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Another Life Update

I apologize for not keeping up with my fics this past semester, but I underestimated just how much work my senior design project will be and how much time it will take up and that is in addition to my other classes and working 2 jobs.

But I have amazing news! All my hard work paid off and I graduated with my engineering degree. It took five long years but I am so incredibly happy and proud that I finally crossed the finish line.

Now that school is done, I'm hopeful that I can dedicate more time to writing.

I updated the final chapter of Taming a Baby Assassin. And I really want to try to finish up my fics. So I'm trying out something new this time. Instead of juggling four/five fics at a time, I'm only going to focus on two right now:

Silence of the Damned and I’ll Be The Villain So They Can Be Heroes 

Silence is more completed than the other fics so I'm aiming to get that done this summer. I’ll Be The Villain is going to be a behemoth of a story and I still have more ideas I want to write for it so it doesn't make sense to put a pause on it when I already have a slow updating schedule.

Not to mention that I like balancing a serious story with a more fun one as I work on multiple projects.

And don't worry. I am also in the process of responding to all of you guys' comments. I will get to them as soon as I can!

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I'm Back (and updates)

I am finally getting back into the writing groove. I updated "i'm falling" and plan to try to do more frequent updates in the future.

I have a backlog of comments to reply to and I will try to do my best to get to most of them (if not all) today.

My next story to update is "Taming A Baby Assassin". After that is "I’ll Be The Villain So They Can Be Heroes".

Anti-hero!Dick is my most popular story to date and luckily, it is my favorite story to write and I am able to write the chapters quicker than my other stories. I really like the schedule where I am able to update it every 2 or 3 weeks so I'm aiming for that this year too.

"Silence of the Damned" and "Too small, Too young" were the two stories I had written most of the next chapter on my old laptop so losing that progress is a bummer and it's been hard for me to gain the momentum to rewrite all that hard work so the next update might be a bit slower.

I am also working on the next story to my "They Deserve Better Than You" series so be on the lookout for that.

And lastly, thank you for all your support and kind words so far❤️❤️ It makes me happy to know so many people love my writing.

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Short Hiatus

Ok, I am terribly sorry for doing this once again and getting people's hopes up in getting fic updates soon.

I mentioned it before but I am an engineering student in senior year so I've been busy with design projects, leaving little room for writing.

And if that wasn't terrible enough, my computer completely broke down a few days ago and the ssd drive was killed. I tried to recover it but got nothing. I lost everything on that thing including my progress on my design projects.

I write my fics on scrivener and unfortunately didn't back it up so all my notes, brainstorms, and wips are gone.

As you can probably tell, this has really got me down in the dumps. So I'm going to take a break to deal with this and hopefully, I'll be back in January with more a frequent update schedule.

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Silence of the Damned Update & Ch. 26 Sneak Peek

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I was hoping to update the fic today, but I got into a car accident and will have to upload the newest chapter next week instead.

So enjoy a sneak peek into Ch. 26 instead:

Jason was quietly and slowly eating his soup, unwilling to look Alfred in the eye. His gaze was pointed down, his reflection in the bowl stared back at him.

It felt weird to be eating regular meals again.

It made his stomach hurt.

Since he’s been out of the Pit, he’s been having irregular meals. It just didn’t seem all that important compared to taking over Gotham underworld, hurting Robin, breaking Joker out, getting the proof of Dad’s love. He could just laugh at his big grand scheme to make Dad choose between him and Joker again.

Looking back, he was a fucking idiot. All those time-consuming plans, all that useless effort and all he has to show for it was a measly dumb scar and no voice.

He hated the green haze he lived in back then. He hated hurting Tim, Dick’s brother and Bruce’s son. He hated being in the same room as Joker. He hated Dad blatantly saying his life was worse less than the monster who gleefully tortured and killed him.

Actions speak louder than words and Bruce has said enough.

Since Dad slit his throat, he’s been caring less where his next meal came from. Sometimes, he forgot. Sometimes, he remembered and it was just…easier not to go through the efforts of eating so he just didn’t eat.

