midwesternnerd

[midwesternnerd]

I think you put it really well, in that the extinction is always future tense. And “The world will end tomorrow but it will always be today.”

Because of this, I don’t think that the extinction is *able* to fully manifest.

It’s like the hunt in a strange sort of way. Just as the Everchase could never come to fruition because the hunt’s nature is to draw out the chase. The extinction could never truly be on the level of Smirke’s 14, because its nature is to feed on the anxieties of the future, even the anxieties of its own future existence.

To fully manifest would be to rob its victims of the anticipation of its arrival, and the extinction is all about anticipation.

I feel like people dont focus on the actual core of extinction when discussing it, because the core of the fear is catastrophization and anxiety over the future, that is what the fear of apocalypse has always been to us. While it is specifically named as the fear of extinction, and many extrapolate that to include smaller losses as well, (no hate to them) I dislike this interpritation because it ignores the element of “great” in “great change”(to me it is like making the vast small and calling it the same) and it ignores the fact that the extinction is always in the future tense(despite being a sign of climate change, being in the middle of a wildfire is desolation, no matter the state of the planet) but more accurately what will happen.

I believe extinction on a smaller scale is convincing yourself that because you made a tiny mistake its all over and everybody hates you now, I think extinction on a smaller scale is not being able to watch the news, because its you already know the world is ending in 100 different ways and you dont want to be reminded.

Extinction is the feeling of being a time traveler on the hindenburg and being unable to stop it, not the pain of the crash landing.

Again focusing on that smaller scale, not someone watching their beloved coffee-shop close down, but panicking thinking “the tip jar is less full than normal, which is a sign of the imminent death of the coffee shop and if my favorite coffee shop is closing I wont be able to study and if I cant study then-” etc etc etc.

The world will end tomorrow, but it will always be today.

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how it feels when one of your hyperfixations comes back and stronger than ever

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James Dobson, founder of Focus on the Family, has just died and I am seeing a woeful lack of crab raves on my dash.

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there's a jewish story about a rich man who goes to his rabbi to ask him about building an orphanage, and the rabbi is like "yeah duh go for it!!" and then later the rich guy comes back and is like "actually I've decided not to... I was just doing it for my own image and not coz I cared about orphans" and the rabbi was like "bitch the orphans don't care why you're building the orphanage!!!" and sometimes I wish I could say that to lefties who haven't unpacked their christian upbringing. sometimes motives don't matter!! who give a fuck why a politician wants to do a good thing? bitch the orphans don't!!

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I think it's time to exchange "you can only grow when you're uncomfortable" with "you can't grow without sometimes being uncomfortable, but you can't thrive without also experiencing safety and comfort." Getting better isn't supposed to be a process of constant suffering. We shouldn't aim for a state of constant discomfort in the name of growing as a person, and if you're deeply uncomfortable all the time then something is probably really wrong

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This is legitimately one of my fav quotes from him

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Hey gang for those of you waiting for my return just letting you know that running the muppet joker account has put a very real strain on my real life marriage and I have decided to step away from the blog for the foreseeable future.

I have been talking to her and everone else in my personal life "in character" as the muppet joker so that my blog would be as true to life as possible. I have been wearing Joker makeup around the house, which at first she found funny, but now she can't even look at me. I started compulsively fantasizing about the muppets and it's ruining our sex life. I accidentally called her Kermit in the bedroom and she made me sleep on the couch for a week.

Our son turned one year old this year on July 5th, on the day of Dashcon 2. My wife begged and pleaded with me to stay home and celebrate his birthday, but I was stupid and selfish and had become completely taken over by the muppet joker persona at that point. I went. I returned home to an ultimatum. Its my family, or it's the muppet joker. I chose my family.

Sorry tumblr. I have failed you. I have failed my wife. I have failed my son. I have to go now, to be with them, and to watch my child grow up.

Goodbye, Homosapiens

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I really like it when the pet gets the normal speech register

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Yaaaaaaaall I danced with a girl at a bar this past weekend and I’m still thinking about it, the fact that I went up to her and asked her to dance and she said yes, and we didn’t really vibe while we were dancing so it didn’t go anywhere but it SO AWESOME THAT I DID THAT I AM SO HAPPY

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AND YET A TRACE OF THE TRUE SELF EXISTS IN THE FALSE SELF

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This is yuri, methinks