lorii1303

[lorii1303]

Chapter III

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Shy rays of sun peeking through your room’s blinds were trying to gently wake you up. Lazily, you reached for the man that was supposed to be laying by your side, although , he was nowhere to be found. Confused, you dragged yourself out of the sheets only to be hit by a faint smell of food. Reaching into the kitchen, there was Heesung who looked like he was finishing plating what looked like your breakfast.

„Oh ! Morning sunshine” he said with a bright smile on as soon as you walked in „I was supposed to bring it to you in bed but since you’re here” he continued, pulling a chair for you to sit on.

„What’s with the nickname?” You replied with a dumb smile

„What ? You’re stunning” Hee replied mimicking him being blinded by light as you muffled a laugh

„I look beat up” you said making him giggle

„You’re beautiful” he contradicted, quickly pecking your cheek as he sat next to you.

Hee was analysing every inch of your face of you trying his blueberry pancakes, almost as if waiting for a feedback, which you immediately gave by a satisfied groan to which he gladly smiled at himself ,then focused on his own plate.

You offered to make some coffee as Heesung didn’t let you do the dishes. Finishing up, you quickly grabbed your phone to check for any messages only to be struck by tens of notifs from Yunjin and Hanni , and there were ,of course some from Taeil ,which you didn’t even bother to read and kept in mind to block him later.

(Hanni x Yunjin x y/n group chat)

You 11:12pm: ”I left, I’m alright, ttyl”

H 11:35pm: „What ? Why what happened?”

H 11:36pm:„Y/n lmk what’s going on!!!???”

YJ 11:36pm:”r u okay???”

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H11:40pm: “Please, please y/n-ah get home safe !! Text us when you do, we’re worried!!”

Today

YJ 10:47am: „Girl we’re coming @ your place at 2:00 we needa talk asap”

You checked the clock , it was 1:30 pm.

Crap.

You could do anything but let Heesung know about the girls coming over and that it was too late to reschedule. You were fully aware about the questions Yunjin and Hanni were gonna drop upon you but you just quietly accepted your faith.

As you were coming to peace with the thought, the doorbell rang ,to which you avoidantly answered as if you were in a horror movie and the murderer was right behind that door.

The sight of you and Heesung, both in pyjamas, messy hair and hoarse voice made Yunjin raise her brow intrigued, you both just awkwardly smiled and let them in, quickly offering a drink and some extra pancakes Hee made. Yunjin didn’t drop the suspicious mother look which Hanni also took on, as they were making themselves comfortable on the livingroom couch.

„Okay y/n we need to know every bit of what the hell has happened last night.” Hanni got right to the subject.

„Yeah, and we’ll talk about him” pointing at Heesung with the fork „later” Yunjin said, mouth full of food „Great pancakes by the way…”

„Thanks !” He replied with that proud smile again , clearly not reading the room.

You went on to talk about last night , everything that has happened, somehow still trying to hold tears of anger in. At one point Hanni was holding your hand as Yunjin was patting your back. Heesung was sitting back, watching, his jaw clenched as he couldn’t bare the thought of you having to go through that , thinking of ways to strangle that man for hurting you.

“How about we get some snacks and watch something nice, hm? Watchu say babygirl?” Yunjin said trying to ease the mood rubbing your back, idea to which you and Hanni instantly approved!

The four of you were now binging a mini-series; the girls decided to stay with you longer to help you feel better , the 3 of you were sitting curled up hugging eachother munching on some chips with Heesung isolated to the further part of the couch snacking on an ice pop.

“Can’t you two just hug each other and I can hug y-“ he muffled but got hit by Hanni’s side-eye as he just went back to his ice pop defeated.

Suddenly your phone started vibrating somewhere in between the sheets. Yeonjun , one of your college classmates was calling you.

Jun Yawnzzn🥸🫵🏻

(he put that name in himself…)

Yj:„Y/n-ah hey hru?”

Y:„Hii Junnie , nothing much , how about you?”