It was easier not to give a fuck. He was a dead man walking already. And he rather deal with the pain of an empty stomach than the phantom pains of his neck.

But he knew it was a losing battle to refuse food from Alfred who wouldn’t accept that he just wasn’t hungry right now or ever. So he forced himself to take the bowl full of warm vegetable stew and not throw up at the sight of it.

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when do you think you can update ill be the villain so they can be the heroes?

I'm hoping to update Silence of the Damned Nov. 6 and I’ll Be The Villain So They Can Be Heroes Nov. 20

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you poor sad child you must have been through so much pain to write so good i have second-hand trauma from your writing you do so good do you need a hug i will give one free

Aww, thank you for the hug!

Yeah, trauma is a bitch to deal with but it makes me happy to hear you love my writing ❤️❤️

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hello!

if there is one, what is the schedule for ‘im falling and there’s no net below?’ your writing is the best i’ve seen in a long time and i can’t wait for more!

Thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed it ❤️❤️

Officially, I don't really have a schedule for updating it. I try to keep one but it's hard for me to stick with it long term so I give up on it pretty fast.

Best case scenario is that the next chapter comes out in December. I want to update Silence of the Damned and I’ll Be The Villain So They Can Be Heroes first.

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Hi I just wanna tell you that your fic is one of the best I've ever read, I m so thankful you wrote it.

Also are you okay? It's been a while since you posted

Thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed it ❤️❤️

And thank you for the concern! School has me swamped. I've been extremely busy with senior design projects that I am way too tired to write afterwards. I just turned in my assignment so hopefully that frees up my time and I'll be able to update in the near future.

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I’ll Be The Villain So They Can Be Heroes Ch. 19 Deleted/Alt. Scene

Original: Ch. 19 - Barbara (pt. 3)

“Dick, did you cut yourself because you were raped?” There was no easy way to ask but he knew it had to be done even as his heart was breaking at the devastated look on his son’s face.

Dick was frozen, the air knocked out of him, the blood draining from his face, as he was thinking what the fuck.

He stared at Bruce, horrified. How could he have known? How long has he known?

Oh god, does Bruce think he is unstable now? Was Bruce trying to gauge his mental state to decide if he should even be near the children right now? Was that why he wanted to have this talk in the first place?

He didn’t notice when the room was getting smaller or when his breathing quickened or Bruce shouting in alarm and trying to calm him down.

“Dick, you’re okay. You’re safe. Please look at me.”

Dick’s vision was blurry but he managed to focus on Dad’s voice, on his face.

“That’s good, chum.” He felt Bruce put his hand on his chest and Dick could feel Dad’s strong, beating heartbeat underneath his fingertips. He clung to it. “Just focus on my breathing okay?”

It felt like forever before Dick was able to fucking breathe without Bruce’s help.

His voice was even smaller and more hoarse than when he was talking about his damn rape when he said shakily. “Please don’t take the kids from me.”

Bruce was startled. “What?”

Dick flinched before pleading, hoping against hell that he can appeal to Bruce’s softer side. “I know how this looks but I’m not unstable. I’m not crazy. Please don’t take Dami from me. I can’t— Please don’t take my son away. I’ll do anything. I’ll give up the suit. I’ll quit being a cop. Just please don’t take him from me. Please Dad. I can’t lose Dami.” Not again.

It broke Bruce’s heart to hear Dick begging like that.

“I’m not going to take Damian away from you. I’m not going to take anyone away.”

“Oh.” Dick murmured quietly, now feeling embarrassed for his outburst. He wiped the tears from his face, trying to ignore how he probably didn’t help his case to be seen as an adult and not a child.

He lived longer than Bruce. He was Nightwing, leader and founder of the Titans. He was Batman, on par with Superman and Wonder Woman. He was their equal.

“Dick.” Bruce swallowed the lump in his throat before trying again.

“Dick, I know you love Damian as a son and I know Damian thinks of you as a second father. I will never tear you apart.”

