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save a horse, ride a cowboy

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Thank you diva 💔

he got up :) here i am nursing him back to health

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My man (I wish)

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YEAHHHH 🫦

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Iykyk

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I used to feel like you’d come back one day, but each day I lose my hope.

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There is peace in not telling people anything.

There is peace in not telling people anything because it makes it more personal, more fun, more interesting. PLUS there's not 100 of people asking you about it, gossiping about it or telling more people about it, learn that there's some things that you should keep for yourself and only yourself, a thing that only two know perhaps, sometimes it's better off that way, you never know how other people may react to certain information. There can also be jealous people around, you really do have to think on what you say out loud. Your life doesn't have to be all public. It's sometimes hard not to overshare, understandable, but whenever you overshare you'll definietly regret it later (saying this from experience).

Remember, what people don't know they can't ruin it.

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I saw you again.

I saw you again, it wasn't physical even though I wish I had actually ever seen you physically. You reappeared in my life for a subtle moment once again, must have been the wind.... perhaps it was just my phone trying to fuck with me, I have 0 doubts, but my heart went absolutely insane the second I saw your name on my screen, my heart stopped and my breath got caught on my throat, I couldn't believe my eyes, it was like they were deceiving me. The moment I tried to reach for you, you weren't actually there which makes me think, why? why would you suddently reappear for no reason at all? I stop and wonder if you even think of me anymore, which I doubt. What was tha notification even for?

I feel like something is actually missing without you and I don't know why, but then I remember that for 6 months all I had was you to talk to 24/7 no matter what distance was in between us, happy for some months until I lost you. Once again I felt unlovable.

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The day you left me.

The day you left me I simply couldn't believe it, I couldn't believe it because you once promised me you would stay, no matter the distance, no matter the people, no matter the time. But it was all a lie, I can't believe I let you know me like that, the way I trusted you and the way I loved you shattered into little pieces of glass, my tears filled your abscense in my life, even though you were so far yet you were so close to me, it pains me that you just forgot about me so fast when I'm still stuck here, it pains me to hear your name, to read our messages, to see your pictures, but then I remember how you simply let me go and it hurts less. I would've never done that to you. I don't think you ever trusted me, but then again, I don't think we were ever real, the whole you and me thing..... was any of it real???

I wish I could have an actual conversation with you to understand you.

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I wonder if you miss me like I miss you.

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I wish I didn’t get so emotionally attached to people, that just ends up hurting me more.

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I’ve never felt so empty in my life for someone like that.

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When the people you think are the least likely to do something bad to you does something that changes you whole perspective of them….

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The vibe I bring to the function ..

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😭

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