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Continuing my yap about

"EVERYTHING OR NOTHING" by Cataclysmic_Calamity

Chapter 22

Nooo mannnn i just hate hate hateeee miscommunication

I hope it gets over sooooonnnnn urggghhhhhh

I hate miscommunication

Till chapter 25

Because I got too immersed

My heart is in shambles

I have tears in my eyes, and its not personal, it's not fully because of the possibility chuuga might die but only because how beautifully the possibility of loosing a person the panic, the going through photos, dazai sobbing for the first time ever. And even parts of Mori

My hands are shivering

I will probably write a poem about this later

I just hope everything just gets better from now on

And I hope the hollowness i am feeling is filled with wholesome and happy moments in upcoming chapters

Chapter 26:

SO CUTE SO CUTE IM SO HAPPY

I feel so fullfillied

AND KISSING IN RAINNNNN URGRHEGSH SUCH A DREAAMMM

I ofc played that's the way i loved you while reading that part, ON REPEAT

I get dazai's worry, I hope it's something they both tackle TOGETHER, while communicating 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

Chapter 27:

URGHHH THE MEDIAAAA URGHHH

And wdym chuuya wouldn't be in osamu's life by the end of the year

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN BY THAT

IT IS NOT TRUE RIGHT???? RIGHTTTTTTR????? *eye twitches* (Yeah don't answer that)

But I better be getting a happy ending 😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀

Chapter 28:

Awwwwwwww such a cute chapter, I loved this sm, they are so cute. I'm lwk scared of upcoming chapters since this one is so cute ._.

If anyone is intrested (which i think you are not) here my yap of previous chapters

https://www.tumblr.com/nightisreallywhenimalive/787553583105212416/this-is-so-beautifully-written-and-expressed-i?source=share

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Chapter 14

I feel so bad for dazai and the family situation

I love love love natsume (for now), I feel like natsume will die and that will impact story (I am hoping for a positive way tho, but you never get you want eh?)

And I HOPE DAZAI DONT CHICKEN OUT NEXT CHAPTER, FOR THE CALL THING

Chapter 15

STAWWWPPPP the phone call was so cute

Wdym you wanted to hear his voice and him well????

Wdym he is important to you

Eating my pillow as i type this.

I love this author, I love how they write this soft scenes so nicely paced and adds a fun characteristic to it, it feels so natural and cute hsgeugdudhejhsjsu

Dazai and chuuya kissing while snowing, I never thought it would make me this happy

Yk i cried, for the first time ever in this fic, because of chuuya's disease and the whole adult thing and people even telling you what to if you get diagnosed with one thing.

It's a personal thing. I had this huge thing and huge surgery when I was 18 and yeah everything changed. I had to change my interests.

My old age is going to be a nightmare if I don't die early so idk what is going to happen

The feeling of uncertainty, guilt, death and wonder is captured beautifully by the author

And in Yosano we trust 🙏🙏

Chapter 16

IM CRYING WHAT

Chapter 17

Dazai's therapy, man i feel so so bad for this guy.

It is just so sad. I hope he's able to recover

And I'm crying at chuuya's heart issue for personal reasons atp

It does sounds like a death sentence, surgery also just pushes stuff

This is so beautifully written and expressed, I have no words but just tears to offer

Chapter 18:

It's name is bargaining

Will we go thru the 5 stages now???

Mannnnnnnnnnnnnnn im so sad

Ngl, i skimmed thru the smut, Meh it wasn't it, but who am I here to complain, im an ace hahah

Chapter 19 or 20 or 21

Idk, atsushi part was so cute, but I'm worried chuuya isn't able to tell dazai

AND WHAT THE FUCK DAZAI WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT

It's probably some miscommunication and i HATE THAT TROPE WITH MY WHOLE HEART UGSGSGSGUGHHHG

Ughhhh

So much so I'll start reading chapter 22 later

Coz if this miscommunication lasts more than 2 chapters with chuuya not telling dazai about his heart issue

It's going to be an issue for me

HIIII this will be a very self indulgent updates about the ff I started

"Everything Or Nothing" by Cataclysmic_Calamity

Coz it's making me go INSANE.

