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Alt!Dean + Cas

old little sketch

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my favourite idiots (affectionate).

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Thinking about…. Chris is like 16 and Buck and Eddie get married in a friends to married way and they asked if Chris was okay with it and he said yeah because maybe some big Event had just happened and he was caught up in the relief and love of the moment but now it's been a few months and he's having some weird feelings about it that he's not sure he's allowed to have because he already gave his approval. It's just…. He didn't even know his dad liked men. Which is fine! It's whatever! Eddie just never told him about it. And Chris doesn't know if it's just men or just Buck or if he likes girls still too or what that means for his mom or even like. Ana or Marisol. Or Kim. Like what is his dad's problem. Is he going to fuck up and drive Buck away too? But…. He looks so happy. Chris isn't sure he's ever in his life seen Eddie this relaxed and happy and that feels weird too because… was he not enough? And Chris loves Buck, of course he does, but like. As a dad? Buck is suddenly his dad now? And like everyone was clear he doesn't have to call him dad or anything but like that's what all this means, right?

And then like… they're doing a geology unit in school and they learn about tsunamis and of course the LA tsunami is used as an example and Chris says he was on the pier and the teacher says…. Well you must have been pretty little when that happened, I'm sure you're misremembering where you were and Chris is like no Buck threw me in a prize booth. It smelled like popcorn. There was a bright purple teddy bear. And the teacher looks like shocked and disturbed and as they learn more about what happened exactly and the death toll and Chris remembers Buck was on blood thinners back then he's like. How in the fuck did we survive that.

So he’s just… thinking about buck a lot and how he fits into his life and the demonstrable extreme lengths he’d go to for Chris and he’s feeling even more guilty that he’s not just purely happy that they’re a real family on paper now and he's carrying around this gratitude and fear about this event that he lived through but maybe didn't understand the specifics of until now and then he overhears Buck and Eddie having an argument (Buck: just- will you fucking listen to me? How many times do I have to tell you that? God- don't roll your eyes at me-) and is like catastrophizing that it's over and all these mixed feelings were for nothing, and then some of his cool new high school friends have those electric bikes and one of them asks him if Chris wants to ride behind them on the seat and Chris is like. Fuck it. Yeah. But it takes more strength/coordination than he thought even just to be a passenger and he ends up falling off and breaking his arm and at first he's begging his friends not to call 911 and they're like uh dude we're absolutely calling 911 and Chris is like fine just- just don't say my name! And when they get to the hospital he asks them to call Buck and not Eddie (as soon as they got married they got everybody on everyone else's paperwork as much as they could) and the doctor dismisses that request initially but one of his friends who stuck around is like uh hey that's not cool if he's on the paperwork it should be fine right you should listen to him! And the doctor is like well fine I guess and Chris is grateful to the friend but also fucking angry and just. Embarrassed that he didn't get listened to and it's maybe because he's a teenager but probably because they saw a kid who speaks and moves differently and figured he couldn't make any choices for himself. So he's sitting there stewing and his arm fucking hurts and Dad is going to be so so mad at him and it's nice that his friend stuck around but he doesn't even know her that well and she's obviously getting kind of bored and this is the worst day ever and then Buck appears. Hisses air through his teeth. Oh bud, looks like you've had a rough one, huh.

And Chris nods and tries not to immediately start crying and Buck tells the friend he's got it from here and sits with him and asks what happened and like…. Chris has a moment of realizing that Buck knows he was the one who got called because Chris thinks of him as the… not-really dad. And Buck sees Chris having this realization and is like oh kid it's okay, Eddie is your dad first and is always going to be, it's okay that it's different with me, I'm just so glad to be a part of your family in any way I am. And anyway I'm the cool one he's gonna have a fit when he hears about this. And Chris laughs a little and then starts crying harder and Buck's like aw.. Chris, he's just going to be mad because he's worried… he loves you so much….

And they also kind of get into…. Buck got himself hurt a lot as a kid and some of it was intentional self harm but some of it really was just because he was a dumb kid having fun! He thinks that's important! Chris should also get to be a dumb kid who has fun! But says like…. “Any time you're going to do something that could maybe get you hurt I just want you to remember that I love you, and Eddie loves you, no matter what.”

And maybe they talk about the tsunami a little and Chris’ feelings in general about Buck and the marriage and Chris cries again (ugh) because he's realizing… he really does love Buck so so so much, he really is also his dad, a lot of the weird feelings were partly just fear that this was temporary or didn't mean as much to anyone else as it means to Chris, but of course this is forever of course Buck LOVES his kid!! Chris is his kid he loves him SO much!!!!

Enough to soft launch the injury over the phone while Chris gets the cast out on (hellooooo my beloved, my dearest one, love of my life, okay don't freak out there's just one broken bone and it isn't even broken that badly!) and to be a buffer as Eddie comes rocketing in half an hour later, and they all eventually head home together and Buck and Eddie have resolved whatever fight they had and they're both fussing over Chris and Chris and Eddie talk about Buck, and happiness (oh, mijo.. you can’t- happiness can’t come all from one person. You’ve never made me sad, it wasn’t your fault if I wasn’t- I just needed a partner, an adult, someone to, you know, romantically love and be loved by that i wasn’t forcing myself to choose because it felt like the right choice) and Eddie's sexuality and stuff and… I dunno, yeah, I just think Chris has a lot of big big feelings!! He's a teen! He’s got a whole life he’s living with his own thoughts and feelings and problems! He's been through so much!!!! This family all loves each other so much but they're all often kind of bad at explaining that to each other!! They'll get there eventually though!!

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I see dog buck most clearly when he meets Eddie because he’s like wait a second I’m the dog in the firehouse and he barks a lot and tries to get really territorial and Eddie as a dog is so cool that it makes him mad and then Eddie and buck retrieve a really big stick together (the grenade) and they do so well and Eddie sniffs at buck and gives him a gentle nibble on the ear and buck is like :•3!! And then their tails wag in synchrony for the rest of the show barring notable exceptions….

this is so true!!!!!! eddie gives him a gentle nibble on the ear and buck literally rolls over onto his back and shows his soft underbelly and wiggles around on the floor with his tail wagging. ugh

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“no we’re not gay. i’m just raising a kid with him”

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I love this kind of book cover, its so good... 📚

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same thing with seeing everyone on my timeline starting spn after 911s8 ended i was like oh god no guys hold on wait guys

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buddie is so cool. you’d think that mr frat boy rebel kid steals-fire-engines-to-fuck-in-them buck buckley would be the bad influence on mr military silver star single father ballroom dance champion eddie diaz. but in reality it’s mr illegal fight club changes-a-tyre-with-a-boot-on-it “we don’t need a key we’re firefighters” eddie diaz dragging mr loves baking loves kids goes-crazy-for-rules-and-clipboards buck buckley into shenanigans with him. beautiful <3

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THAT IS EVAN BUCKELY AND DIPPER PINES TOGETHER STOP IT STOP STOP STOP 😭

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something about that kitchen…☼⋆˙⟡♡

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tumblr god status idk i just work here

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oh you love me? name 97 of my trials and tribulations

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buddie canon truthers stay in LINE WE’RE BACK TRUST 🗣️🗣️

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joining the 911 fandom a bit ago and finally starting to watch the episodes as they air love starting at 8x14 is like getting a brand new puppy and you love it so much, it’s so cute and lovely and- and someone just came in and shot your fucking puppy.

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intertwined🤍