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naomigirl300 · 2 years ago

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Sometimes I just feel so worthless,from how I look to how I feel bad I miss the way my boyfriend was there for me I feel so lonely and I don’t know what to do . It feels like I can’t breathe I just want to be with him and it just feels like he doesn’t wanna be with me or something Weber been together for two years and by default with time going by I’ve been the one to put a lil more effort into our relationship in terms of prioritizing seeing each other and staying engaged and communicative about what’s going on. And more recently I’ve stopped putting more effort than him to see if he’d be willing to put in effort something he said he wanted to do to, and to say the least I was definitely disappointed. At this point I’m stuck in between a rock and a hard place. Because on one hand I love you so much and I want to be able to think this is something we’d be able to move pat but at the same time it feels like you could really care less about how I feel and I’m starting to feel really stupid thinking that we can get on the same page about 1.reasonably seeing each other and 2. Putting in effort. Like ngl it still hurts my feelings that he couldn’t even get me a one dollar and 25 cent birthday card from Dollar Tree or a five dollar flower from Walmart. It just like literally makes me feel less than. Even though I have work friends and people to talk to all I literally want is your attention and I can’t even get so much of a slide up on my story and just typing this out and reflecting on everything o don’t even speak about in fear of starting an argument that becomes my fault is so sick. And this whole thing just makes me sad because the last thing I want to do is breakup with him but I don’t want to keep telling him how a feel and not feel heard or seen or something actually come out of the same things I’ve been talking and thinking myself in a circle about since June idk

9/3/23

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naomigirl300 · 3 years ago

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Angsty prompt list

We're all going to Angst City, so here's 50 prompts to get you ready for it. Send in characters/ship/au + a number. Feel free to rb for your own use.

1. "I did love you. To the point where it hurt."

2. "I found out how much I'm not needed."

3. "My heart is all dried up."

4. "It's fine if you make me the villain."

5. "I guess some of it is my fault."

6. "If I was gone, would anyone notice?"

7. "You know what? Fuck you. Fuck all of this."

8. "Was it worth it?"

9. "Here lies my hope and dreams, may they rest in peace."

10. "You. Did. What."

11. "Welcome to Denial City, it's so nice to have you."

12. "Why didn't you tell me sooner?"

13. "I lost respect for you a long time ago."

14. "How nice of you to finally show up."

15. "I don't drink because I'm in a festive mood."

16. "How could you do this to me?"

17. "I do wonder why I haven't called you in [x] months. Total mystery."

18. "Stab a knife right in my back, why don't you."

19. "I can't believe they're gone."

20. "I wish I could have done things differently."

21. "Don't get ahead of yourself, I never actually loved you."

22. "This can't be happening."

23. "Let me say this clearly so it can get through your thick skull. I lied."

24. "I don't care anymore. Use me however you like."

25. "Sorry would mean that I regret what I did."

26. "Tell me it isn't true."

27. "I can't even cry anymore."

28. "I hope I never see you again."

29. "What happened?" "I woke up to face the reality, you should do the same."

30. "I can still smell them on you."

31. "Crying won't make me forgive you."

32. "Just get it over with."

33. "Don't bother sending me anything I forgot, you can burn it for all I care."

34. "If hitting me makes you feel better, do it."

35. "Are you seeing someone else?"

36. "I'm sorry to be the bearer of bad news."

37. "They didn't make it."

38. "Let's pretend we never met."

39. "You're trying to say it was my fault?"

40. "I'm afraid I have some bad news."

41. "Why do I keep waking up."

42. "My heart breaks with yours. Never again."

43. "You said that we will be together forever."

44. "My body is broken beyond repair. There's nothing they can do to fix me."

45. "I don't want to be a burden on you anymore."

46. "I'll give you some time to say goodbye. Let me know if you need anything."

47. "I won't lie. Going through with the surgery is just as risky as doing nothing. The prognosis isn't good either way."

48. "Stop planning your own funeral, and just be with me in the moment."

49. "So, what's the last thing on your bucket list?"

50. "Responsibility is for people that get to turn 78. Not for those that won't make it past age 26."

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High Life (2018)

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naomigirl300 · 6 years ago

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The Signs and and and and and and

Aries: The world ticks above you like a vast clock it is a clock the world is a clock but here your bed is still and stationary. The rhythm of the gears lulls you to sleep. You must sleep.

Taurus: The sun rises. The sun sets. You can only feel it on your skin. Its been so long since you had eyes. You cant remember what the sky looked like but it looked beautiful. Bed feels beautiful. You must sleep.

Gemini: The wind touches your face. Something else touches your face. It is a blade of long soft grass. The night sky and full moon light the field before you. A figure in a low, wide brimmed hat moves towards you. There is something long resting against their shoulder. It feels so comfortable here. you must sleep.

Cancer: You see a light in the distance. The woods are silent. You see what appears to be a wedding. All participants are wearing carnival masks with long thin noses. Beaks perhaps? They’ve seen you. They turn. You must sleep.

Leo: The rope goes beneath the gas station. Deeper and deeper past sewers and wells and cisterns. There is water to your ankles. You see the footprints on the ceiling. You are getting close. You must sleep.

Virgo: There is nothing left of the home but the garden still stands. Immaculate, as if nothing has ever touched this place. Someone has been tending to it. Someone has been keeping the wild at bay. You remember little. You must sleep.

Libra: The furnaces are cold now. They repaired themselves with what embers they could. Some still cling to those old notions of beauty. You feel bad. You press on. Half-gargantuan bodies. You must sleep.

Scorpio: The flat marble floor stretches on forever. The sky is pink, like an eternal almost sunrise. There is no air. You gasp. You must sleep.

Ophiuchus: Amsterdam, 1814. In a secluded corner of a loft apartment a man sews a dress. It will be a long while until he is done. His eyes are heavy and bloodshot. The air smells of sea salt and death. You must sleep.

Sagittarius: A great courtyard. The party is in full swing. Fiddle and drink pierce the foggy night. There are so many bugs. Something is burning. You must sleep.

Capricorn: Your clothing changes with every step. Every motion suits a new need. So many colors. You are so so tired. You must sleep.

Aquarius: You have dreamed of space for so so long little thing. You finally get to visit the moon. People used to think it was made of cheese. When you were little you hoped they had swingsets there. You must sleep.

Pisces: The baseball diamond you could have met at when you were children. The scabs on your knees you could have had. The bowls of mac n cheese never shared. A life still lived. You must sleep.

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naomigirl300 · 6 years ago

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