Yj:„Same kinda ,, I called to let you know that imma be holding a party tomorrow night ,and, of course ,I had to let you know! I’d be really happy if I see you around there !”

You talked a bit more to Yeonjun letting him know you might be there , but that he’s caught you in a pretty bad mood , not giving much detail on why. Understanding, he once again reassured you that you’re always welcomed there.

Y:„ Oh by the way! Did you by any chance invite Taeil…?” You almost forgot. If he was there, the chances of you going were on the ground.

Yj:„Oh yeah I talked to him! I thinks he’s gonna be around there, why?”

Y:„Oh nothing! I’ll talk to you later then,, bye Junnie” You hurried up to end the call, Jun could easily become a curious cat.

Yj:„Aight y/n take care! ”

You quickly hung up looking around at the 3 sneaky friends of yours who were, shamelessly, eavesdropping.

„Yeah, Yeonjun told us about the party too , we thought of going , didn’t know that shithead was coming too…” Yunjin said in a disgraced voice looking at you.

„You wanna go?” Hanni asked looking at your thoughtful face.

There were only 2 possible choices you could’ve picked from : go to the party, see Taeil who might not leave you alone and up in a shit situation once again, or stay at home. The fact that from now on you would have to double check for his presence anywhere and sacrifice your own social life only because he had a lot of acquaintances was truly annoying, so you had to do something. Maybe spreading the word about his habits? Who should you tell? Who could you talk to? Tons of questions and scenarios filled your mind.

„You know, I can always come with you” Heesung spoke up making you turn your head like he was reading your thoughts.

„No Hee you don’t ha-„ you tried refusing his offer, you didn’t want to drag him in any of this.

„That’s a great idea! I’d love to see that bitchass look on Taeil’s face seeing you two together” Yunjin interrupted you with a malefic grin on her face and laughing to herself, Hanni nodding in approval and mumbling an „mhm” .

„No Hee, you really don’t have to do this. I don’t want you to get mixed up into any of this…” you were still avoidant.

Heesung came closer to you taking your hands into his, looking deeply into your eyes his gaze harmonically blending with yours. He then spoke in a low serious tone:

„Do you really think I’ll ever leave you alone after all this? Even if you don’t want me there I’ll still come ,I’ll always come for you y/n, even if I have to crawl.”

His words seemed like a vow he was never going take back nor to break.

His words left you speechless, making your heart melt and your body shiver. Hee’s gaze softened, leaning in to peck the tip of your nose. „Then it’s set” he said smiling at you who were still caught into his trance, unable to word out anything.

„I can’t believe I just witnessed this cinematic ahh moment” Hanni whispered to Yunjin who was in shock as everyone else , perplexed at you two „That was beautiful..” She said fake wiping a tear, to which you looked at in a „bffr” face making the girls and Heesung giggle.

The girls had left a little after 5:00 pm leaving you and Heesung alone once again. Nevertheless, he had to head back home too, since spending the night with you was spontaneous, Heesung assured you that he’ll come back later. He could’ve just left and come back the next day for the party but refused to leave you alone , feeling that even though you seemed fine, deep down , you could break at any time.

After Heesung too had left , you had some time for yourself , with your own mind and thoughts , so a warm bath was more than welcomed. Your mind started contemplating on every aspect of your life lately, unintentionally replaying the moments with you and Taeil that you wish had never existed, and made your skin itch only by remembering them. Emotions started to fill your heart, unconditionally leading to your echoing weeping between the bathroom walls. It was somewhat therapeutic, yet it hurt your soul, he hurt your soul. You wrapped your hands around your own bare body as trying to confort yourself, slowly caressing your own back, arms and hair like a mother caressing her in pain child. At the end of the day, you only had yourself.

You had put on a set of comfy satin pyjamas and was drying your hair in your room as you heard the door close „He was fast” you thought to yourself. Hee had approached your room , fixing his glasses on his nose as he leaned on the door rim to watch you brush your hair in the mirror, to then come in closer asking if he could do it. You smiled at him lending him the brush , coordinating his moves to start from the bottom up.

