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I’ll probably see you around. Probably not.

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Has this been done yet

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@thehollyverse ♡

to love someone is firstly to confess: i'm prepared to be devastated by you. by A History of My Brief Body by Billy-Ray Belcourt

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despite the rage building in him, he never lays a hand on her. adamantium claws are jutting from between his knuckles, a sneer on his lips — one hand is raised threateningly towards her face mere centimeters from her skin, a not so subtle reminder that he can stab her wear she stands if he so willed it. he wouldn't actually, of course, he couldn't mourn for her twice. eyes are watching her with a fire behind them, one that had been a permanent feature since he arrived on this godforsaken planet.

once upon a time he would have given anything to simply be with her for all time & he still would, but he'd be damned if he got all his friends killed again. he wouldn't be able to live with it, & the amount of time he has left to live is alarmingly long. EVEN IF SHE HATED HIS VERY BEING, IT'D STILL BE AN EASIER PILL TO SWALLOW THAN LOSING EVERYTHING HE'D EVER LOVED FOR A SECOND TIME.

wade's words are falling on deaf ears [ ' let's all just relax ' he says, as though that was ever an option ] as logan's other set of claws raises just enough to pierce through the man's torso, eyes never leaving eliza: he almost laughs. almost. there's not enough alcohol coursing through his veins to tame the beast that the woman has naively unleashed. wade's hands are feebly trying to get logan to release him, but it doesn't work [ he needed to stab something, & what's better than something that can't fucking die? ]

he ignores that eliza's hands on him felt like HEAVEN ON EARTH. ignores that he'd been so touch starved that he thought he'd die on the spot, that this fire in her is exactly what caused him to fall in love with her in the first place. even half his size, she always managed to give him a run for his money. he wouldn't have traded her for the world, even now, as they stand here finally airing out all the goddamn anger that had built up since logan's arrival — mostly on his end, but how could he NOT be angry seeing the love of his life kiss another man?

❛ you think i'm fuckin' scareda you? ❜ he scoffs at her, head shaking so eyes finally have an excuse to get a reprieve from that look on her face that sent knives straight into his heart. so much love that's masked as anger until nobody can tell the difference [ even he couldn't ] — ❛ you have NO idea what you're talkin' about, bub. ❜ & there was some truth to that, at least: but how could she know if he refused to tell her? ❛ not that easy, huh? here's a tip: close your goddamn mouth for once & stop trying to get in my head. ❜

@strnza, continued from x.

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@mutant9601 asked: "Good girl" / holly + logan from here

                "    I    think    you    can    take    it.    "    Logan    says.    She    has,    and    she    will,    there's    no    doubt    about    that.

                Vice    like    grip    only    tightens    on    the    back    of    her    thigh,    sure    to    leave    bruises    the    moment    his    fingers    are    gone.    He    pushes    Holly's    leg    back,    closer    to    her    torso,    the    other    hand    wrapped    around    his    hardening    erection.

                "    No,    I    know    you    can.    You    have,    before,    what    makes    you    think    you    can't    now,    hm    ??    "

                A    question    she    doesn't    have    the    answer    to,    if    she    were    being    honest.    When    does    she    ever    have    the    answer    ??    Whenever    Logan    was    around,    she    didn't    feel    the    need    to    think    that    hard-    his    over    protective    nature    allows    her    to    let    her    guard    down.    In    this    moment,    it's    no    different.    So    when    posed    with    a    question,    all    she's    able    to    do    is    roll    her    hips    up    against    his.

                "    Please-    "    A    sharp    breath    in.

                "    Please    what    ??    "

                "    Please,    sir.    "

                It    doesn't    take    long    after    her    pleading    for    him    to    push    his    hips    foreword,    burying    himself    in    her    to    the    hilt.    It's    one    fluid    motion,    yet    gentle.    He    takes    extra    care    not    to    get    too    rough...    for    now.    A    low    grunt    is    made    in    his    throat,    and    his    freed    hand    now    joins    the    other    in    pressing    to    the    back    of    her    other    thigh.    There's    a    sharp    gasp    from    Holly,    pearly    whites    sinking    into    her    pink    bottom    lip.    Digits    grasp    at    the    sheets    beneath    her.

                "    Good    girl.    "    

                As    Logans    hips    pull    back,    then    push    forewards    again    in    a    rhythm    so    achingly    slow    that    it's    obvious    her    body    begs    for    more.    A    shiver    runs    down    her    spine    at    his    words.    Fuck,    she    loves    that,    loves    the    praise    he    gives    her    when    she's    done    something    right.

                The    noises    that    leave    her    lips    only    spur    him    on,    hips    snapping    quicker    into    her    as    fingers    finally    release    their    grip,    resthing    her    legs    against    his    chest,    and    he    bends    forewards.    Lips    are    pressed    to    her    ear,    as    he    growls    through    gritted    teeth.

