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🚨 ATTENTION CARATS 🚨

amina is a palestinian carat from gaza raising funds to safely evacuate her and her family out of gaza, as well as to complete her undergraduate degree where she is studying to be a pharmacist. she has currently raised $10,724 AUD out of her $46,000 AUD goal, but donations have been running very slow recently as her twitter accounts keep getting suspended and as a result her reach is getting lower and lower

if you're able to donate to help amina and her family please do so, any amount helps. if you can't donate right now, a reblog and sharing her gfm to others would also be very helpful

🔗 https://www.gofundme.com/f/please-help-me-complete-my-education-and-secure-a-safe-place

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Reblog if:

- You support recovery.

- You support those in recovery.

- You support seeking help.

- You want  people to seek help.

- You think everyone is beautiful, regardless of their weight.

- Even if you yourself, aren’t seeking help or are in recovery, want others too.

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48 Apps for Autistics and ADHDers

Neurodivergent_lou

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I just figured something out about myself that I feel really excited about so I need to tell someone.

I’m adding it/its to my list of main pronouns.

I’ve known that people use those for a couple years now and I had no problems using it for other people but I always felt weird using them for myself. That wasn’t necessarily because I truly didn’t like them. I just thought that I wasn’t aloud to use these pronouns because it “dehumanizes trans people”. I thought I’d be like hurting the trans community by using it/its as a pronoun for myself.

As I continued exploring my gender and different pronouns I realized that I often feel so disconnected from myself that I don’t even feel human. I think most of that is related to the fact that I’ve lived with Chronic Depersonalization since I was a kid.

I noticed recently that whenever I write down my thoughts, I tend to refer to myself as “something/a thing” rather than “someone/a person.” So after realizing that I started to question if I wanted to use it/its because I already used voi/void which is another pronoun that some people consider to be “dehumanizing”. The answer was yes. To be honest I kinda like that these pronouns are dehumanizing. For some reason it makes me feel more comfortable with myself.

Anyways, I tried using it/its on the pronoun dressing room (which I’ve done with every other pronoun I use/wanted to try out). The amount of gender euphoria I felt while reading the little text using those pronouns for me was so high. It was honestly at the same level as when I figured out that I was Agender and when I found the pronoun Ey/em back in 2018. I couldn’t stop stimming because I was so excited and happy.

I don’t really feel like I can explain this anyone irl cause I don’t think they’d understand. So I’m sharing it here instead. I have not been able to stop stimming since I realized this. I’m feel so excited and happy.

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ateez masterlist includes all members! taglist form can be found here!

multiple members

ateez as encouraging words: no cw, just encouraging advice/words

still trying (ot8 x gender neutral!reader): trigger warning for disordered behaviours, trigger warning for repetition, implied eating disorder, angst (please do not read if these topics trigger you)

safe & sound (ot8 x gender neutral!reader): angst, hurt/comfort, fluff at the very end, reader has a mental breakdown, mentions of medication, hospitals and knives, can be read as platonic or romantic

ateez + s/o s*lf-h*rming (gender neutral!reader): [includes seonghwa, yeosang, san and wooyoung] reactions, angst, hurt/comfort, discussions of blood, injury and self harm - please do not read if such topics will trigger you

apologies (park seonghwa, choi san x gender neutral!reader): poly, hurt/comfort, fluff, implied anxiety attack

dizzy (jeong yunho, song mingi x gender neutral!reader): poly, fluff, mild hurt/comfort

monster energy girl (jeong yunho, song mingi x fem!reader): college!au, poly, fluff, crack, non-sexual nudity

summer heat (kang yeosang-centric, no reader, ot8): angst, hurt/no comfort, nightmares, blood (includes blood pacts), vomit, animal death/collection of animal remains, mentions of death and various illnesses, implied agoraphobia

kim hongjoong

lucky (gender neutral!reader): fluff, angst, body dysmorphia, scars (not self harm related), reader’s body and weight is not described!

tired (gender neutral!reader): fluff, tired hongjoong

back outside (gender neutral!reader): non-idol au, ot8 interaction, angst(?), implied anxiety/agoraphobia

fishbowl (kim hongjoong-centric, no reader): angst-ish, mentions of ot8

healing (gender neutral!reader): fluff, hurt/comfort, dermatillomania/skin picking disorder (not the same as self-harm), platonic ot8

recycling (fem!reader): childhood best friend + flatmate!hongjoong, reminiscent of sexual abuse/possibly triggering, angst, hurt/comfort, implied sexual content, mentions of an ex, toxic relationship

growing pains (kim hongjoong-centric, feat. fem!reader): angst, takes place after reader’s death, hongjoong has a son

low on gas (gender neutral!reader): non-idol!au, angst, slight hurt/comfort, implied past abuse

