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i love you intimacy in reverse order. yes we've had sex before and i know all the details of your pleasure, but i don't know anything else. i don't know what it feels like to embrace you carelessly. i can barely hold your hand, the grip is so slight it makes me lose my breath. i want to kiss you but what pressure is the right one? how much is too intimate? yes we've had sex and i've done all these things before - but without the guise of mutual pleasure, can i be sure you won't turn me away? will you allow me the delicate feeling of your hand in mine when you know it is me asking to hold it? i know i've held you before with our clothes off, but can i hold you even tighter? may i listen to the steady sound of your heartbeat? is it alright to look for it in front of everyone? yes, yes of course we've had sex before. i know what you look like naked, ive touched you with the lights off. is it alright to want see you with them on? in the morning, with the sun flitting through the blinds?is it alright to want you when the sun is up? yes we've had sex before but have we ever been intimate? can we be? tell me that it's alright to hold you. no, not like that. just like this.

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Normal people: hey man how's it going

Guy who loves spreadsheets: can I make you a spreadsheet

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first stanza of a poem i wrote. it finds you in the quiet moments.

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i understand why people like the queue and i do respect you guys for using it but that is just not how i roll. if i think these 37 posts are funny you’re seeing them right fucking now

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lesbian situationship so bad they:

(I should let go of the idea that we might keep being friends)

broke up with me but then said we could sleep together one final time the day before my birthday

came to my birthday party 2 days later and flirted with me there

said we should break the attachment over the Easter holidays then kept flirting with me over text

invited me over to their place first day back after Easter, gave me a massage, told me they'd be down to start hooking up again

told my friend that they didn't say anything to suggest we'd be back on (???), and that "its there if i need it" and they have to "shake [me] off" like I'm obsessed with them

then flirted with me every day for three weeks until I finally had a conversation and told them to knock it off

came to "check on [me]" on a night out even after being told I was hitting on someone else

squared up to the person I was chatting to, who then LEFT

pissed me off so much that night I ended up shouting at them in the STREET saying they could either be with me or get the fuck out of my life

messaged me THE NEXT MORNING asking if I want to hook up in june

2 DAYS LATER THEY SAID TO MY BEST FRIEND THAT THEYRE GONNA SLEEP AROUND IN JUNE AND THAT "could" INVOLVE ME. and the reason for the Could is something that they have never communicated to me. that Could reason would have prevented 3 crashouts

turned up stoned to our gym session yesterday, didn't tell me that, and Acted Weird

invited me to a party with the most accursed inter-related group of people ever. and said they don't like the jeans I plan to wear :(

lesbian situationship so bad it's got me listening to Hamilton so I don't cry on a train to/from home for the 3rd time in a row

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lesbian situationship so bad it leads to you going to their birthday party. which will also be attended by someone they tried to get with, someone who has a crush on them, AND their previous situationship (this party's drama is going to be fucking biblical)

lesbian situationship so bad it's got me listening to Hamilton so I don't cry on a train to/from home for the 3rd time in a row

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keep having these surreal moments. wanted to die at 16. need to decide what colour trousers I want to wear when I graduate university.

anyway here's the foccacia I made for my friends at potluck that I tore into bits so we could all dip it in the baba ghanoush I made. there's a poem in here somewhere. I don't think I need to find it because I think I'm living it.

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the human body is so evil for inventing headaches it will throw one at you for anything. ate too little? headache. drank too little? headache. ate not the right things? headache. didnt wear your glasses? headache. took off your glasses for two fucking seconds? headache. bright light? headache. about to get your period? headache. about to get sick? headache. headphones too heavy? headache. ponytail too tight? headache. posture bad? headache. didnt sleep well? headache. slept too much? headache. didnt take your medication? headache. took your medication? headache. took an ibuprofen earlier? headache. didnt take an ibuprofen earlier? headache. RELEASE ME

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butch bait ‼️‼️

for t-shirts and such >:)

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also btw. doomed casual relationship w the hottest person you know is a terrible way to find out you're not aromantic

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lesbian situationship so bad it got me making a list of the worst (most egregiously Not Over Their Ex) shit they said

lesbian situationship so bad it's got me listening to Hamilton so I don't cry on a train to/from home for the 3rd time in a row

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lesbian situationship so bad it's got me listening to Hamilton so I don't cry on a train to/from home for the 3rd time in a row

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afraid i may have touched a sadness within myself i cannot jerk my way out of

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i'm aware that my dislike of the word masc in favour of butch makes me sound like one of those 2015core booktok posts that's like i don't like boys i like gentlemen but i think if i were straight that's who i would be. so it's okay

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wait to clarify i do know what I'm doing im analysing the impact of relationship development on trade deal outcomes

doing my dissertation is like. guys look i made a Cloud. no I don't have a final research question yet why would I need that

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doing my dissertation is like. guys look i made a Cloud. no I don't have a final research question yet why would I need that