                "    Good    girl.    "

[mutant9601]

🐝  *  ―  𝑵𝑶𝑵-𝑽𝑬𝑹𝑩𝑨𝑳 𝑨𝑵𝑮𝑺𝑻 𝑷𝑹𝑶𝑴𝑷𝑻𝑺. (  some triggering content ahead. add " + " to reverse the action.  )

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[mutant9601]

blah blah blah something something logan stabs wade and yells at eliza something something

@strnza, continued from x.

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something something he hasn't felt human since he was a child, before his mutations made themselves clear

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Hugh Jackman as Wolverine/Logan Howlett shirtless moments

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"You got a whole world to go back to. I got nothing."

𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐏𝐎𝐎𝐋 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐖𝐎𝐋𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐄 (2024)

[mutant9601]

Bella Heathcote as Marjorie Waddell in Beneath Hill 60 (2010)

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the words hit him like a fucking freight train going full speed / words that sound so familiar to him, yet he's certain he's never heard them before. hazel eyes finally looking at her like she's the reason the world keeps spinning [ & maybe for him, she is ] & he's so certain that if he touches her, she'll crumble. if he opens his heart up, she'll meet the same fate as all his other friends. he couldn't take losing her too. maybe he shouldn't be scared of touching her when he's done it so easily for so many weeks leading up to this; so many nights spent in each other's arms, but this was different.

part of him had been convinced that nobody could ever love him — after what he had done, he certainly didn't deserve it. especially not from somebody like holly, who was so good, so KIND, the antithesis of the man logan had become. the whiskey that he'd been drinking through the night feels as if it's gone from his bloodstream the second the words left her mouth. INTERNAL PANIC BUILDING, BUILDING, BUILDING ⸻ he's looking at her like a deer caught in headlights until finally his feet move, taking several steps back until he can reach over for the bottle of whiskey that had been discarded just a few moments earlier.

what's left of the liquid is downed in one fell swoop & empty bottle is tossed to the side [ recklessly, glass shatters upon the already messy floor of the living room ] but the burn going down doesn't help, isn't nearly enough for wolverine to feel anything. he's been quiet for too long, but he doesn't know what to say: too many things on the tip of his tongue that he swallows back down. lungs feel like they're constricting until he can no longer breathe, & his head finally shakes, as if denying her feelings would make them go away.

❛ you — you don't mean that. ❜ she couldn't. he wasn't deserving of such a thing & certainly not of something so soft. HE RUINS EVERYTHING HE TOUCHES. he never should've touched her. ❛ holly, you can't mean that. ❜ the declaration of everything he'd wanted to hear for over 200 years only seems to make him recoil: a hand running over his face in some feeble effort to wipe the emotions clean. but what he'd said had been true, & the longer it takes for her to take the words back, the deeper it sinks in.

MAYBE, JUST MAYBE, THEY COULD HAVE SOMETHING REAL. maybe the world around them would finally shut the hell up, & maybe the stares would finally stop. maybe people would stop talking around them in hushed whispers, stop running to the other side of the street when they walk by, stop shooting glares at him every time he walks into a building. the hope is the only thing he can hold onto. so he finally closes the gap between them, rough hands taking hold of her face so gently, waiting only a split second before lips crash down on hers — single kiss saying everything that he couldn't bring himself to utter, every ounce of love he held for her poured into it.

@mutant9601 asked: i think about you, and everything bad just disappears. / 4 holly

                Breath    hitches    in    her    throat    as    fingers    twitch.    A    nervous    tick,    but,    what    was    she    nervous    about    ??    Anytime    he    shows    up    she    gets    anxious,    or...    no,    it's    just    the    butterflies    in    her    stomach.    The    ones    she    swore    she    had    thrown    up    months    ago,    the    ones    she    had    sworn    never    to    grow    in    her    belly    again    because    that's    not    how    friends    feel    for    each    other.    Friends    don't    hold    hands    and    spend    the    night    wrapped    up    in    each    others    arms,    sharing    breaths    between    gasps    and    moans    and    whispering    sweet    nothings    to    each    other.    No,    friends    don't    do    that,    do    they    ??

                Then    what    fucking    were    they    ??    Not    much    had    been    said    about    their    late    nights    wrapped    up    in    sheets    or    tangled    in    each    others    limbs    in    the    backseat    of    his    car,    but    not    much    has    been    said    about    their    feelings    either.    Perhaps    this    was    the    first    step.    The    first    step    to    admitting    her    feelings,    the    ones    she    was    too    scared    to    admit    in    fear    of    rejection.    Feelings    she's    had    for    a    very,    very    long    time.