5:39pm (gender neutral!reader): hurt/comfort, words of encouragement

sugar, spice and coffee with ice (gender neutral!reader): bakery!au, fluff, sickfic/comfort, co-workers san + mingi

the sea is a good place (kim hongjoong-centric, no reader, ot8): angst, hurt/comfort, burnout, briefly implied suicidal ideation, swearing, lots of affection

does this look like an 800 number to you? (gender neutral!reader): spirit!hongjoong, angst, implied suicide (do not read if such topics will trigger you), mild description of wounds

unwavering (gender neutral!reader): fluff/comfort, reader has trichotillomania/hair pulling disorder

new traditions (gender neutral!reader): flatmate!kim hongjoong, fluff, confessions

sweet summer (gender neutral!reader): 90s!au, hitchhiker!reader, fluff

park seonghwa

plastic flowers (fem!reader): smut, fluff, angst, unplanned pregnancy, discussion of abortions, ot8 interaction

cinderella (fem!reader): plastic flowers spin-off, fluff, domestic, feat. platonic jung wooyoung + reader

poetry (gender neutral!reader): light angst(?), fluff, established relationship, childhood bestfriend!seonghwa

yellow label (gender neutral!reader): flatmate!seonghwa, angst, hurt/very little comfort, implied past abuse

scraped knees (gender neutral!reader): bartender!seonghwa, fluff, lots of fluff, pick up lines

slipping (gender neutral!reader): hurt/comfort, established relationship, disordered behaviours (disorder not otherwise specified), mentions of past disorders/illness

observatories (fem!reader): fansign, fluff

closing curtain (fem!reader): angst, established relationship, reader + seonghwa have a daughter, alcohol mention, mentions of divorce

lose some, win some (fem!reader): platonic relationship, sexual content, loss of virginity, homosexual park seonghwa + homosexual reader, fluff(?)/humour

orange flavoured (gender neutral!reader): college-ish!au, fluff, sickfic, comfort

bloody tissues (gender neutral!reader): fluff, nose bleed

soft (gender neutral!reader): 80s!au, somewhere in between fluff and angst, physical violence

keep looking (gender neutral!reader): villain!seonghwa, journalist!reader, slow-ish burn, murder/crime, angst, uneven power dynamics, feat. san

jeong yunho

band aids (fem!reader): hurt/comfort, angst, sexual content but little smut, minor fluff, yunho has a big dick, insecurities

kiss it better (gender neutral!reader): sickfic, fluff, lots of comfort, established relationship, crying, puke, reader has food poisoning, other members make an appearance

phases (male!reader): college!au, fluff

take my hand (gender neutral!reader): angst + hurt/comfort, references to a past abusive relationship

kang yeosang

cheating is a crime (fem!reader): implied college au, flatmate!yeosang, angst, smut, fluff, cheating (does not involve Yeosang), brief mention of vomit, mentions of alcohol

the five times he was too scared to kiss you and the one time he did (gender neutral!reader): high school & college!au, best friends to lovers, ‘99 line interaction, brief mention of insecurities, fluff

study group (gender neutral!reader): college!au, mild hurt/comfort, fluff(?), 99z friend group

sinking ships (gender neutral!reader): best friend!yeosang, angst, hurt/no comfort, swearing

corn syrup au (vampire!yeosang):

origin post

cuspids (gender neutral!reader): vampire!yeosang, fluff, teeth, yeosang knows next to nothing about human anatomy

corn syrup (gender neutral!reader): vampire!yeosang, fluff, fake blood, yeosang’s first halloween

twist and pull (gender neutral!reader): vampire!yeosang, fluff, hurt/comfort, sickfic-ish, tooth pulling/teething

choi san

regardless (fem!reader): fluff, minor smut towards the end, small-chested reader, insecurities, push up bras

superpower (gender neutral!reader): college!au, frat boys!ateez, fluff-ish, san takes care of reader, reader is somewhat of a recluse, alcohol, harassment (does not involve san)

birthday gift (gender neutral!reader): implied smut, fluff, humour

hiraeth (gender neutral!reader/ot8): choi san-centric, non-idol!au, artist!san, flatmates!ot8, light angst, fluff, light hurt/comfort, platonic and romantic ot8

