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one of the worst things about fandom is when people headcanon a certain character as gay and suddenly that becomes the only valid, practically unofficial-official canon reading of that character's sexuality. gay. just gay. character has shown romantic or sexual desire for women? it's comphet, don't worry, he's still gay. character isn't interested in sex much at all? it's because he hasn't fucked a man, obviously. character has lots of women friends? they are the hags to his fag, he's gay, why are you even trying. and it all seems like a very Transformative and Woke way to read a character until you step back and realize how much biphobia, acephobia, misogyny, and transphobia are baked into the adamant refusal to accept The Character as anything other than gay. it's horrendous, actually. but you will get shot in the streets for this.

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OLDIES STATION ♫♪ EDDIE DIAZ

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i'm still stuck on "You know, I don't have to want to sleep with everyone I have feelings for". what does that say abt Buck's psyche?

to me, that indicates that Buck struggles more with his sexual attraction to Eddie than he does his romantic attraction. does buck carry shame about his sexual appetites? does he feel like he embodies the stereotype of the slutty bisexual, and does that bother him? Does he carry shame about how he acted in his Buck 1.0 era? Did he internalize what bobby said about him "disrespecting women" as he was being fired all the way back in ep 1? Does he feel shame about sleeping with his therapist (even tho he was clearly the one being taken advantage of)? DOES HE FEEL LIKE A PREDATOR FOR WANTING TO SLEEP WITH HIS PRESUMABLY STRAIGHT BOYBESTIE????

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Like a new friend!

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— beartown, fredrik backman

for @littlespooneven ♡

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anyway i dont really care how it happens can buck gets stabbed. honestly id be okay with any nde as long as its bloody like really really bloody and hes like clutching his abdomen and stumbling and eyes are sunken in and maybe he could even cry or scream or whimper or beg for his life. i need this to happen please

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Come here, brother-in-law. 9-1-1, S06E16

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Oh Buck Buckley and your ONE (1) passive aggressive move when you feel like you’re being left behind for something else, something better, and aren’t told: buying groceries when it’s not your turn.

Silent treatment doesn’t work, can’t keep it going. Immediately reached out to Maddie weeks, if not days, after he thinks he’s being ditched leaving Hershey. Talked to her when she showed up at the station and sought her out like two days later after learning about Daniel.

But then!

“I said I was gonna get the groceries.” “I-I was out. It’s fine.” “It doesn’t feel like it’s fine.”

AND lest we not forget:

“I thought it was my turn to buy the groceries.” “You’ve been spending so much time at Veronica’s, I—uh—I thought I should do it. […] No, it’s all good.”

Oh, this was your task? That you already told me about? But imma do it. And oh, it just happens to involve the one room of the house I can’t hide in? And I’m going to pretend it’s all good nbd? Which “it” who’s to say?

I love him so much!

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7.01 | 7.09 | 8.11

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So we see the pattern now, right?

Sam was afraid of skeletons -> he manifested a skeleton to come alive and scratch him. Little german children were afraid of the doll -> the doll came alive. As the story and, simultaneously, the fear grew, it transformed into the shop, the toymaker and the toy.

So when the opera singer imagined white long hands in the dark water, she got scared and then, only then that thing actually appeared. I bet before she thought about the pale things there was something not-supernatural going on there, like a shark that smelled her blood. But as soon as she thought about the horrors and Got Really Scared, the horrors appeared.

Now it's clear how it's all connected to alchemy - if you can manifested something, the first thing you think about is "how can I control it and/or manipulate it to become something else".

I need to relisten to all previous episodes, it's fascinating

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Not me fangirling at you in my askbox!!!!!!!! 😍 how about 92? Or 50? Whichever one happens to strike your fancy!

CW: disordered eating, weird food stuff, anxiety Buck's never really been a pet name guy. Like, sure, he'll throw a babe around here and there, but babe is, like, casual. Neutral. Dignified, even. But mostly he just starts feeling romantic about his partner's actual names—love makes them feel different in his mouth, so Abby or Taylor or Tommy sort of become hallowed with tenderness over time. Mostly the kinds of pet names he gets back are, like, also babe. Sometimes baby. Tommy called him Evan, which was a pet name, kind of, in a way. It felt like one. But yeah, pet names have never been the thing that get Buck going. Which leaves him with absolutely no explanation for the full-body shiver that rocks through him the first time Eddie calls him sweetheart.

It's not even, like—in context, it's nothing. It's fucking nothing. Eddie's trying to bully him into eating a slice of cake for Maddie's birthday, even though Buck's in ketosis and he's been doing so well. It's just the two of them in the living room, everyone else having drifted into the kitchen or the backyard. "Seriously, I'm good," Buck says, and Eddie rolls his eyes.

