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dark sonnet

for when you hate someone with a passion

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can i be real for a second? can i be sincere? can i be fucking earnest for one moment? nothing is more important than the human proclivity for storytelling.

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Not to be a freak or anything but...crying is like...great?

Idk man, I think as a society we put so much stigma on powerful displays of emotion, especially those that may be perceived as negative or "weak" in some way. Anything that demonstrates vulnerability is a big ole no-no.

I know for myself, I've been discouraged from and outright mocked for crying, from a young age, by my family (except my mom, God bless her). This was reinforced in me so strongly that I even restricted myself from crying when I was alone, and felt guilty and weak when I was ultimately unable to repress it, even in private. But recently I've just been letting it happen at the drop of a hat when I'm by myself, and honestly? It's making me stronger.

It's making it possible for me to let go of whatever is churning inside me on any given day, and to proceed with my day with a more positive attitude. It empowers me to clear out the pain catalyst and problem solve, so that I can be more productive, and so that I feel willing and able to seek out people/situations/places that will contribute to a more positive mindset, and will help buoy me emotionally going forward.

So all I'm saying is, if you're like me--if, after finally losing it and shedding more than a tear or two even when you're alone, you're so embarrassed you can hardly look your reflection in the eye--maybe just loosen that vice grip a bit. Remember that you're a human being. You're not a machine. And if you just let the lid off that pressure cooker here and there in the privacy of your own space, you're gonna actually function more effectively and have better control over your mood.

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everyone who reads this post will get some big spicy joy within 24 large minutes (hours)

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Avengers: Endgame (2019)

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can we agree that this was the HOTTEST THING EVER?

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I can’t believe Tony’s last word was “Pep”

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I just saw Endgame

And my spoiler tags are as follows:

#endgamespoilers

#avengers

Guard yourself appropriately

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deancas shippers @ s15

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14x20 - Moriah

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If anyone thinks this whole thing is going to make me sympathize with Lucifer they can eat my whole ass.

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First time in a long time that an spn finale has given me literal chills.

Shaking of the earth, kids.

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This last season is gonna be one long homage to the series I can feel it and I will cry the entire time

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so is no one going to talk about the giant mirror universe sign at the beginning of the ep??

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Facade

I just had to pause and take in the fact that we got a breakdown of Dean’s facade like that. It’s been a good long while. S1?

The only time I can think of when he said one thing to Sam, keeping up appearances, and then stepped away and we were shown that he was just putting up a front is in 1x09, when he calls John, which is just… such a powerful moment of showing the two sides to Dean’s character. And underlining how he does that Strong Quiet Warrior for Sam’s benefit.

Because it’s all about Protecting Sammy.

Including protecting Sam from feeling like he’s responsible for Dean, like he has to protect or support Dean. Because Dean doesn’t want to be a burden. (remembering the way John’s mood swings affected him)

And so Sam doesn’t know. He just doesn’t know this side to his brother. Sam still can’t quite see through the armour. Because that’s just who Dean is to him. And Dean always pushes through. The only times he hasn’t, and Sam has noticed, have had to do with Cas…

And I don’t think Sam realises what losing Mary means to Dean. That losing her is just a huge flashback to the guilt he’s carried his whole life for not being able to save his mom at four years old and watching his whole world fall apart because of it. And now this fear, that took root in that moment, of always losing everything, is just so fucking strong in him that it might even be taking over. Blinding him. Oh man. Oh MAN. What is going to HAPPEN??

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Cursed Creature here