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Goodness me, I'm just very VERY thankful that you're alive. I was so terrified for you, and I wasn't sure what was going to happen

But please, do take as long as you need to recover, to rest, to take care of yourself. Whatever, just take as much time as you need.

I’m sorry for worryinf you

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HOLY SHIT

HOLY SHIT YOURE ALIVE

THANK GOD OH MY GOODNESS

HELLO!! ARE YOU OKAY?? ARE YOU ALRIGHT??? HOW ARE YOU FEELING?? WHAT HAPPENED?

I’m sorry. It was just an overdose, I’m out of the hospital. I’m okay. I might be off for a while though. I think I was in a coma for a few hours? Thats what they said, but my blood pressure looked okay to them amd they said i might be tired for awhile. Im already tired all the time so this isn’t a big change or anything. Probably no long term effecrs idk

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@maplexter Hi! I heard it was your birthday today(I hope I got that right) and drew you something for it!! Happy Birthday!!

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Alive dont worry

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See you on the other side if there is one

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I’m taking all of them.

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Would taking every pill I have access to be better or would taking only all of one kind of pill be better for killing myself

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I jusr feel so much. I feel so guilty i feel so helpless i feel so useless i feel like shit and i have no one to talk to about this. I hate feeling like this i just want a hug but theres no one. I dont have friends. I cant stand being this lonely i hate it so much. I cant stand being myself. I wish i was someone else. I hate everything. Why have i lived this long

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I genuinely can’t take it anymore. I need to kill myself. How. How do i kill myself. Please help

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Maybe i’ll be loved when I’m dead, maybe I’ll be forgotten. We’ll see.

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Been thinking about killing myself lately. A lot. I hate myself so much. I have no friends. Everyone hates me and wants me dead. I never wanted to live this long. I didnt plan for my future. I don’t want to be an adult. None of my pills are strong enough. Nothing is ever enough to kill me. Ideas? No high places nearby either. Nothing nearby. Maybe if I was american I could shoot myself. Pills seem like the only viable way and my parents are keeping them from me, and every attempt fails. I tried starving myself but i cave in if they give me candy. Ive just been hurting myself lately. Burning myself and cutting myself. But those wont ever kill me. How would I kill myself with a knife that small? I use it to peel radishes, it’s not going to cut an artery. The stove would never burn me enough to cause death. Maybe an infected wound? I could try to get it to fester and see where that gets me, but that feels too complicated and i think our parents would get me before it gets too serious. It all feels so hopeless. I’m going to the city for my birthday. Maybe I’ll see if anything there can help.

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Sorry for not posting art ive been lazy lately.

Birthday tomorrow. Sad. I dont like anything right now.

I’ll have another post or two with art

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sorry for the late reply!

but I'm glad and happy that you're alive, and doing kinda well! And the stuff you ate does sound really good! ^^

Also, ice cream is always good for people :3 (except to those who are lactose intolerant people.. looking at y'all lactose intolerant ppl rn)

I think the body is lactose intolerant. But icecream is worth it.

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Hello again! Checking up on ya!

How've you been? Have you eaten today? Drank enough water? Brushed your teeth/washed your face? Or at least, tried to take care of yourself? Are you feeling well?

I’m alive. I ate a bowl of soup and a couple slices of a pizza. I drank almost a whole water bottle and i’ll shower tonight. I told my friend I’d shower in the morning but I forgot. I don’t feel amazing but I guess I don’t feel awful right now.

mum got me icecream. It was good