"Buck, you're already the size of a boulder. Your muscles have muscles. You can eat one piece of cake."

And the thing is, Buck doesn't like to eat when he's stressed out. And he's been kind of stressed out for a while—with the breakup, with Chris being gone, with Bobby being gone, with Gerrard being Gerrard—and he knows Eddie knows that, so he doesn't get why Eddie's pushing him on this.

"C'mon," Eddie says, and his eyes are dark and warm, the soft look Eddie has when he loves someone. Oh, that's probably why. "Enjoy yourself a little bit."

"Eddie," Buck says, and what he means is I know you want me to calm down, but you know it's hard to calm down.

Eddie tips his head to the side, acknowledging, but his knee bumps against Buck's thigh, and he doesn't move the plate away, and that means something like you're safe, man. I've got you, I'm right here. "You know you want it, sweetheart," Eddie says, and it's teasing, it's obviously a joke, but—a shiver rolls over Buck's shoulders and down his torso to his legs, and he can't even play it off, because he's watching Eddie watch it happen.

Eddie's eyes get really wide.

"Um," Buck says, mortified. He grabs the plate out of Eddie's hand, even though there's absolutely no way he's eating it now. Eddie lets him take it, and Buck is careful to make sure they don't touch.

"Buck," Eddie says. "Sorry," Buck says weakly, and gives a really unconvincing laugh. "Uh, I'm gonna—" Eddie grabs his arm, hand folding around Buck's bicep. Buck freezes. "No," Eddie says, his eyes still wide. "You, uh. You should just try a bite." Buck starts to shake his head, but Eddie's fingers tighten on his arm.

"Just a bite," Eddie says quietly, and Buck's stomach clenches. Eddie's lips part; there's a nervous flicker of tongue as he wets them. "Sweetheart." Buck feels the breath punch out of his lungs, almost but not quite a laugh. He watches the same expression form on Eddie's face, scared and still half-amused.

He doesn't know what's happening here. He doesn't know what they're doing. He puts the plate back on the coffee table, the porcelain clattering a little bit because his hand is trembling a little bit, and Eddie's hand stays on his arm. Buck's heart is racing.

"Come on," Eddie says. God, Buck hopes nobody comes back into the room for another minute. He's been less nervous about first time sex acts, and it doesn't even make sense. They're not doing anything wrong.

He takes a bite of the cake. It's sweet, it's rich, Eddie's watching his mouth move, it's melting on his tongue. He doesn't think it's going to turn to lead in his stomach at all. He licks the fork clean, a little showy flourish because Eddie's still watching him, and he watches the pupils of Eddie's eyes get bigger. He puts the fork down on the plate.

Eddie clears his throat. "Okay," he says, and his voice is low and fond. "Okay, is it just sweetheart, or does baby work too, because I've got all kinds of—"

Buck kisses him, fast, afraid this isn't what Eddie meant, this isn't the next stepping stone at all, but—needing to see. Eddie's mouth is soft; the mustache tickles; it's good. He doesn't try to linger, because all their friends are fifteen feet away laughing about something Jee-Yun just said, just gives Eddie a closemouthed kiss and then pulls back to see what Eddie thinks about it.

Eddie's eyes are closed, and his face is bright red. While Buck watches, his eyes slowly open.

"Yeah?" Buck asks, frightened and exhilarated.

Eddie touches his mouth with his thumb. Oh, fuck, Buck wants to be the one touching Eddie's mouth with his thumb. "Yeah," he says, hoarse.

They smile at each other.

Maddie and Karen come back into the room together, carrying full glasses of wine. "Buck!" Maddie says, a little tipsy, a lot happy. "You're having cake!"

"Yeah," Buck says, ducking his head to grin dopily down at his own hands, so he doesn't give the game away. Eddie's knee knocks into his. "Yeah, Maddie, the cake is, uh. Really, really good."

"Sweet," Eddie says, casual, and it makes Buck's cheeks burn. "Yeah," Buck says, and laughs, trying to keep it together. "It's sweet."

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If buddie doesn't happen they should bring back Taylor Kelly to be buck's endgame

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buck keeps his curls like to charge reblog to cast

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I love when a character wants to be someone's dog so so bad. Dont mean it in a sexual way (although that can also be a part of it) I mean like. Let me be your loyal companion let me stay by your side give me a purpose in exchange for endless unconditional love let me stop being a person love me like it's my only use. Love me like that's the only thing I was made for. As you can tell. I'm normal.

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you'll get better soon 'cause you have to insp.