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16/8/25

Been a really long time since I updated lol I was super lazy Turns out Mary and my friend group are homophobic so i left and went back to my old friend group and realized i missed so much and i can never go back. So now I have no actually friends and they prob wouldn't even care if I died or anything and it sucks cuz i feel so alone rn i wish someone was here

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14/4/25

headaches :)

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11/4/25

I forgot to do this so I'm doing in on the 12th (today). So, yesterday there was an eid feast at my school and it was so messy. Unlike last year, we couldn't do it in our classes. The whole school was cramped up in the open hall, canteen and the Co-curricular Hall. It was so hot it felt like i was literally melting. Aside from that, it was actually fun. I mean, sure, it wasn't as fun as last year but it still was okay. There was a lot of food but everything finished quickly and I finally got to eat cheesecake(I was craving it for 3 months) It was so good. There was pasta too which a friend of mine made. The teachers took so long to give the speech that some of us(me) started eating earlier than we're supposed to but no one really cared. It was chaotic. We took a bunch of pictures and laughed a lot. It was nice. I really hope we get more moments like this in our last 2 years in our school. I know I'll miss it all.

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9/4/25

I don't know if it's just my sister and I or others have this too, but I ABSOLUTELY HATE when my sister ignore what I say especially when I'm giving advice or something. I know she heard me but is it so hard to reply? Does she think she's so important or something??? Literally everyone in my family is annoyed with it but no one is doing anything about it. How the hell is she the smartest in our grade but so dumb at the same time. She can't even do simple things right, I mean I don't usually go at people for this but the fact that she always rubs it in that she's better than me academically makes me want to throw her off a building. She pisses me off so badly. Anyways, today I was with Mary at the library, and it was sooo fun. She said that it felt like it's been a long time she hasn't seen me and was like "every time something funny happens or anything and I want to tell you but then I realize you're not there." She is so sweet (when she's not mad). She makes me feel so safe with her and it's just nice to be around her. Sometimes I just look at her and think "I love her(platonically), I'm so grateful to have her as a friend." Then there are times where I have to choose between her and Elle. Elle is another close friend of mine but she's in another friend group. I left their friend group because they were so toxic. I don't even talk to most of them only Piper and Ash during extracurricular activities but other than that I try to avoid them. So, I made sort of a schedule between the both of them like every Monday, Wednesday and Friday I would be with Mary and every Tuesday and Thursday I would be with Elle. I really don't want to choose between them, but I fear one day I will have to choose. Sometimes it gets so hard for me to keep the balance of me hanging out with the both of them that it literally feels like I was thrown into a jar and was shook for 2 hours.

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8/4/2025

This blog is going to be about whatever i need to let out such as vents/memories/opinions/thoughts and etc :) ♡