lifewithproblems

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long day, so much revision to do, so little time, I need motivation

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todays felt poetic, it’s one of those days I think I will remember in the future; purely because of the friendship and joy I felt. i’m glad i get to experience these days from time to time. to sum it up i went to central, saw all the touristy things and after school stuff went out for dinner with my friends. one of which i kinda lost touch with. it was really fun.

nonetheless reconnecting with people from my past makes me yearn for that one person.. there’s those days where it hits me and i miss them and what we could have been.

this whole post may be super ambiguous but my day has just reminded to reflect on the good moments in life - and don’t use a permanent solution to solve temporary problems; life moves on so we must move with it

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just a quick one today: i wanted to reflect on what i was proud i have done (so i keep being productive) thus.. i am glad i wrote a scene today, i did some chemistry practice, started looking at the lnat.

goals for tomorrow: maths revision! chemistry consolidation and english coursework (i have to get going in this)

i have a chemistry trip tomorrow which i’m not particularly looking forward to but i’m going with a few of my friends so it shouldn’t be toooo bad.

ft something cute i so relate to

bye 🫶

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2nd post (on the same day) this is addicting. i thought i would share some things i enjoy poem form i guess?:

late nights, steamy showers, rose jam, cats, blackberries, buldak ramen, spirituality, oil burners, wax, the smell of glue, joy, emilia and desdemona, tubing mascara, perfume, bergamont, earl grey tea, wired headphones

also i’m kinda going through a spiritual awakening right now.. iv got into meditation before bedtime, i’m going to begin a spiritual journal, burning herbs, candles and incense. it’s almost witchy but feels so healing and like i’m connecting to a part of me i hadnt connected with before. tbh my main goal is to get better sleep though, i sleep so bad and think this is genuinely helping. relaxation ig? i’m feeling very lana del rey, french jazz currently, oh how i wish to go to paris. i have been twice i believe, it’s so beautiful.

right now my agenda is; writing some english lit coursework and scripting for this school play type thing - essentially when your in year 12 you direct a play to perform in your houses. it’s been fun so far, a little bit worried about the power dynamics but i have hope and it’s a great experience tbh. i better get writing, maybe i can share the script after performance? it’s meant to be super confidential so i can’t right now, all i will say is vibes are season 3 stranger things in the best way possible. lana is blasting and i’m going to begin.

bye 🫶

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i deserve good fulfilling sleep

my body deserves rest

i deserve to sleep in a calming environment

i deserve to sleep in a room that smells nice

i deserve to go to sleep with a clear mind

i deserve to wake up feeling refreshed

i deserve to lean into rest for as long as i need to

i deserve to experience peace and tranquility

i do not need to be productive to be deserving of rest

rest is not a reward, but a requirement

i deserve to wake up feeling well rested

i deserve to go to sleep knowing I’m loved and am deserving of deep, nourishing rest

i deserve to go easier on myself

i deserve to release all tension prior to sleep and fully give into melting into my bed

i will awaken energised and fulfilled

i will be grateful i slept

i will show my body love and kindness once i awaken

i thank my body for carrying me safely through sleep and helping me heal

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hi.. this is my first post. it’s weird but i’m just going to treat this like a diary type of thing. i think we should start with an intro, i’m 16, doing my A levels (chem, maths, english lit) and my life is extremely hectic - partly due to my adhd. i go to a highly academic school which can be kinda stressful but i think it helps me push myself. however rn i’m building so much resentment towards school! i feel like they lack to recognise the achievements of people and it makes me so angry seeing how hard some people work to get nothing from the school in return. i’m lucky to be quite naturally smart and needing to do much less revision than some however my best friend; called arabella from now on, works so so hard and i feel like she’s never recognised. there’s clear favouritism towards some students, and this discriminatory nature to those who don’t fit into the ‘studious’ looking stereotype.. there’s even a club for people with ‘high intellectual potential’ which i think is ridiculous bc EVERYONE has potential!!! anyways i will stop complaining (for now). being in year 12 has been much harder than i thought it would be, i was determined on leaving my school but ended up staying due to convenience and ever since i feel a pit of regret within my stomach. don’t get me wrong i adore most of my teachers but the way that things are, the people here and the lack of understanding regarding neurodivergence really gets to me. i guess it’s this feeling of judgement, sometimes rightfully deserved because i do say things without thinking and have a tendency to be dopamine seeking but a lot of the time it feels like there’s predispositions and misjudgement of character. idk maybe i’m complicating it bc that’s what my brain always does but it’s so difficult and i think a lot of staff, and the overall construction of how school is doesn’t consider that. but that’s just society isnt it 🤷‍♀️.

i have so much gossip and things to talk about but i feel like this is enough for now.

bye 🫶