one to ten (gender neutral!reader): childhood friend!san, angst, takes place after reader’s death (cause of death is not specified)

you’ll be fine (without me) (gender neutral!reader): angst, mentions of organs/physical pain

post-apocalyptic kind of hot (gender neutral!reader): post-apocalypse!au, fluff, mentions of bugs

three, two (and one) (gender neutral!reader): angst, choi san-centric, implied illness towards the end

shit happens (gender neutral!reader): fluff, friends with benefits/early stages relationship, post-sex, broken condom, no smut

song mingi

home is where the heart is (gender neutral!reader): fluff, minor angst, best friend!mingi

tutoring (gender neutral!reader): college!au, fluff, first kisses

spilled coffee (gender neutral!reader): non-idol!au, fluff, slight hurt/comfort, strangers to (sort of) lovers

saccharine, syrupy and other words that remind me of you (male!reader): high school sweethearts!au, fluff, mentions of other 99z, mentioned underage drinking, takes place at a high school reunion

1:11 a.m. (gender neutral!reader): kissing

jenga (gender neutral!reader): non-idol!au, 99z friend group, fluff, friends to lovers, alcohol/puking

jung wooyoung

you got me right (gender neutral!reader): hurt/comfort, fluff, crying

move on (gender neutral!reader): angst, implied death, mentions of ot8

nostalgia is a place, not a feeling (gender neutral!reader): post-high school!au, ex!wooyoung, mentions of drug use, cigarettes, nosebleed mention, swearing, angst, slice of life

three letters (fem!reader): college!au, fluff, light angst, some humour, pregnant reader, birth control mentions, feat. san + seonghwa

noodles and sleep (gender neutral!reader): angst, hurt/comfort, established relationship, anxiety, use of safeword, bottom wooyoung, fluff toward the end

00:57 am (gender neutral!reader): strangers to acquaintances, angst, brief hurt/comfort, good ending, reader is almost hit by a car, implied suicidal thoughts

all by heart (gender neutral!reader): angst, post-break up, food/cooking

i don’t mind (gender neutral!reader): fluff, domesticity

wasted potential (gender neutral!reader): angst/hurt no comfort, childhood sweethearts, small towns

choi jongho

hand to hold (gender neutral!reader): flatmates!ateez, hurt/comfort, fluff, seonghwa is protective, implied paranoia and anxiety (do not read if discussions of paranoid beliefs will trigger you)

1500 (fem!reader): college!au, wlw reader, platonic, hurt/comfort, fluff, reader is going through a breakup, jongho is a good friend

don’t think (choi jongho-centric): narrative, jongho has writer’s block that’s it that’s the story

siren song (gender neutral!reader): 90s!au, small towns, angst-ish, toxic relationship, implied criminal activity, guns

two sides, one coin (gender neutral!reader): 90s!au, implied criminal + sexual activity, blood mention

sooner or later au (friends to lovers):

sooner or later (gender neutral!reader): non-idol!au, fluff, friends to lovers, grocery shopping + food talk

07:30 a.m. (mentioned gender neutral!reader): non-idol!au, fluff/slice-of-life, friends to lovers 

more ATEEZ content:

front row angel masterlist (emo rock band!ATEEZ au)

ATEEZ NSFW masterlist - 18+ ONLY, minors do not interact

slasher!TEEZ masterlist - 18+ ONLY, minors do not interact

1-800-HOTTER-THAN-U masterlist - 18+ ONLY, minors do not interact

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I am tired of having to ask for space in this world fuck it. Imma demand that ppl acknowledge that we fucking exist. Learn That everyone is different and the world is not like what you were told it was. Yea not eveyone falls in love, not everyone needs love, not everyone wants love, the world is not about love. Love is not important. The world just is. Love is just a thing that happens. Get over it.

That doesn't mean you're bad for enjoying love, all we need is for you to just sit instead of laying across the seats cause we need space on this train called life.

