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New short story I wrote, part fictionalized memoir, part morbid appreciation for Current 93 and the time I chose their album Thunder Perfect Mind to be the last sensory experience I’d ever have. Here’s an excerpt:

“All the while, he waxes esoteric poetry, digging further into my knotted, disintegrated brainstem with velvety weapons of gnosticism. Soon I’ll have to flip the record, which now, so far away, seems to be spinning on the very precipice of the ends of the world. The needle is her chipped nail polish escaping into rising, translucent wax. Her tears fogging the bus windows kissing me with poison, and falling centuries from the collapsing bell tower, eating us under its shadow. Ringing out in finality during the Sadness Song. Time folds, and my wounds expand at each next high-pitched, atonal vocal delivery. Feeling nothing, seeing everything inside myself as the grand and ultimate persecution, all my nerve endings are numbed as I eradicate more and more of my useless flesh.”

Thank you for reading.

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New poem up on my Substack: https://open.substack.com/pub/manintheradiator/p/loaded-guns-attract?r=2isrdc&utm_medium=ios

Here’s an excerpt:

“Inhaling the unbirthed dead

Exhaling our perpetual reckoning,

But we won’t listen

And we won’t let go.

Waltzing and circulating together

In this torrent of conscious child sacrifices

Rinsed with industrial silver

And flayed flesh

From mothers of nuclear warheads.

Ignoring the tiny, starved bodies

As they stack up to the screaming ozone

While sharpnel shards sparkle

Like fleshy fireworks reflected

Off our cold, vacant eyes.”

Don’t celebrate this bullshit holiday today and instead commiserate in the ongoing rottenness of the human race. It hasn’t gotten worse, we’ve always been horrid, greedy, selfish, destructive monsters. We’re just simply more aware now.

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coil - slur

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What a show this must have been.

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Letter From Coil’s John Balance to a German Journalist on the Origins of Horse Rotorvator

FINAL PAGE:

Dear Klaus, — In 2 weeks I will send a lot more information. Thank you for wanting to do feature on COIL. Please can you, first, ask us some more detailed questions. — All The Best, J. Balance

In November of 2017 someone began selling PDF scans of a handwritten letter from John Balance of Coil to a Klaus, a German journalist for the ridiculous price of 15 euro. The letter contains the origins of Horse Rotorvator, assorted lyrics, and some fun tidbits such as he and Sleazy selling Gen the name Psychic TV for 2300 pounds which was never paid, or that John felt that Laibach didn't have a sense of humor. This was purchased and liberated for all the world to see.

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Dead Can Dance in La Mèche Bleue, an old nightclub in Saint-Brandan, North West France. June, 1984.

Photos: Frédéric Detrézien

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Some excerpts from a recent poem of mine titled Dream Contamination. The rest can be found on my Substack, https://manintheradiator.substack.com. If you’re interested in this of any other nightmare nonsense writings, please consider subscribing. Thank you.

Photos excerpts of my poem are overlaid on are from Sally Mann’s Body Farm series of photos.

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William Burroughs on SNL in 1981 reading an excerpt from Nova Express.

I love his little smile at the end.

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Genesis P-Orridge at a Throbbing Gristle live, 1980.

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Coil CSO 11, La Loco, Paris, 2004-05-23

[01]. The Gimp (Sometimes)

[02]. Sex with Sun Ra

[03]. Broccoli

[04]. All the Pretty Little Horses

[05]. Tattooed Man

[06]. Teenage Lightning

[07]. Wraiths and Strays

[08]. Black Antlers

Timothy Lewis – best known by the stage name Thighpaulsandra – is a Welsh experimental musician and multi-instrumentalist, known mostly for performing on synthesizers and keyboards.

He began his career working with Julian Cope in the late 1980s, becoming a member of Cope's touring band.

A collaboration with Cope in 1993 followed, forming the experimental duo Queen Elizabeth.

In 1997, former Cope guitarist Mike Mooney invited Thighpaulsandra to fill in for the departing Kate Radley on a Spiritualized tour, and he remained with the band until early 2008.

In 1998, Lewis also became a member of the experimental band Coil. He has subsequently released several solo albums under the Thighpaulsandra moniker.

Lewis currently performs and records as part of URUK with Massimo Pupillo (of Italian band Zu) and UUUU, a band also featuring Valentina Magaletti and Wire members Graham Lewis and Matthew Simms.

He has also been playing with The Charlatans' Tim Burgess since 2020, as part of Burgess' solo backing band.

Since 2021 he has been touring with Hawkwind and appears as a performer and co-writer on their 2023 album The Future Never Waits

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people actually saw my other coil post I'm really surprised hello gays

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Happy birthday, William Burroughs

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“I am dead yet I live”

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Coum Transmissions : Keep Britain Tidy : 1973

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I Don’t Want to Be the One.

I feel connected to John Balance to an impossible degree despite never knowing him and never getting the chance to know him. I wish I could have joined him in his fall.

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Zos Kia / COIL

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Some excerpts from a recent piece of writing of mine. In which I wake up into old age at the end of the world.