„I could do this all day, it’s so soft” Heesung said fully enjoying himself like a kid. He was playing with your hair ,brushing it , as you just let him.

Raising his head, he made eye contact with you in the mirror’s reflection, smiling, he then leaned in to kiss your neck from the back as his hands had wrapped gently around your waist caressing it, sending shivers down your spine, his scent filling up your nostrils and slowly mixing in with yours as he went on. Even though this wasn’t new to you it felt so different from the way Taeil did it ,his kisses on your body were sloppy, his touch was rough and lacked compassion.It felt like it dirtied your body. Whereas with Heesung, everything felt flattering ,felt like actual love and liking for one another. His sweet acts of affection were warming your damaged heart almost making you cry each time he did so, as you never expected to be worthy of such tenderness and care.

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The two of you had spent the rest of the night cooking up some pasta together and having some red wine with it ,as slow music was playing faintly on the vinyl making you swing onto the kitchen floor. All of this, only to end up asleep on the livingroom couch after chit-chatting, laughing and watching a movie together. You hoped quiet and tender nights like these with Heesung would never come to an end.

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☆ Author’s note : hii guys this ch was more of a chill sweet encounter, i hope it felt like a warm cup of tea on these chilly evening in october 🍂🍵 More action coming up in ch4! ^ - ^🍁

☆ So sorry it took so long for ch3 but Ive had lots of stuff going on lately and got busy but i hope you’ll enjoy it and ch4 should be out soon too hehe!!

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[lorii1303]

Hey guys! Been busy with moving to uni but ill get back on the grind with Chapter 3 asap!💓

[lorii1303]

Chapter II

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Your sobs were slowly starting to fade and realization hit you. Your head felt heavy as you broke the hug Heesung was holding you in, his warmth leaving your body. You were starting to feel embarrassed of the state you were finding yourself in , not being able to even look Heesung in the eyes.

“Let’s go wash your face, some water will help you calm down.” he spoke before you got to say anything, picking you up in his arms and carrying you to the bathroom.

While he let you down, it took effort to stay still on your own two feet as you were still drunk and you felt your body shaking from all the tension flowing through it. Just as you were grabbing the edge of the sink you let the cold water run , taking a small glance in the mirror in front of you, not so surprised with your messed up look.

Heesung was leaning onto the door rim outside , waiting for you to come out, flinching when he heard the door unlock.

“Feeling a bit better?” he asked slowly, his gaze following yours through his glasses. Concern didn’t leave his look , constantly feeling the need to check on you.

“I’m sorry Heesung , I’m sorry you had to see me like that.” you said, finally gathering the courage to look at him.

“ I’ll be okay, I’ll deal with it by myself , don’t need to worry about me..” you continued, tears filling your already red puffy eyes , trying to form a reassuring smile, but failing.

“I’ll just go back to my room.” you said in a defeated voice “Sorry, you must be tired and i held you back.”

You were used to bottle up your emotions and not talk about it, you didn’t like the idea of being a burden to anyone. Always put on this facade of an energetic and fun person ,yet you had a lot of issues that you chose to deal with on your own. It was probably your upbringing, your parents always making it obvious and pointing out moments of when your bad mood “influenced” theirs.

As you were trying to leave without a word back from him , he grabbed your hand to make you look at him.

“Are you being serious right now y/n?” he sighed.

“ You barely talk to me in months , I’m worried that i may have wronged you in some way , you start going out more and more with some random people, at the most random hours ,to later find out that they’re the shadiest boys I could ever imagine . “

he stopped to look at you , then continued

“Do you even know how much I had to pressure Sunghoon into telling me what was going on? Only to find out about that Taeil junkie?? And now I see you come back home like this because of him. How could I not worry?” Heesung said as if he was scolding you.

“Let’s stop it here Hee, I’ll get myself out of it the same way i got myself in.” you said wanting to wrap it up.

Why was he being that pushy? Although you were friends you were never this personal with one another. What was his reason?

Heesung went on asking “Why did you even get yourself into that? Why him?”

