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Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse

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Hiii, I was just wandering if you wouldn’t mind blabbing about the symbolism and stuff behind some of your design choices with the horse men that you might not have mentioned. Like with pestilence and death specifically I feel like there’s a lot of symbolism I’m picking up on without fully understanding. Like with Death’s sickle, both a homage to the classic scythe and a nod to the “reaping/harvesting” of souls. And with pestilence I feel like there’s something that I’m skirting around without grasping. The multiple legs strike me as a deliberate similarity to insects, and if I’m right I think that the rider is bound in a body bag type deal, similar to how disease and pestilence is so often both spread through the improper disposal of body’s, and how wide spread pestilence leads to mass graves filled with disease and the horrible anonymity that comes with being just one face in a pit of hundreds etc? All of this is, ofc, to say that I’ve adored your series of the horsemen so far and would go absolutely rabid for some insight on some of your design choices<3

My horsemen of the apocalypse! I will add the original commentary and some extras, less about the symbolism and more about what brought me to design them the way I did.

The symbolism is for you to chose, there is no wrong answer.

WAR

I can't bring myself to represent war with a cool knight. It's horror. War is a bound child crowned with shrapnel, tied to a wounded horse that is being pulled forward by unseen people.

I've read a handful of books regarding war. A lost quote said that it should be shown as horror, it should make generals vomit, it should make you sick. I haven't seen war but my family has.

It was the first horseman I've designed, and it was in my sketchbook for months (maybe over a year, maybe even more) before I had the courage to draw it. I was really scared about how people would react to a mutilated child.

Recommended reading: The Red Crown - Mikhail Bulgakov, a short story about a man coping with the loss of his brother in the war

FAMINE

Someone who lived thro a famine shared that their head was only occupied with thoughts of food. Famine consumes your mind. All animals were eaten. Neighbors gave their pets away cuz they couldn't do it themselves. People walked around town as if in a dazed dream, slowly

Recommended reading: The Last Witnesses - Svetlana Alexievitch, a collection of testimonials of people who were children when WW2 began. Some quotes below;

'''A cat! A cat!' Other children saw it and started chasing it. The educators were local habitants, looked at us as if we were insane. In Leningrad there were no living cats left...A living cat was a dream. Food for one month...We talked about it, but they didn't believe us.''

''During the first year of evacuation, we didn't notice nature, everything that was nature provoked in us only one desire - taste to see if it's edible. Only a year later I noticed the beauty of the Urals''

''I dreamt of catching a sparrow and eating it...''

''A candle burns and the shopgirl cuts the bread pieces. People follow her with their gaze. Her every movement...with burning eyes...crazed...and all that in silence.''

''People walked slowly through the city like shadows. Like in a dream...a deep dream...As in, you see it, but you think you're seeing a dream. Those sluggish movements...floating...As if a person walked on water and not on land.''

''In Leningrad there are a lot of monuments, but one is missing that should exist. They forgot about it. The monument to the dogs of the seige. Dear doggy, forgive me...''

I don't like talking about it. It made no sense to draw Famine with a horse.

PESTILENCE

Based on the notes of a doctor who said the most frightening thing about viral disease was how it didn’t frighten. People didn’t know or didn't care. They lived and spread until it was too late and they became another name on the record

The clothing being made out of shredding plastic is no coincidence; pollution is a form of pestilence too

Recommended reading: Notes from a Countryside Doctor - Mikhail Bulgakov. Roughly translated quote below;

''Ah, I verified that here syphilis was frightening precisely because it did not frighten. That was why I evoked that woman.* I remembered her with a kind of affectionate respect: because she had been afraid. But she was the only one!''

*Early in the chapter, doctor mentions a woman that appeared in the clinic with a letter from her soldier husband, where he wrote that he had syphilis and told her she should go to the doctor too.

