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still ongoing with my fast, been working out and keeping myself busy chugging water.

cant wait to be at a weight i feel better in.

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No one:

No one at all:

Me looking at th¡nsp0 after eating and sitting on my ass all day:

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It feels so embarrasing to have an ed but not being skinny

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75hrs into fast! hunger has def died down today, i made dinner and could smell everything so intensely. barely had any energy, but still got a lot done. might have to make a cravings blog for when i start missing food

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I’m gonna focus on my ed this summer fuck everything else

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i rlly hate that the brother dies in this ed movie, iykyk

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waiting for this, im just about to hit hr 48, after i lose the hunger i plan to push myself until i break my own record. im sick of my own bs, i am losing this weight.

Body in Fasting Mode ੭* ੈ✩‧₊˚

There is literally nothing better than the feeling of fasting for soooo long that you body goes into ⭐ving mode and completely stops producing ghrelin(hormone that causes hunger).

It feels like you stepped out of a sauna.

It feels like a cold glass of water.

It feel like your finally in full control.

No stupid body signals, No hunger Panes, Only your own self-control to steer you to your goals.

Try it and you'll be addicted.

Gonna fast for 5 days to feel it again <3

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I’m literally so massive. What the fuck.

My hands, arms, stomach, ribs, legs seem larger every time I look at them 😭😭

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Am I the only one who thinks that ⭐ving is easier than high restriction. If I put 1 piece of food in my mouth it's over for me.

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hiii pls interact with this if you're an active adult €dblr account in april 2024

i desperately need more adults to follow and be mutuals with, i feel so uncomfortable with so many minors' posts on my dash

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Does anyone else feel embarrassed for failing at their ED as an adult?

Like I have more control over my actions and my life than I ever did living with my parents- but I can’t lose weight or stay in a consistent deficit.

I’m such a 🐖

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bruh losing and gaining weight over and over is so exhausting.

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i sometimes think that the only thing standing between me and experiencing a full life is my weight.

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im baaaack 🤓

i have been eating in this past week and it went into binge-territory because i was smoking weed. thankfully i was bloated for the last two days but my body is back to not being that bloated. i wasn’t able to go to the bathroom for almost a whole week, the eating helped change that as well as me drinking detox tea

currently fasting and might just fast for the rest of the day. i really hate that i can’t smoke without bingeing, smoking helps me with my anxiety but i can’t do it thanks to lack of self control

im probably not going to be losing weight as fast as i want to. i will keep my focus on cico and try not to stress or obsess over the number. also might not post as much th!n$p0 on my blog anymore, it only serves as mental torture for me and i also dont want to make anyone else feel that way. im really sorry if i did, if anything on my blog made you feel lesser than. i truly am sorry.

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hi beautiful humans on edblr, im taking a small break from this blog. i think my relapse has made my body dysmorphia even worse, it doesn’t help that i obsess over other peoples bodies on here whilst constantly wishing i can somehow morph into them.

i am still going to be fasting and working out, but just not posting on here for a while (not sure how long as of yet)

i also kinda want to retreat into my spirituality and spend some time connecting to God and praying, i feel like i’m on this app for too many hours and overall it’s pretty unhealthy on my part. i’ve always wanted to do a spiritual fast but could never do one because my ed steps in and makes it about wl and idk, i think that’s mighty disrespectful (albeit out of my control)

earlier today i really saw something massive in my reflection, but after my walk i looked in the mirror and i truly did not look bad, still fat, but not like what i first saw. i remember when i was 12 the same thing would happen, i would see this obese person but i was actually considered chubby at worst (not to mention had lost a shit ton of weight then as well)

idk sis, this shit has been ongoing for so long, im sure u all can relate. i need to work on my mental health. i still need to lose weight, so i can’t just stop that and “recover”, but i do want to make some steps to build a better mindset about myself and my body.

thank u sooo much if u read all of this, 💖i really have love in my heart for every person suffering on here. i know we make jokes and memes and whatnot, but we are all in pain and sufferers of a mental disorder. wish i could hug all of u.

be back when i’m feeling a bit better (and closer to skinniiii lmao)⭐️✨💕

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