You were starting to get irritated “Why would you even care Heesung? It doesn’t concern you. We never talk about these things , why do you suddenly care?” you replied wanting to get out of there already.

“Agh i need to get some air” you continued as you felt a throbbing headache and nauseous. You left Heesung standing as you rushed through the living room right outside the balcony,not before grabbing the pack of cigarettes from your bag, not the smartest choice, yet you felt the need.

You probably came out as mean but you just wanted him to stop asking questions, you couldn’t bare the idea of telling Heesung your reasons , why you ended up in this state.

Heesung didn’t let this go so fast, following you to the balcony. Just as you were about to lit your cig ,he took it out of your mouth, making you look at him “Be for real right now i know you smoke too, give it back.” you said reaching for him , no use though, he was way too tall and you were sitting down.

“Y/n please just talk to me. Stop avoiding me, stop avoiding the situation like this.” he replied not wanting to leave you alone without an answer.

“I can’t Heesung , I don’t want to talk about this , especially with you.” you told him ,quickly looking down at your lap, tears were already starting to run down your face, frustration was taking over you.

“Why? Why not with me? Did I do something wrong y/n ? Please say something ,I can’t leave knowing you like this.” he asked crouching down at your height and grabbing your hands in his, begging you to look at him. Seeing you like this was unbearable for him , seeing you cry made him cry.

“Because of you Hee , because I like you , damn it , I like you Heesung!” you finally said “I threw myself into his arms to repress those feelings, because i felt like you wouldn’t think of me like that…” saying that, your eyes finally met.

Heesung stood there seeming to process it all, eventually cupping one of your cheeks and getting closer.

“Why would you think that y/n? Did I ever say that ?” he spoke in a low voice , with you looking at him as if you were in some kind of trance.

“God y/n i’m literally in love with you!”

he continued

“I’ve been liking you since fucking high school. Why do you think I’m almost going insane seeing you like this, trying to find a reason for your hurting and fighting demons to not go and rip Taeil’s head off right now.”

You froze.

Your heart started racing, it was pumping so hard you thought it might leave your chest at any moment ,and him being so close that you could feel his breath, wasn’t helping . You couldn’t believe the words that came out of Heesung’s mouth.

It was uncommon seeing him like this, you were used to private and quiet Heesung, whose only purpose in life were academic achievements, always minding his own business; yet this whole time he was nurturing feelings for you?

“Why didn’t you tell me anything for so long Hee? I ended up in this situation because you seemed so unreachable to me yet so close.” you said in a somewhat upset, shaking voice “I felt like I shouldn’t weigh you down with my feelings.”

He shoke his head “I was the foolish one y/n ,I couldn’t bring myself to confess to you, I thought it might change things between us.”

“ If you were to reject me, I thought things might’ve become awkward, I thought i did the right thing ,everything just so I can remain close to you.” Heesung replied hoping for your understanding , but you just stood there , unable to say anything.

“I was so stupid y/n , I should’ve told you earlier , if I did , this wouldn’t have happened. I should’ve done something once I saw you change” he went on, begging for your reply with his eyes. “Say something please, hm? Talk to me, please y/n” but your sobs couldn’t let you form a sentence, all you did was go in for a hug, his big figure covering yours.

“Kiss me Heesung…” you barely said

“Hm..?”

you pulled away looking into his gaze

“Just kiss me Hee, please…”

As those words left your mouth the boy in front of you didn’t take time to think twice before taking his silver glasses off and pulling you into deep kiss. His soft lips felt warm as they touched your red swollen ones. One arm was grabbing your cheek while the other was holding your waist pulling your bodies close together. Heesung slowly pulled away wiping your runny eyes with his thumb then kissing both your eyes , your nose, then lastly your lips again.

“How about that cigarette now?” Heesung said smiling, making you burst out laughing.

The look of him smiling was making your heart flutter, you thought he had the most beautiful smile you’ve ever seen. You fell hard for him , but you fell harder for that smile.

