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So simply having effective means of communication both sexually and having someone you can trust in general are the simple difference between someone holding a shotgun down there throat wishing death, and a lifetime full of pleasure. From a kid ashamed of himself for seemingly social views to one who prefers having others in or around to build off of and reach climax...a guy who contemplated that maybe he was gay or some shit...still gets a chuckle when gay men try to bring him home from bar, at the age where 19 year old females self proclaim there daddy issues and desire for you, Granny's will pay ya to strip, divorces lust for you, all the kids love ya cause you go to there level, husband's are skeptical as fuck, and your buddy returns from Vegas saying his wife let him hang at a swingers club....the wife wants ya and you are intrigued . And you found a "bottom bull"dude from Miami at the hostel, he walked into the sauna dropped his towel and I say with full confidence that is the largest member I will ever see in person....I was tempted to drop mine as well and wait around to see it erect....instead I saw it, looked him directly in eyes and complimented his dick.

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Another girl who I happened to come across years later from that teachers assistant gig. We met, she lost her car, went home and had good sex. Second time same thing basically, situation was just weird, very nice girl though....couple months later find her walkin drunk on street to the point were it was undoubtedly safer if she just stay over fooled a bit, like a year later she informed me that she had been practicing and she learned new tricks. I like this girl, she's got some past issues I'm aware of , know the signs of, and I'll always be there for her if ever needed....but her voice is annoying and gives me a head ache. She learned the squat and ride, but her peak pleasure comes from deep slow penetration within her, mine is typically faster with full intention of hitting multiple angles. Her vagina was made for a bigger dick...I was cool with it ...an old acquaintance told me flat out her vagina was noticably shallow, perfect fit....a girl gets done with drill weekend meets me at bar drops my pants and basically decided if no other dick available at end of night she would settle...I'm not blatantly pointing flaws out in women, regardless. But there are some women as there are men who have no idea. One of the cutest girls I've gone on multiple dates with, beefy vulva but it was sexy, the rancid smell however, I ignored and her orgasmic convulsions were unmatched...she knew it reaked but ....you rarely here the story how innocent Amy had to go to ER because her dates penis was markably larger and tore her vagina but it happens. Or that smell is from a cockring that was lost inside.

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The perfect potent. The body, the attitude, the sexual pinnacle. 5-7 times a day, and from the very first time...instructing me to unload in her vagina. In public, private. People watching, or listening, no matter. The first time she pulled my pants down and moved her mouth tword my penis, with no contact I blew my load. She stayed and encouraged me threw the embarrassment... Her ex husband's dick was thicker and a touch longer but I had the arm candy appeal. She not only gave road head but did so panties down legs widened and ass up so everyone got a show. From no contact load blown to her sucking the shit out of a rock hard cock goin down the interstate for 45+ min...pulling over in a lot , where she hopped on and grinded like a bull rider to the point she was bleeding at the knees and still has scares. Locking me out of truck while naked as the hundreds of employees changed shifts, me no care confidence brimming. We would have sex and casually walk the dorms nude loosing our clothes, my buddy casually watched and had a full convos as she rode away no shame whatsoever...tell me all her sex stories like a threesome with some bull rider and his 9in cock. We filmed some, public beach in the middle of the day....gym, bar, work. Her kitty kat pristine and orgasms for real it was pretty much if another chick even thought about a move she would start sucking ,stripping, and shove my Weiner in on the spot. Her physique allowed for visualization of excitement, as her clitoris would engorge and she was dripping wet all the time, anal occasionally mostly just so anyone within range could here her allow it. We were in an environment where everyone thought they were the Alpha dog, right up until we got there. Not only knowing who the best was in competition but being fully aware that if forceable action we're ever needed to be shown we could and would be drawing ambulances, mass amounts of blood, bullet's, or bodies somehow. Her knowing that like somehow fueled her vagina. Which was tiny but had zest. She would cum say 40-50% of the time from straight sex, but the tounge and toys were used immediately if she didn't. I loved them both...I even put her 14 in strap on on a few times ...no idea how it fit in but she would cum in short order with it in place. Lift her on shoulders put her against garage door outside in yard and get some beard moisturizer and let everyone see her pleasured. All good until she had a threesome with a sexy girl she worked with and her boss, followed by her finding another version of me, with a smaller cock , and inferior in all ways except slightly more toned. It was this relationship that showed how good sexual communication moves mountains.

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Sr year I was a 3rd grade teacher assistant... immediately a girl was smitin, her older sister called and warned me. Every year till she was 14 I'd be around for her birthday. The first time that from the instance we met, felt what love is. I'd run into her years later she packed on some lbs but it was still there, she was in the process of divorce and we would hook up....her 15th birthday she had a threesome with a guy 6 years older then me she explains, dick acts up again not really working but pleasuring the fuck out of her, her friend even observed in the flesh semi accidently ... Arousing, never thought that would be. Her best sex ever, with a guy who's dick is a carbon copy of my own as I have seen pictures oddly. We were fornicating but not having sex it was ok. Until her birthday where she had another guy in bed....he bleed profusely. Feeling inadequacy again