DEATH

Recommended reading: Voices of Chernobyl - Svetlana Alexievitch. The Death of Ivan Ilitch - Lev Tolstoi

“Death is the fairest thing in the world. No one's ever gotten out of it. The earth takes everyone - the kind, the cruel, the sinners. Aside from that, there's no fairness on earth.”

Death is the only horseman that doesn’t need to mount their horse; they will reach everyone eventually. Who is the saddle for then? Open ended question because this one you have to figure out personally

Many people pointed out how the horse is a Clydesdale. Good eyes! I purposefully asked a friend to guide me towards what type of horses are the sturdiest and most-friendly looking. I drew the horse grazing. It's not injured, it doesn't gallop. It's grazing peacefully because life moves on.

This is the only design that had a painting serve as a base - The Reaper, by Alexey Venetsianov. Not much or nothing at all is written about, I saw it in a book. It is a literal reaper but it haunted me, as if it's portraying more than a person.

The choice to make it a woman was due to a book about a crematory (Smoke Gets in Your Eyes - Caitlin Doughty) that connected women to death because everyone born is bound to die.

Ahhh, I don't want to give it all away. It's fun to figure things out. About them all. From the enviroment, to the movement, to the horses themselves. Many people even mentioned details that I did not notice and didn't add purposefully that were so inspired and amazing. I truly mean that the interpretations of the public enrich the works even more than my own words. And it's an honor to share that work with everyone.

Thank you anon!

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New Neuroqueer Flags!

So I'm not the biggest fan of the current neuroqueer flags circling around, and so i decided to do my take it on it by incorpertaing the colour scheme of the Queer flag. This version more colourful than versions using the genderqueer flag, and I just associate neurodiversity with lots of colours...

Full colour Neuroqueer flag

Pastel Neuroqueer flag

Low contrast (for sensory sensitivities) Neuroqueer flag

Made for me, by me, but feel free to use with credit!

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Walton Goggins as Rick Hatchett in The White Lotus season 3 trailer

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THE WHITE LOTUS — Special Treatments

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The White Lotus Season 3 | Episode 4 "Hide or Seek"

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THE WHITE LOTUS — Special Treatments

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the heroine of rebecca is so fucking funny because she will just go off on a tangent where she imagines what will happen if she does something and it will be three pages of her going into the most DETAILED FUCKING DAYDREAM you have ever heard, complete with subplots and dialogue, meanwhile in the real world she has not moved or said anything she's just sitting on the floor catastrophizing while everyone around her is carrying on as normal because they haven't noticed she hasn't contributed to the conversation for the last 10 minutes. the guy she likes will tell her to her face "i am hanging out with you because i like spending time with you, i am not playing games or being nice or speaking with any double meaning" and she's like "sounds fake." she starts a small fire in a hotel room while her fiancé and employer are in the NEXT ROOM talking about her because she's convinced she'll never live up to her man's ex and she wants to take her mind off it. her best friend is a dog. she tries to climb out a window to avoid meeting her in-laws. girl is mentally unwell! 10/10 anxiety representation.

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HORIZON ZERO DAWN — [ 4/? ]

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just thinking about things

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Aloy

I finally have some time to draw again this week and am enjoying every brush stroke 😌😌😌

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They at the autism center doing karaoke every Friday

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In 2016 Tour de France was delayed due to llamas sitting on roads.

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HORIZON FORBIDDEN WEST | Photo Mode

She’s in Kotallo’s bunk :) 

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HORIZON FORBIDDEN WEST | Photo Mode

it’s fuckin wimdy

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A few little headcanons @drelizabetsobek Alice and I came up with in the last two days:

Erend casually calls Beta Bee one time and it becomes her new nickname and she eventually starts introducing herself as Bee.

Zo has a son, and he looks like Sona and Vala so much that Aloy has a little cry about it.

Aloy asks to take a trip back East with Zo + baby for the Nora Naming Ceremony where he gets to meet his grandmother.

Zo and Varl’s son is named Trew (like Drew/True).