You were now shyly cuddled next to Hee on the balcony couch , watching the clear night sky together. He quickly put a blanked over your body as he saw you shaking and let your head rest on his shoulder. You were talking to him about everything that has happened since uni started, how things between you and Taeil went , and especially you talked about tonight. You could basically hear Heesung’s blood boil since he was constantly fussing around and loudly exhaling as you went on talking about everything.

“Sunghoon told me about how he often saw him snort in the bathroom , at almost any party or meetings. He was starting to get more worried as he saw you get closer to Taeil, that’s why he eventually told me.”

Your stomach dropped, this has confirmed your thoughts.

“So he was indeed high the most time he was with me…” you said , realizing that 90% of the time that man has gotten private with you, he was under the influence.

“I feel sick.” you continued , disgusted by what you had to experience.

“ I’ll kill that shithead” Hee exhaled as he put his hand over your shoulder, pulling you closer to his body.

Not after a good 15 minutes Heesung turned his head only to see your asleep figure slowly snoring on his shoulder.

After he took his sweet time admiring your silly look and taking a few pics, he giggled a “Cute” as he carefully picked you up and carried you to your room upstairs. He was holding his breath as if even a dust particle would wake you up.

He meticulously laid you down on your baby pink silk sheets only for you to grab his hand as he was about to leave your side.

“Don’t goo, sleep here, with me Hee ” you mumbled

“Hm? I can’t y/n i don’t have any pjs with me” he whisper-laughed

“So? Take some of Anton’s , he has ton shit of clothes” you said with your eyes still closed and not wanting to let go of Heesung’s hand

“But-“ he tried to say

“Ughhh no buttt, pleaseee” you whined

“Ok but you gotta let me go first” he chuckled , leaving to go get some of your brother’s clothes. In the meantime you struggled to change into some more comfortable clothes too, before jumping back into your queen sized bed.

Cuddling Heesung wasn’t on your bucket list for the night ,but there you were , wrapped around in his arms listening to his heartbeat, providing the comfort you didn’t think you’ll need so bad.

[lorii1303]

Chapter I

author’s note: when mentioning Taeil’s “friends”, Taeil’s “group” I am not refering to any member of NCT.

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First year of college was going amazing for what you initially imagined student life to be, it wasn’t as scary, nor as complicated, those being said you had a pretty good new start studying interior design .

Although, starting Uni didn’t mean you had to move cities, you stayed at you and your brother’s apartment in Seoul in which you’ve been living for the past 2 years . You and Anton were living in the highest point of the apartment building in Gangam , your parents decided to let you live together to gain some independence as well as giving you guys your own privacy, and the apartment was big enough for that.

You guys were well off giving the fact that both of your parents were doctors but never showed it too much or liked to brag about it remaining humble and hardworking.

Anton was studying computer science which made him locked in his room for hours, either that, or being away for days due to team projects or research. Nevertheless that didn’t mean you guys didn’t get to spend some brother-sister time. With each opportunity you guys hanged out alone or with your friends , Heesung and Jake who were in 2nd year of computer science same as your brother , as well as Sunghoon and Jay who were studying medicine. The 5 of them went to high school together and happened to stick with each other. Then there were your girlfriends, Yunjin and Hanni with whom you were classmates.

As much as time allowed it you liked going out for drinks or late night drives with the girls and some boys from your year , helping you get some things off your mind and relax from all the uni work. Maybe hanging out at home with Anton and his friends would’ve been a good idea as well but for the past few months you’ve been feeling tense around them , or maybe shy even, which hasn’t happened before since you’ve been knowing these guys for years. The reason behind these emotions could be due to Heesung growing on you lately ,an idea that you constantly tried to brush off. Maybe it was his new look? His hair? His glasses? His voice? His gaze? You don’t know what it was but it drove you insane.

You didn’t want to think of him like that not because you don’t like him, but you didn’t want to grow feelings that you knew wouldn’t be validated. The most Heesung saw you as was a sister, a close friend, his best friend’s sibling of course…

Because of that , because of you trying to get over the idea of Heesung ,that felt like it was eating you from the inside ,you started giving signals and getting close to this one guy in your year with whom you hanged out in groups too, Taeil.

