my-wl-journey

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Stop making excuses, you fat fucking cow. It's just pathetic.

#notetomyself

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Hey... hi... how are you doing....

I've been absent for so long on here. I've been maintaining. Didn't gain weight, didn't lose weight. Stayed the exact same, fat, overweight loser. 100 kgs. Since January. Yuuup. But I made a promise at the beginning of this year to myself. I will NOT have another FAT BIRTHDAY AND CHRISTMAS. My birthday is november 16th, 90 days to lock the fuck in.

Please bear with me, have faith in me one more time. I want to lose 10 kgs in 3 months. No more fuck-ups, no more binges, no more than 1800 kcal (maxmax) a day. Ofc I will still be fat, but not as fat as right now. I need people to say I've lost weight on my birthday.

It's lock in time.

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i always binge when i see the tiniest bit of progress it’s so pathetic

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get ur shit together and starve

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To be Th!n you have to fall in love with hunger. The feeling of being empty. Embrace it.

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When I eat less, I feel skinnier, I feel better. I feel in control.

Take a note of that, mind. Don't fucking binge.

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My body goals

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Why have i lost a lot of my feelings 5 months into this relationship? Why. He's the best I can get.

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for someone who only thinks about starving and losing weight i sure do eat a lot

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I‘m so locked in rn🪽

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Sigh

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3 separate people TODAY said I looked good and lost weight. How? I didn't gain, but also didn't lose weight? What's the difference? What am I doing right? So many questions. Anywayzzz next month I'm going to a theme park with my boyfriend and I kinda need me to be 216 lbs / 98 kg. Rn im 99,9 kg. Should be achievable EASILY.

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Why do I always go back to feeling like this.

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Is this relationship ending?

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I hate myself