                How    good    of    an    idea    was    this    ??    The    whole    world    hates    him    for    what    he    did,    but    Holly    see's    right    past    that,    especially    the    gruff,    tough    guy    exterior.    The    walls    he    puts    up    to    shut    everyone    out.    That    may    worl    on    others,    but    clearly    not    on    her    if    she    had    the    means    to    fall    in    love    with    him.    In    love.    Yes,    that's    what    she    felt    anytime    she    laid    eyes    on    him,    it    wasn't    nerves    or    anxiousness...    it    was    love.    The    butterflies    in    her    stomach    she    thought    she    had    chewed    up    and    spat    out.

                Chest    rises    with    another    inhale,    and    blue    eyes    find    his.    They    flutter,    lips    part    as    if    to    say    something    but    words    don't    come    out,    as    she    listens    to    him    speak.    It    was    often    that    she    acted    like    that,    but    every    time    he    had    questioned    it,    she    blamed    it    on    the    alcohol    (    she's    not    very    subtle    to    begin    with    ).    Fuck,    was    it    time    to    admit    to    her    feelings    ??    Or    was    it    better    to    just    leave    well    enough    alo-

                "    Logan,    I    love    you.    "    Before    another    thought    could    be    made,    the    words    had    left    her    mouth.    Words    she    didn't    even    know    were    on    the    tip    of    her    tongue,    and,    were    she    to    embarrass    herself,    she'd    act    as    though    she    had    one    too    many    to    drink    that    night,    pretends    as    though    she    had    no    recollection    of    the    night    before.    Holly    hasn't    had    that    much    to    drink.    In    fact    she's    painfully    sober.    God,    she    hopes    she    doesn't    fucking    regret    this.

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i could live here forever, pt. 2.

dialogue prompts from i could live here forever: a novel by hanna halperin.

you could be famous. you could do anything you want.

if you snore, i'm booting you to the couch.

i think about you, and everything bad just disappears.

that's kind of how i fall asleep at night. talking to you in my head.

it's really good to hear your voice. where are you?

do whatever you have to do.

are you still attracted to me?

you would always be welcome with me.

you're scaring me right now.

you seem really anxious. are you okay?

you're the shit. you deserve the best.

it makes me feel better to know where your head is at.

it's not paranoid when it turns out you're actually being watched.

would you mind walking me home?

thanks for walking me home. i appreciate it.

is this safe? are you safe?

i'm going to remember this day for the rest of my life.

it's hard to hear, that's all.

you use people. it's something that you do.

you know i'll always pick up. no matter what.

i left out parts of the story.

i think we should go to the hospital. we can go together.

i'm really sorry. you're not seeing me at my best.

what's a seven-letter word for a desert in a glass?

i'm kind of freaking out right now.

are you talking to anyone? a counselor or a therapist?

it's almost over. you're doing great.

i don't say this lightly, but you might have saved my life.

you deserve to be with someone who's good to you all the time.

maybe we both blew it.

i wish i could meet you for the first time right now.

i wish i could be my best self for you.

i really do believe that art can save a person.

being admired and being loved aren't the same thing.

i didn't think you were actually going to come.

you should trust your instincts.

one day you're going to look back on this and you're going to laugh.

i know it doesn't feel that way now, but you're going to be okay.

we never talk about that night.

home is a memory.

i don't think i would have survived that time without you.

do you want me to come in with you?

i remembered you taller.

i wish you'd called ahead of time.

you're as good as they come.

i didn't know where my feelings ended and yours began.

it's brave, what you did today.

i know you're lying to me.

i think things happen how they're supposed to.

i used to feel very alone. i was scared i'd always feel that way.

with you, i feel like i'm part of something.

you bring out something different in me. something i didn't even know i was capable of.

i can't be the only thing that gets you through the day.

what i want most in this world is to have a family.

i've never loved a face more than i've loved yours.

maybe this is what family is supposed to feel like.

every time i try to be normal, i mess it up.

see you soon. miss you already.

you look like someone who has their life together.

what do you like?

you ask good questions.

you're not a martyr. get over yourself.

what we have is complicated, but it's good and real.

were you waiting for me all this time?

i wish we got to know each other more.

we don't know each other well, but i'm here for you.

are you going to be okay?

i feel ____ here with me all the time.

nothing is as real as the person beside you.

[mutant9601]

[ to : james ] can i be fr no cap on god with u for a sec / fate

(    * fate.    ) i’m not even gonna respond to that

(    * fate.    ) i’m throwing this phone in the garbage

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[ txt ] if you see hello kitty on the vest, no you didn't. one of the kids slapped it on as a dare.

(    * addy.    ) hello what now?

(    * addy.    ) i really need you to start speaking english

[mutant9601]

(    * holly ♡.    ) . . . sure, whatever helps you sleep better at night.

@mutant9601 | cont.

[ mr logan ] so [ mr logan ] did it work? are we besties?

[mutant9601]

[ sms: mr logan]

(    * holly ♡.    ) holly what the fuck is this

(    * holly ♡.    ) don’t make me regret giving you this number