Taeil wasnt exactly your physical type but he had a bright personality,really extroverted and was a self-proclaimed “party animal”. He acted somewhat sweet towards you, of course when his “homeboys” weren’t around, he couldn’t risk showing much affection in their presence, he had to keep an image after all, right?

The only times he didn’t care were the times when he was almost blackout drunk caressing your hair and having his warm hand around your shoulders. Warmth that you accepted , deep down wishing it wasn’t his, but Heesung’s. You took in every bit of Taeil’s attention and said “affection” so you wouldn’t feel the need for Heesung’s.

Taeil had bad habits, really bad habits, drugs to be more clear. His parents were rich as well ,so he could afford it in two shakes and having a dealer as one of his close friends was a bonus.

His habits were tamed as he liked to say, weed was once in a blue moon and he “barely” tried coke.

You liked to live with that lie, chose to live with that lie, how did you know it was a lie? Well he wasn’t that shy talking about these things around you or his other friends, it probably made him feel like some type of super cool interesting guy, although, he was more careful with talking about coke around you as it was a more serious topic than some weed.

You hated the idea of drugs , any kind, you knew what it does to people and the ones around them , you never went further than smoking some cigarettes and occasionally drinking , you knew your limits and you liked to keep them the way they were.

Despise that, you grew attached to Taeil thinking you’re starting to actually like him, he started being more gentle and close to you, taking you on rides and chitchatting, showing you this “whole new” persona of him. You gaslight yourself into thinking that he might actually give up drugs entirely.

You and Taeil eventually made out drunk at a party , or he made out with you drunk at party. Summer just started , all exams were taken and as 50% of you was mostly liquor cocktails you went with it, desperately feeling the need of some touch and affection, you couldn’t bare it anymore. It didn’t go further than kissing and some touching , an usual make out session, you didn’t want it to go further than that although Taeil suggested multiple times to “go to a room”.

After that ,you started hanging out more with him alone , at times when you were leaving the house the boys and Anton were giving this look of “who is she meeting all dolled up”.

The only one knowing about you and Taeil was Sunghoon. Being Yunjin’s boyfriend he sometimes got to hang out with you guys , you literally had to beg him to keep shut. Sunghoon knew Taeil could hurt you, knew his “habits” ,Hoon didn’t want you to get hurt as you were his friend too, so it was hard to convince him to not talk about it with the boys , especially with Anton, if your brother were to found out,he’d actually disinherit you, but after all ,it was nothing too serious about you and Taeil.

You tried explaining this to the girls too, who were not so fond of Taeil ,telling them it was a summer fling , it was you having some “fun” and a “fuckboy” moment but the only thing you got in return was “Girl you’re anything BUT a fuckboy” and they were right , you were a lover girl constantly lying to herself that she’s okay and accepting of all of this, you weren’t the “player” , you were getting played.

It was now the middle of july , you and Taeil were still a thing , nothing official because you didn’t want it to be but he was becoming more sweet and talkative wanting to take you on dates that you subtly dodged.

At your apartment you were left alone once again since Anton left at a summer study camp for the week. When your brother was leaving Heesung or Jake often came by to work on his set-up letting you know beforehand when and that they were coming over ,even though they were trustworthy enough to know your house’s key passcode.

Today Heesung came by in the afternoon making himself comfortable and starting to do his work. Later on ,the two of you barely got to exchange some words when you ordered some take-out and ate together. It was probably the first time in weeks since you’ve talked this much.

“Aah I’m full i’ll go take a shower and clean up after” you said as Heesung watched you get up from the table , him still eating.

He shook his head swallowing his bite “No,don’t worry about it i’ll clean up, then get back to my stuff”

“Are you going somewhere?” he continued

looking into your eyes which gave you a small shiver.

“Uhh yeah there’s at a party at Sakura’s house, i’ll be coming home late” you said in a low tone.

