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Jan could almost imagine that they weren't on a tour bus. He could almost imagine them lounging on their living room sofa, TV screen flashing its light to Igor casually laying on the table and simply enjoying their life. At home, almost ready to head to the bed, to close the door form the world and make the bedroom the center of their universe where only they mattered. Jan could imagine that, emphasis on could. He sighed.

(Please, do mind the tags and the piece being rated E for a reason.)

+ a moodboard below the cut for reasons~

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Although, technically speaking, they weren't friends. They were coworkers, bandmates, just some random people whose paths had crossed some time ago and Jan couldn't keep his thoughts in line at the presence of Nace. There wasn't enough proof that he had a chance with the bassist and Jan liked proof before acting on anything, but... He liked Nace. He liked Nace a lot. The idea of being here, in the darkness of his home, just standing few steps apart was nauseatingly exciting and dear god he hoped that he was reading the signs right.

Jan studied Nace, the darkness of the corridor making it hard to make out every detail of his face. He could feel his heart racing under his shirt.

This could be it.

(Please, do mind the tags and the piece being rated E for a reason. The pedal is pressed on ch2)

+ a moodboard below the cut for reasons.

I'm just gently leaving this here and running back to the hills

[kuurupiilo-writes]

But the Finn's eyes. Grayish, with a hue of almost icy light blue, were beautiful. Attentive, striking as ever even when tired. He was gorgeous. Jere was gorgeous.

Ethereal even, Bojan couldn't help himself from thinking.

And a little moodboard because I'm a sucker for those

[kuurupiilo-writes]

For Director's cut: ⭐ "breakthroughs in breakdowns"

Ooo, this one is quite hard to be honest.

Breakthroughs in breakdowns was originally supposed to be a very, very different fic than what it turned out to be.

I began writing the fic back in September, right after Nordic Tour had ended when a friend of mine said that they had seen what looked extremely similar to JO's then-tourbus at the skywheel the morning after Tavastia and two people sitting in a cart. I toyed with the idea of something sweet, cute and fluffy. Tender kisses on the cheek and holding hands, maybe even some kind of confessions. However, regardless of how hard I tried I just... wasn't happy with what I was writing. I couldn't pinpoint what it was that I was unhappy with, but nothing just felt right. So I abandoned the fic.

When I heard Bluza in Helsinki night one, I felt the ache and yearning in it and after reading the translated lyrics, I knew I had found my muse to rework the fic. I put my hands into the metaphorical clay that was Bluza and molded my interpretation of the head-space of a person who hadn't quite reached the mental space when writing Bluza. Like what was before Bluza, you know? In the lyrics there's quiet and gentle begging and pleading that's put into words so beautifully that the feelings must have been intense. When you're so madly in love with someone that it makes everything blurry and dramatic and you just desperately want to hold onto the person you love, but the circumstances are not in your favor. In my mind's eye, that's what was before Bluza.

In the end, only the hand-holding remained. I stripped all the fluff away and replaced it with angst. Sorry about that.

As a fun fact, originally there was another thousand+ words describing the anxiousness of Bojan, but that felt a little bit too much even for me. I already made the pupperino (Bojan) suffer for the fic so I didn't want to kick someone who was already down.

Breakthroughs in breakdowns isn't a perfect fic by any means. At points it's very much just a stream of consciousness where I tried to channel my inner Bojan to the text and for a while I doubted on even publishing it at all. I'm kind of glad I did though, as it helped me to process Bluza.

Thank you for the ask 🩷

[kuurupiilo-writes]

Fanfic Writers: Director’s Cut

Reblog this if you want readers to come into your ask box and ask for the “director’s commentary” on a particular story, section of a story, or set of lines. 

Or, send in a ⭐star⭐  to have the author select a section they’ve been dying to talk about!

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aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa thank you for including breakthroughs in breakdowns in this list together with literal masterpieces ❤️❤️❤️

sleepover weekend ask! I know it's already Monday!

I know you've been making your way through a lot of fanfic lately, including older stuff. So, can you please make a rec list? I'm hoping to see some gems I might have missed or forgot about (since I'm terrible at saving even the stuff I like)

Don't worry, it can be a weekend even during the week (especially since I work on most weekends)!

And yes, I can make a rec list. Lets see how long it will be. It's in alphabetical order by writers.

Bojere fic recs:

Do you think we'll be in love forever? by ate_my_brain - still going on but this has been a joy to read.

Dreams taste like you by ate_my_brain - friends to lovers with fluff and angst

The story of love (that hurts) by ate_my_brain - getting together with angst

Besane Su Naše Noći by cripplingdepresso and mitochondriencocktail - star!Bojan AU

my heart wants to come home by da_proti_toku_grem - short and fluffy

This time I'm ready to run ('cause I wanna be free) by hoddypeak - getting together and Nordic Tour

When I don't have you, my demons are with me by HotCat37 - possessive and jealous Bojan, very good smut

Io ti chiamo amore in una lingua straniera by JuliaBaggings - pining, languages and background Jance

Mai Dire Mai by JuliaBaggings - friends to lovers

Breakthroughs in breakdowns by kuurupiilo - Bluza insired hurt no comfort

Put Me Together, Thread a Needle by mitochondriencocktail - an excellent hockey!AU

You Can't Stop Me From Loving You by MyHeartIsYours4Ever - pining and angst

On a Good Day by Nothing_Rhymes_With_Orange - Bojere far in the future (this is very lovely, a little sad)

I had all and then most of you, some and now none of you by paperphilia - super sad but beautifully written

Midsummer (enought light to drive anyone insane) by PupperMasterOnAString - lovely midsummer fic. This was the first one I read, I believe.

the kid -series by Rosemind - I don't usually read fics with kids but this series is so adorable!

the tour by Rosemind - drabbles inspired by Nordic Tour

the wedding -series by Rosemind - very lovely and fluffy

Teach Me What Love Is by SamePlaceandTime - languages and fluff

sä saat mut by sepetajmikolikomeces - Tavastia feels

Summer wrote us a letter -series by Televa - lovely collection of summery and other kind of slice of life fics

oothan tässä vielä huomenna by tilhi - slow burn friends to lovers

Tarkotin sua by tilhi - soulmates!AU

toisiltamme mitä tahansa by tilhi - pining, jealous Bojan, such a joy to read

These are def not all the fics I've enjoyed, just a few (24) I picked for this list. This corner of the internet has such amazing writers ❤

[kuurupiilo-writes]

Bojere Week Day 7

Prompt: big domestic life milestone

Truly, this is what summerhouses were made for, Jere thought. Sure, they could be a lot of work, but at the end of the day it was all worth it. Brushing your teeth while admiring the sunset and enjoying the lakeside view just had that something in it he couldn't quite explain.

And a little moodboard to get you into the feeling ~

[kuurupiilo-writes]

So, hi!

I’m Kuurupiilo, you may or may not know me from ao3. Welcome to my little corner of tumblr.

A lil bit about myself:

I’m a queer Finn in my late twenties and am living my Joker Out and Käärijä brainrot-era. I read and write fics when I have time from irl responsibilities. ”Kuurupiilo” means hide-and-seek in Finnish, which is oddly fitting considering that in my main platform I don’t openly talk about my writing. So I’m hiding in plain sight so to say, haha.

Anyways, idk if I’ll ever actively use this platform, but I thought I could still have a blog here. For purposes, you know. Maybe sharing my snippets of WIP’s, maybe for interacting with people, maybe even for prompts if I ever get that far with my writing. Who knows.

Sorry for being awkward, I’m very bad at inteoductions and tumblr.

You can find me on ao3 👇🏻