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Trying not to relapse but it’s so tempting to take away all the treats and work out until I’m sore enough to cry the next day. Until I lose 25 lbs maybe…

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predisposed to addictive personality and a history with men who don’t ask for consent means I sometimes reach for the familiarity of it again…

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Sorry we really went from free the nipple, take back the night, slut walks, and ending gender/sex segregation in sports being fucking milquetoast feminism 101 concepts to fucking girl dinner and "I just worry about fairness if we let trans girls play against cis ones" and "it was right of that woman to call the cops on a black man for existing near here in public during the day time because men are all violent monsters" and "radical feminism isn't transphobic we just need to kill all men including trans ones those oppressive traitors" and I will legit never be able to be normal about it. What the FUCK happened. I'd say I wonder what the feminists of my youth would say about this but I'm one and lemme tell ya I want to throw up. Go fucking read bell hooks or do something else useful please because all of this learned helplessness, gender essentialism, and transphobia dressed up as feminism is actively holding us back.

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He treats me like a princess, he makes me feel safe, he is nothing like the men who used and abused me.

But the guy does not know how to kiss and he makes me wanna gag because he doesn’t taste good, I don’t think I’m attracted to him like that.

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Period hasn’t come but I just randomly get a fuckton of brown discharge?

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My period is one day late. I don’t know why and I’m a little scared…

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sometimes it’s worth it just to cum to the idea that men find me worthless enough to fuck me and then leave me for a girl that they suddenly become emotionally available for.

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Y’all I crashed out over a boy that didn’t care about me, and it gave me such bad appetite problems all my pants are loose. And I let my little god sister borrow my only belt weeks ago and she never gives my shit back.

And like… I was gonna go up a band size for my bra, but now I don’t have to! I guess I can spend that money on a belt instead.

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I don’t report my rapists. I nearly got accused of causing someone’s suicide in high school for it.

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I wish they could invent a medical device that temporarily transfers your symptoms and pain to the doctor treating you and it worked like a shock collar. “I think light exercise would-.” and then bam they’re rolling around the floor clutching their stomach in agony and dry heaving.

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I love when Plan B works but then after my period it’s hell.

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If I starve myself I can give men better oral.

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Got sexually assaulted in January by my boyfriend at the time snd had a miscarriage. And I hadn’t been used to sex where it didn’t just feel like I was giving my body.

Had sex this week with this guy that I am friends with and he was worried he wasn’t doing enough to pleasure me? He asked if I got off enough?? And he made me feel really good compared to other men, but I guess I am being hit with how low my bar is.