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I am convinced every terrible thing that has ever happened to me has to do with me needing to get prettier.

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I banned all cats from my bedroom as soon as I learned that the woman I intended to marry was slightly allergic, all this in the off chance she would ever want to come over.

I will not be making that mistake again.

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Liked Birdman well enough but couldn't connect with it due to me:

A) Not growing up as a man

B) Not having any daddy issues

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I will get hired in approximately 6 hours but it's the offer I disliked the most 😭

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The one thing I hate about getting to see Danny is returning to a Dannyless existence

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I love Marina but this album had 5 songs to me

listened to some of the new marina album, and um.... everybody's so creative!

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Death in a foreign language

I used to write a lot about death

Alternative universes where dead was rarely a permanent state. "They die, but..."

Spirits wandering, souls trapped where they took their last breath, resurrection, escaping against the odds.

Then, my mother died.

It didn't impact my writing.

Two things can be true at once. Your death, as I interpret it. Your death in English, is very far away from my concept of muerte.

La muerte aches in ways I have yet to experience.

Has me sobbing in the car because she's still alive and I don't know if listening to me crying will upset her last moments.

Has me raging against all the terrible people in this world who get to live while she had to die. Has me thinking of what a failure I was, and how I could've done more.

Has me tormenting myself because I loved her wholeheartedly and it wasn't enough to save her.

Death is easy, death is something that I can fix, death is far away from me.

Death isn't real.

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Is it all about yaoi for you

Yes.

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Positive affirmations

- I'm still good meat

- I'm perfectly good meat

- I taste fine

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The fall of the House of Usher, 2023

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How old were you at the lowest point in your life? Reblog this and put it in the tags, plus your current age maybe. I'm trying to see something.

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I actually passed away quite a few years ago, but I'm a very private person and never told anybody.

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Real conversation I had with a close friend of mine over dinner tonight:

-...and most fics used to be about someone dying/getting terminally I'll, I'm glad those tropes aren't as prominent these days

-I didn't have that experience at all

-No, it was extremely prevalent

-it's because you read OLD MEN YAOI. They're old, so they díe

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Basic tasks while going through horrible times are the worse

What do you mean my world is crumbling and I still have to brush my teeth just so they don't crumble too?

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Once again, with feeling.