mortalghost

[mortalghost]

I no longer know how time evolves,

Another year spent flashing behind

Veils of darkened light and ruined memories.

Again, so much happens, out of my grips,

Off of my mind. Dug deep into my skin.

A half a century of life and here I am,

Looking through a mountain of disarray.

Rivers of fear and loathing flow and burn

Through my veins, tear my heart.

How old I've gotten, how much further

Do I have to go? Will tomorrow ever come?

Classic stains mark my skin, leaving

Raw emotions of darkest pains I've

Shuttered behind these scars.

Seen and unseen.

How I was, barely a year ago,

Lifetimes ago, as my life, once again,

So close to extinction. Annihilation.

I cannot go back as my soul is reminded.

My head aches. My brain still bleeds.

Happy birthday to me.

Will I make it through today?

-H. Murcia 2:10 PM 5/12/2025

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It's my 14 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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Dragon's breath warms my body, as your touch sparks the world around me.

I am invincible.

Surging through rivers of fallen dreams, aspiring, as stained glass shatters before me, raining down my agony...

I ache for a promise.

From your lips.

Explain to me how the sun will rise upon your eyes, while the wind brushes promises of eternal agony from the aching in my heart to the soothing of the dreams of our embraces?

May we lay upon eternal sands of time to watch droplets of marigold streams. While we sleep, what will the forgotten ones say?

To love is the purest way to live...and I promise to live every moment loving you.

-H. Murcia 9:10 PM 2/14/2025

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As the cold grips me

from deep within, extending,

I am reminded of the emptiness I feel.

My darkest days are embracing

this heart as it remembers the warmth

of your voice.

How do I continue living through

this emptiness as my soul retains a memory:

Your comfort haunts my loneliness.

Too many years, seems like forever,

Since I've heard your voice, seen your face

Felt your confidence and strength.

I strive every day to be better.

I wish you could see me now, how far

I've come, and grown.

Please keep me in your prayers,

from somewhere where you're at peace.

No more suffering, no pain.

January reminds me we're all mortal.

Frozen earth conceals the hollow I feel.

-H. Murcia 8:45 am 1/23/2025

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Embracing you,

Like words, enthralled,

Racing around my mind.

I've lost time and breaths,

Caressing your lips,

While falling deeper into you.

Where are you, now,

As I awake

Alone in my bed?

-H. Murcia 8:12 PM 9/21/2024

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Embrace me in your melancholy lies

I promise you to fall for them

Every single time.

Cities will fall, oceans may die,

Still I'll hang onto your every word.

Believe me what I say is true

For nothing shall keep me from you

While you take everything I've ever done

Made it your own

Sang out your song

While the currents lead away from

All that you've meant to me

You harbor all of my sins

Give them back

Set me free.

How I'll always yearn for you

Yet you turn your back without a look

Leaving me in disarray

-H. Murcia 7:31 AM 9/18/2024

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The winds of a new season falls upon

Wondering wanderers

Traverse through moments unknown

Into an awakening of life

Years of learning begin

-H Murcia 7:44 AM 9/5/2024

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Somewhere your dreams live.

May they grow eternally.

Embrace destiny.

-H. Murcia 9:09 AM 9/4/2024

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My mood strikes a divine chord

Wrapped around your wrists

Acquired tastes, upon red lips

Of lust, of love; unending desire

I thirst for you.

-H. Murcia 6/10/2024 3:55 PM

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I'm a collection of every memory that shouldn’t have ever been mine to keep, but your shadows have taught me that darkness is beautiful and that a heart can grow without light. If hell is real it's a hallway lined with pictures of what it looks like to slowly become unhappy. My favorite things are just the words used to describe you. The days that broke me are the same days that built me, but sometimes the most beautiful part of a day is a someone.

My heart feels the safest around you.

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It's my 13 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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Be mine?

Two words I never thought I'd utter,

As the question runs through my head.

Will you, at least for this moment,

Take a breath and let me in?

Forgotten through the tales of time,

I reminisce and take a walkl through

Tides of torrents flowing from all

Aspects of my heart and mind.

Where are you?

Whispering willows worry not,

Her smile becomes an emblem of

My sunrise; welcoming, enveloping,

Reminding me that there may be

Darkness in my life, but she will always

Be a beacon to my future, and a guide

Throughout my days and my comfort

In the night.

May you remember that the moments

Spent apart are endless, but the seconds

When I hold you are eternal.

I miss you.

Know that every breath you are away

I hold in to keep you closer,

Exhale slowly into the world to share

All that I hold true to be my love for you.

-H. Murcia 12:26 PM 2/14/2024

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How do I tell you that the memories that keep me going are the ones that tear me apart with every moment...

of every day?

Another year goes by and your voice grows ever distant, but yoir memory remains. While life goes on, the cold January air brings bitter tastes to my lips while my bones crave warmth.

Your smile

your words

your laughter.

How do I tell the world about the greatness that you were when I get stopped, constantly, to be told by them that life was better for them...

because of you.

I still have much to learn, and maybe live, but I'll never be able to hold a candle to you.

I'm proud to be your son...and I'll do all I can to live your legacy one day at a time.

-H. Murcia 1/25/2024 5:46 PM

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Do you whump your characters?

Good morning...I may be out of the game, or just too old, but what does "'whump' my characters" mean?

[mortalghost]

Look at the way my hands are open

Awaiting on a world that doesn't care.

All of the memories and the words,

I have written and spoken,

Leave nothing to hold and no room for air.

I've drowned in the feelings of loss

While abandonment has embraced my needs

Yet I try, and I lie, as I raise my hands to a mourning that consoles the deepest parts of my broken heart and untethered soul

Find nothing but comfort in this unending pain and suffering in a world in disarray.

Will I find you there?

I can hold my breath and pray

As time learns to move on without me.

-H. Murcia 12/18/2023 1:12 PM

[mortalghost]

Worlds are born from moments shared with a lover's kiss and a stolen moment between bodies. Gifts of life are brought to time as the varied wishes of two souls unite to bring the world the magic that is you.

With passing seasons, and growing years, experience can teach us how to be strong, be merciful, be courageous, and push on. Throughout the years, while pushing aside the boundaries of calamities, you have walked all sides and shown the world your love, your fears, your hope, your words.

May you bring to these hallowed halls of innocence the gentle touch of your reverberating stories, as you have always done, for all the world to look to the skies and choose to live their dreams.

-H. Murcia 11:18 PM 7/12/2023

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Truths are told in broken circles as the depths welcome an embraced goodbye. Mirrors bring a twisted reflection of a life you no longer lead.

Lies can tear away at our deepest emotions while the whispers continue on into the quiet night. If you don't consider the beat of the heart that was given you, you don't deserve the arms that would have held you tight.

-H. Murcia 10:48 PM 6/26/2023