“Is that guy Taeil coming too?” Heesung said digging into his jajangmyeon.

You’re so dead Park Sunghoon

You froze , trying to form plausible answer

“uhm…i don’t know…why..?” you said trying to maintain your composure.

“Just asking.” he blankly said going back to eating ,you whispering a “right…” as you rushed out of the kitchen.

A few hours later, Yunjin and Hanni came by to pick you up so you could go together to Sakura’s house party.

“Where yo man at?” you asked Yun, raising your brow with a funny look on your face.

“He’s stuck at home studying so he’ll pass this one ,why ?” she replied smiling.

“Put some shaving cream in his brow gel for me please.” you said, the girls bursting out laughing.

“Mf snitched on me to Heesung , what if my brother finds out?? I’ll be literally dead” you said in a stressed voice.

“Okay love, i’ll hide his tweezers” Yunjin giggled.

Sakura’s mansion was packed with people , Taeil wasn’t in sight as he told you he’ll be there later. That being said, you went on to get a drink or two , danced and had a few smoke breaks as he finally arrived.

You went to greet him with a kiss since you guys haven’t seen each other in a while. Though , Taeil didn’t really seem to have much time for you going to meet his more important bros.

Time went by, you had a few more drinks, enough to keep somewhat sober as you hear Taeil talking to his friend to go get “the good stuff”.

“What?” his friend asked.

“Coke damn it” Taeil almost screamed in the small room they were in and at which you were eavesdropping.

You panicked. You didn’t want any of that stuff around you or done around you. You were starting to get mad. Knowing Taeil, it wasn’t a surprise , although you convinced yourself that he was starting to get better, he proved you wrong.

Before going to confront Taeil about it , you stood there in shock thinking of how many times this had happened behind your back. Was it at every party ? Was it at his house? Was it when the two of you met? Your head was a mess.

You didn’t question it at first but now that you thought about it, at every outing ,Taeil always used to leave your side for a good couple of minutes.

You finally pulled Taeil into a room him getting all cocky thinking you’re going to have a great make out session.

sike

“Listen, I heard you, I heard what you want to do , now, i don’t care , but if you’ll do fucking coke HERE with all these people around, with ME around i’m leaving,i don’t stand with that, i don’t like that.”

Looking into his eyes , he nodded seeming to understand, an “okay” leaving his mouth.

After staying a strong half an hour mad at him you dragged him into a room to cuddle cuz you felt so pressed about the situation praying not to cry and seeking some comfort ,it felt so wrong, it was so wrong.

As you were in his arms listening to his breath and heartbeat , a message popped up on his phone Taeil giving his all for you to not see his screen, not as if you cared, but then he had to suddenly use the bathroom, for 15 fucking minutes. Was this going where you thought it was going?

15 minutes he went back in forth in that stupid bathroom as you could hear his voice and steps on the hall.

As Taeil finally came back he suddenly couldn’t control his hormones. He started kissing, touching, and kissing again but you weren’t having it so you slowly pushed him using your tiredness as an excuse.

Suddenly some random girl pulled into the room as Taeil waved at her to sit on the bed.

What the fuck is he doing and WHY DID SHE LOCK THE DOOR?! you though to yourself as you got onto the edge of the bed perpelexed at the man and the girl standing next to you.

You were now watching the girl get on top of him and now they were making out, in your fucking face , you couldnt move for a whole minute , just staring at them.

Finally Taeil broke from the kiss , the girl leaving out a giggle “Thought we might, you know have some more fun , the more the merrier right?” he said with a filthy smirk on his dumb face taking your hand in his and starting to put it on his body then the girl’s body, trying to pull you into a kiss with both of them.

You aggressively pull back getting up from the bed “What the fuck Taeil?? what is this what do you think you’re doing??” you said looking into his eyes , then you noticed something

He was high.

“Oh cmon i thought you might like it if you try it” he said almost whining.

“Let her be babe we can go on by ourselves if she doesn’t want to” the girl said grabbing Taeil’s chin to make him look at her.