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Right after my girlfriend cheated another girl appeared. Super cool, pretty, didn't go to our school but had heard, she wanted to have sex immediately. Even the thought of knowing her last boyfriend had a large dick scart me. She wanted to use a condom, never used one, she was naked within minutes, here vagina was meaty, and I wanted to finger, lick and play with it. She wouldn't allow it, just wanted sex. No blowjob, no stimulation really, and when it didn't get hard and the condom failed to slide on, she put her clothes on and left, never really spoke again. Like it was her who wasn't good enough. Kinda I guess, but everything about her was a turn on. And me knowing it's me and her acting like she must not have been good enough for an erection made me feel worse. There's couples riding each other in the backseat of the car, banging local policemen, getting plowed through and tossed aside like they mean nothing, actively avoiding me for one reason or another when as always at the drop of a dime if they needed any help or assistance id do anything for them. They express themselves to me verbally, mentally, emotionally but not physically. The younger demographic stepped up

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Gave me time to reflect, the clowns that are so desirable from a hs female prospective in no way portray marriage material. There just out to get there dick wet. Yet the females I was attracted to fell for it, or were blatantly disrespected and put up with it. No one knew why I was uncomfortable showering, or nervous, or agitated but why would they. Where would a teenage star athlete, academic ly past proficient explain that he grew up in a different state, not being around kids his age, having a 9 to 10 inch penis stuck in his mouth and a guy suck his dick causing a feeling like tingliness arise when exposed and zero knowledge on anything except first hand experience. Shaved my nuts, gave it a slightly better appearance, saw another guys dick and did it myself. Had a female teacher walk into the locker room sit in the office and stare while I changed. My head not processing that maybe she liked my body but left some to be desired below. Known her my entire life, still see her weekly, but how to explain that time to her, unknown. Aesthetically wishing I could enlarge just to avoid embarrassment of explaining. To be open to female relationships. Ya know

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This day and age a childhood encounter still impacts my thought process to an extent far greater then it ever should have. A guy pulled out his penis and stuck it in my face at an early age and asked me to suck it. When I shook my head no he showed me how it was done using my penis. His however was semi erect and much larger. Mine now being fully grown is 6", nothing special, a grower not a shower. But it's the one thing I'm not on the top 1% and he for surly was. Uncomfortably nude, in situations in and or around others, and the feeling of inadequacy effecting relationships with females overall developed. A fascination of penises and a different viewpoint emerged. The weird feeling I got where my penis retracted as he sucked it and essentially shriveled up can and still happens when nervous. Lucky I have a extremely in shape figure which helps provide confidence I take away from myself as my penis simply appears to be small at first sight. I'm constantly in fight mode, my nervous system has no break. I've pretty much been actively pursuing means of visual and functional enhancement since high school. I wouldn't shower and felt out of place in the locker room. As with everything else in life the fully equipped package was desirable. Couple classmates had sizeable flaccid penises and much larger ball sacks they looked good. You got females going around trying to see who can find the biggest cock, like a game, and guys who are completely fuckin pricks, hooking up with girls who shouldn't have even thought about the scumbags "putting out" for them cause they were curious. Highschool sucked, my girlfriend who's sister was the first girl I ever pursued cheated on me, had a miscarriage and sent my world into deep space 9 ... Having a good sexual relationship with a guy I considered a friend, her family was my family, in many ways and I lost them and it hurt. Lost my virginity to her at prom, it was two girls who I felt I had known from the start who went through the miscarriage together, and I had to watch get fucked basically if I was around my perceived friends. Everyone abandoned me and I was the last to know of her pregnancy. I went to the one other girl I felt close to and she wouldn't provide help as she as she should've been scared. I shut out the female population for years due to fear and feelings of inadequacy.

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I am just a dude, a dude who's been a Man since about the age of 8. I happen to be white, however there are a multitude of black men who know the feeling. Accompanied by a ton of white boys who just don't understand, and because they don't know the feeling pass judgement like we're just thugs or hoodlums. It's actually called experience and confidence gained through years of misunderstanding from those who never thought. Single Parent home, no father present, conforming around females and helping each and Everytime someone is in need or asks politely. General population slang for Nigga. There are plenty who were much more say neglected along the way and are misunderstood outside there circle due to cultural divide. The pressure of being or becoming a Man is a lot to handle if no one teaches you the ropes and/or you are separated from the population. Dealing with sexual endeavors, minus actually giving birth, my honest opinion is that men carry a tremendous load that would be tough for a non-observant female to notice. I will further explain later in hopes you tune in. Women deal with the same issues and it's typically focused on more as stuff only a female can feel. But it's not, I felt it, I see it, it's all over...the male needs the Alpha or he is viewed differently. To this day the thought still lingeries on if my dad is actually my dad, the taunting, humiliation, and pain from issues that pop up everyday and as a 6-7 year old had to explain to adults,teens,classmates when something didn't add up to them and then still being told your wrong, it can't be, you didn't do something or another as a basic white would so it must be you (I) who is wrong or out of line etc. It gets old, about age 8 where you just show up and show out cause it calms the mind. Self taught, self built, and no one can destroy me except me.

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This blog touches on sexual relationships, the Mans side....and always supporting the females as the Man can.