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happy ace week

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alternative terms to nonverbal

putting this in the tag so nonverbal and nonspeaking people know what to ask others to say instead

people who sometimes lose speech need alternatives to nonverbal because nonverbal is a term that is for people who do not speak ever and will never speak. they do not want this term watered down.

here are the words i use:

wordlost: this is a temporary state. it is when you aren't going to be using words on your own. aac possibly still works, like word emojis and flashcards, and you might be able to read text out loud if it is composed for you, but you probably cannot use most words without seeing them or hearing them, and they might be difficult to arrange into sentences even once you have them. you also might still experience vocal tics including words, or echolalia including words.

talklost/speechlost: this is a temporary state. it is when you cannot speak your own words with your mouth. typing or writing words yourself still works. you might not be able to read out loud, either, but sometimes being speechlost just comes from not being able to compose your words and say them with your mouth all at once; some people might be able to type and then read out their own words while speechlost, or the same person might be able to sometimes and not others. you might also still experience vocal tics including words, or echolalia including words.

you can be speechlost and wordlost at the same time!

the first two sentences of each definition are the most important. the rest is just explaining and giving examples so please do not use that part to "gotcha" anyone unless it is to include more. do not use it to exclude others though because there are probably things i did not think of.

there is room for more terms of this format too, but i don't have those experiences, so i wouldnt know what to put in the explanations.

anyway i hope this helps!

PEOPLE IN SYSTEMS CAN USE WORDLOST AND SPEECHLOST ALSO.

oh also if you want to, you can say you are wordfound or speechfound after you stop being wordlost or speechlost! the phrase "trying to get wordfound" repeats in my head a LOT when im wordlost.

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ACE WEEK COMIC...01!!

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Preparing For Your ADHD Assessment

Future ADHD

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Things that make a good therapist (in my opinion)

Building a relationship and getting to know the person is one of their first goals when it comes to new clients.

“Trauma dumping” doesn’t exist within sessions.

“Fixing” their client is not one of their goals.

Cluster A/B/C friendly.

Gives their clients a space to cry without overwhelming them with too many questions/teasing them/etc.

Talks about the positive things as well as the negative.

Is able to validate their clients’ experiences without hating on the people they're talking about.

Will accept "I don't know" as an answer when asking the client about their goals in attending therapy.

Don't get offended if clients stop coming.

Makes sure their client is okay with it before offering unsolicited advice.

Doesn't suck up to the clients' parents / is willing to stand their ground when it comes to the safety and wellbeing of the person they're seeing.

Asks the client what THEY want out of the sessions and goes from there.

Understands that every client is different / doesn't expect the same techniques to work on everyone.

Understands that improvements are not always going to be made in five sessions.

aka my beloved therapist. It took me five years of going through specialists thinking there was no hope for me before I found her, and it's the first time I've ever consistently been excited about attending those sessions instead of avoiding them.

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As always, the Irish speak nothing but facts.

How many more innocent civilians have to be killed by Israel before you condemn that for it?

That is a genocide.

That this is a crime on all accounts.

And deserves to be punished to the full extent off the law.

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A little bit of useful advice from my autistic time blind ass to yours: If you think to yourself that you've got time, no worries, sweetie, NO YOU DON'T. THOSE 5 MINUTES DO NOT EXIST. THAT HALF AN HOUR IS ACTUALLY 10 MINS AT BETS USE IT WISELY. IF IT TAKES 15 MINS FROM HERE TO THERE NO IT DOESN'T IT TAKES LONGER. YOU CANNOT DO IT ALL. DON'T ADD SUPLEMENTARY THINGS TO YOUR LIST YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO DO THEM. PLEASE LISTEN. YOU DON'T HAVE THAT TIME.

Now off you go, scurry away to your next planned activity. You'll probably have to hurry.

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kingdom ep.5 // seonghwa

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220cal Fruit (ice)cream bars

(i made two portions ,16 pieces in total, the calories are for 8 pieces, about 30 per piece)

okay first of all…sorry that i was gone so long! depressions got a bit worse and i also found some new hobbies that took a lot of my attention but i try to post every once in a while:)

and nowwww these kinda icecream bars are actually soo good for the summer i absolutely love them!

you need:

-60g of fruit (doesn’t really matter which one, couls change the texture tho)

-2tbsp of yogurt (i used skyr) |22cals|

-2tsp coconut oil |90cals|

-1tbsp cream cheese |90cals|

how to:

just combine everything in a blender,blend until snooth and then just freeze for about three hours:)

i made mine with strawberries and blueberries and i must say that the blueberries made the whole thing a bit more „icy“ becaue they had more juice!

i let them freeze overnight but 3hours should be fine as well:) i also think a chocolate kind would be tasty.

cals might be a bit off because i forgot to weight correctly but ut shouldn’t be too much! maybe 10cals +/-

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hi, here's this <3