“Babe?!” you yelled “You know if you were to have some other bitches after your ass you could’ve at least fucking told me Taeil” you said outraged.

“We re nothing official y/n, we’re nothing serious why would you even care?” he sighed “i just wanted to have some fun , i’m just a horny teenager after all”. You just stared back at him in shock and despise.

“Right , I’m the one at fault for actually starting to grow feelings for someone like you.”

Taeil got off the bed coming towards you as you took a step back , he reached for your hand which you dodged he then grabbed you by your shoulders “Cmon y/n ,don’t leave me like this” he said starting to tighten his grip and putting his hand on your waist to pull you closer “I actually have feelings for you too”

“Yeah where? In your dick? Since you like to think with it too”

You pulled back leaving his touch and slapping his face so hard hoping it will leave a mark.

You bursted out of the room grabbing your stuff and immediately leaving Sakura’s place,tears in your eyes as you waited for an uber to drive you home. You left without a word so you sent a message to the girls letting them know you left the party earlier and that you’ll explain everything in the morning.

You stared blankly at your lock as you tapped in the passcode and slowly getting in. It was barely 12 a.m. and there was light coming from the living room , you thought Heesung might’ve left it on by accident.

As you barely dragged your feet across the hall to your room, tears still uncontrollably running down your cheeks you see a blurry vision of Heesung packing his stuff as he stops and stares at you.

You couldnt verbalize anything just looking back at him. Heesung immediately drops what he’s doing and comes to you hastily, grabbing your shoulders then cupping your face as if to see if you’re intact, as if you’d break at any moment now. You could only focus on his worried and agitated face as he saw you at your lowest point.

“Heesung-ah…”you squeked, then breaking into a loud cry as he pulled you into his arms, you fell to the floor as if your legs lost all its muscle him going down with you.

You were now crying into Heesung’s arms like mad, him holding you as though anyone was going to take you from him , caressing your soft hair, you holding onto him like it was your last breath. Through sobs you let out a “Taeil-ssi-“

“Oh i know…” he whispered slowly “he’s dead.” he said pulling you closer

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𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐃𝐨𝐰𝐧-l.hs.

𝘗𝘈𝘐𝘙𝘐𝘕𝘎: 𝘴𝘵𝘶𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘵!𝘢𝘶¡𝘩𝘦𝘦𝘴𝘶𝘯𝘨 𝘹 𝘧!𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳

𝘚𝘜𝘔𝘔𝘈𝘙𝘠: 𝘜𝘯𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘺 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦. 𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘵𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘢 𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘻𝘦𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘣𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘣𝘳𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳’𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 , 𝘓𝘦𝘦 𝘏𝘦𝘦𝘴𝘶𝘯𝘨. 𝘛𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘺 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘥 𝘶𝘱 𝘪𝘯 𝘢 𝘮𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘺 𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘶𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦𝘥 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩. 𝘠𝘰𝘶’𝘥 𝘣𝘦 𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘴𝘵.

𝘎𝘌𝘕𝘙𝘌: 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴

𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒: 𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐜𝐮𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐬𝐦𝐮𝐭, 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐭 ,𝐟𝐥𝐮𝐟𝐟, 𝐩𝐞𝐭 𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐬, 𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐝𝐫𝐮𝐠𝐬, 𝐚𝐥𝐜𝐨𝐡𝐨𝐥, 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭,𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐨𝐟 𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐢𝐝𝐨𝐥𝐬, 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩𝐬 (𝐒𝐮𝐧𝐠𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐧 𝐱 𝐘𝐮𝐧𝐣𝐢𝐧)

𝐗: 𝐓𝐚𝐞𝐢𝐥 𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐝, 𝐝𝐨𝐧’𝐭 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐠𝐮𝐲𝐬 , 𝐡𝐞’𝐬 𝐚 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐭 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲, 𝐬𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐚𝐬 𝐢𝐫𝐥.

𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐎𝐑𝐒 𝐃𝐍𝐈

𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 𝐎𝐏𝐄𝐍!

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chapter 1

chapter 2

chapter 3

chapter 4 soon hehe!����☕️