this is my mind begging for rest, for a pause from the endless noise. So today, I’m letting myself feel this emptiness. No pressure, no fixing—just being. Sometimes, that’s the most I can do, and maybe that’s okay.

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THE WEIGHT OF EXPECTATIONS

Life as a student is hard enough. Add the weight of being someone’s child one among many, constantly being measured against the high bar of others’ expectations and it feels unbearable. Lately, I’ve found myself worn out, my heart heavy with the demands of life, the pressure to perform, and the guilt of not living up to what others hope for me.

I am tired. Not just physically, though sleepless nights are a given in this cycle of stress and struggle. I am mentally and emotionally drained. The never-ending grind of academics feels like running a race where the finish line keeps moving. And as one of my parents' children, the invisible yet palpable expectation to be a model daughter compounds this exhaustion. It’s like carrying a weight that I can’t put down, no matter how much my arms ache. I want to rest. But rest doesn’t come easy. How do I rest when my mind constantly replays my failures and shortcomings? How do I rest when the world around me demands so much and offers no pause button?

The question isn’t just about the kind of rest I want it’s about the kind of rest I need. In the midst of this turmoil, I have found moments of clarity. Those moments are often born out of complete surrender, when I realize that I am not enough on my own and that’s okay. In those moments, I pray. Praying isn’t always easy, especially when doubt and exhaustion cloud my faith. But prayer reminds me that I don’t have to carry this weight alone. Through prayer, I pour out my frustrations, my fears, and my failures to a God who promises to carry my burdens when I cannot. I surrender it all to Him the unmet expectations, the nagging guilt, and the heavy exhaustion. I surrender the grades I couldn’t achieve and the milestones I couldn’t reach. I surrender the need to please everyone, even when it feels like I’m letting them down. In surrendering, I’ve discovered a truth. Rest doesn’t have to be perfect or planned. Rest can be found in moments of grace, where God’s peace transcends the chaos of my life. I may not have all the answers yet. I may still wake up feeling pressured and go to bed feeling spent. But I know I’m not alone in this struggle. And as I take it day by day, leaning on God for strength, I find glimpses of hope and healing.

If you’re reading this and feel the same tired, pressured, and lost know that it’s okay to pause. It’s okay to not have everything figured out. And it’s okay to surrender your worries to God, who loves you as you are, not as you think you should be. Together, let’s take a breath. Let’s let go of what we can’t control. And let’s find rest in the One who offers it freely, even when the world doesn’t.

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teacher jilian, is happy to see you standing on the stage and graduating with new knowledge, may all you learn be imprinted in your minds and hearts. congratulations nakshiesss✨

sunday school recognition 🎓