Feel free to scroll if anyone is intrested, it will be just me yapping about this insane fic as I go through the chapters

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for initial chapters

The starting was crazy good. Like the song playing dazai being infatuation and everything. So so so good.

Fuck shirase btw

I FUCKING LOVE CHUUYA'S PANINI UNDERGROUND BUSINESS BAHAHHAHAA

I am also eating up the idea of dazai in piercing and them having same music tastes (hell yeah 🔥🔥🔥)

Beyoncé and Yemen mentions throughout the story killed me 😭😭

And yeah, I also love how chuuya fought dazai and even slapped him upon first meeting #very satisfying

So far I also love the how chapters mostly end up on a sweet note (like 13 on chuuya considering dazai his family)

About chapter 13, its so cute onsgsonsg not dazai following chuuya till the end but bro fucked up with roommates thing ##SIGH##

Also the fact, as an Ace, I usually skim thru or skip smut scenes but this fic smut scenes doesn't gross me out and feel so natural and yk connecting skk, idk how to explain this

I actually had so many points to say about each chapter but i should've started this one before it

Also about chuuya's disease.... heart issue... he won't die right......ahhahahaha....please.....😀....no right....😀😀.....

(Don't answer this one tho, I don't like spoilers)

HIIII this will be a very self indulgent updates about the ff I started

"Everything Or Nothing" by Cataclysmic_Calamity

Coz it's making me go INSANE.

Feel free to scroll if anyone is intrested, it will be just me yapping about this insane fic as I go through the chapters

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Okay so, I have completed till chapter 13, and will update as I further go.

For starters the writing is INSANE.

I love how the author is playing with my emotions so flawlessly and with such a beauty that I'm unable to recognise the change.

The changes in the mood is so seemless, I get scared of some foreshadowing but then naturally their are some scenes and I'm giggling down bad shit

I love love LOVE the flow of the story so far

HIIII this will be a very self indulgent updates about the ff I started

"Everything Or Nothing" by Cataclysmic_Calamity

Coz it's making me go INSANE.

Feel free to scroll if anyone is intrested, it will be just me yapping about this insane fic as I go through the chapters

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HIIII this will be a very self indulgent updates about the ff I started

"Everything Or Nothing" by Cataclysmic_Calamity

Coz it's making me go INSANE.

Feel free to scroll if anyone is intrested, it will be just me yapping about this insane fic as I go through the chapters

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dachuu couple

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Coming back to this post everytime I am in search of fics, thank you so much chat

PLEASEEEE RECCOMMEND SOME SOUKOKU FANFICS!!!!!!!! I'M BEGGING!!!

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Soooo.... you guys hug your friends? 🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️

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Being presented these two choices right next to each other makes me feel like I'm a character in a Jack Chick Tract or something.

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sskk fans (me) really won with this chapter i will never get over it.

“And then… and then…” AND THEN WHAT AKUTAGAWA? YOU FELL IN LOVE??

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Is it just me, or is there anyone else who feels like they are doing nothing?? I mean infact I am doing nothing except college, no interns, no research papers, no leadership skills N O T H I N G

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cell phone doesn't like water because it is a combination of the other three elements. it is a rock (earth) that we fill with lightning (fire) that can control radio waves (air). if it contained water too, it would be too perfect; it would be like a god. to prevent this, the universe kills the would be uniter-of-the-elements. it's basic science.

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https://archiveofourown.org/series/4563214

ANONNNN thank you smmm, my heart for 16 chuuya is so so so soft, I cant-

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You don't like New Yawk? 🗽? Bada Bing?

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BOTH ARE JUST SO TOP TIER, MY HEART STILL ACHES SJBDIEBSHS

PLEASEEEE RECCOMMEND SOME SOUKOKU FANFICS!!!!!!!! I'M BEGGING!!!

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PLEASEEEE RECCOMMEND SOME SOUKOKU FANFICS!!!!!!!! I'M BEGGING!!!

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The bloodshed battle (periods) has began, and I, with all my might, want to surrender (throw my uterus out) and get rid of this waves of bombs being thrown at me (cramps)