Dick just nodded, throat too clogged to say anything more.

“I’m sorry for scaring you and making you feel unsafe.”

Dick said nothing.

Why was Bruce always messing up? He didn’t mean to make Dick retreat further into himself? He didn’t mean to make things worse.

His heart froze.

What if this pushes Dick into committing suicide sooner? Maybe Alfred should have been here too since Bruce can’t seem to do anything right. He even practiced a speech in the mirror and look how well that turned out.

Dick’s voice interrupted his thoughts.

“…I don’t do it anymore. There’s nothing for you to worry about.”

His heart broke seeing Dick wrapping his arms around himself, averting his eyes from his gaze.

It was as good of a confirmation.

Maybe Dick isn’t contemplating suicide anymore (and isn’t that a relief) but that doesn’t absolve Bruce’s failures and lack of actions.

He did this. He pushed Dick to leave the Manor. He made Dick feel like he couldn’t back to Gotham, to the Manor for help. He made his son feel unable to reach out to his father.

This was how the original conversation went until I decided that I wanted to have Bruce and Dick talking about the kids and how Bruce wasn't going to take them away until after Ra's was dealt with.

I needed to have a reason for Dick to act reckless and go straight for Ra's throat and that can't happen if Bruce and Dick had an emotional talk that solved all their problems.

I still liked it so I added parts of it in Ch. 20. That's part of the reason why I didn't post this until after I posted the latest chapter. It had some spoilers.

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I enjoyed the 'deleted scenes' you posted about the previous chapter. Is there any deleted scenes for chapter 20? I"m just curious.

I'm glad you enjoyed them ❤️❤️

I don't have any for Ch. 20. I didn't have to change or rewrite any scenes for that chapter.

But I do have one for Ch. 19 that I'll post soon. I just need to format it first. School has been hectic with studying for midterms and juggling multiple projects that I haven't been keeping up with fics.

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I’ll Be The Villain So They Can Be Heroes Ch. 18 Deleted/Alt. Scene

Original: Ch. 18 - Barbara (pt. 2)

Barbara couldn’t help but grin as Dick introduced her to his multitude of kids like a proud dad. She was aware of who they were because of the pictures and videos he sent her but she could see why Dick became so attached to such cute kids.

She couldn’t even blame him for showing her his scrapbooks. She settled in to listen to him brag about his kids for two hours straight as he told the stories behind each picture. She couldn’t even be mad at him or grow bored when he looked happier like his bright spark was back.

Damian was sitting in Dick’s lap. Cass and Steph were on either side of him, looking curiously at the scrapbook clearly made with love. He was currently showing them pictures of Jason and Tim’s pranks. The two boys were interjecting and adding details.

Dick was currently telling them and showing pictures of the kids spray painting Bruce’s office in superhero symbols. Tim did a red Robin and Jason did a blue Nightwing symbol on the walls. Dick painted a huge yellow Superman symbol on the ceiling.

When Bruce came home, he immediately painted over the Superman symbol with a black Batman one.

Dick got a kick out of sending the pictures and videos to Clark and Diana in their group chat with Bruce. He should be happy that Dick wasn’t tempted enough to draw Green Lantern instead.

“Speaking of heroes, who’s your favorite?” Wally asked.

The Titans arrived within 15 minutes of Dick’s impromptu storytime session. The couch getting crowded with their added weight but no one cared. Roy had shared some stories of Lian who was sitting in his lap.

Barbara saw Donna and Kori take pictures of Dick being surrounded by his kids. She always knew that Dick had a big heart and he loved easily. It made her happy to see his love being reciprocated by such great kids.

“Robin.” Tim said with no hesitation. Jason is and will always be his favorite.

“Robin’s my favorite too.” Dick said with a brilliant smile.

Jason blushed at the praise. “Nightwing and Batman, I guess.”

Cass pointed to the blue bird symbol in the picture as her answer.

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This scene was cute and fluffy but I didn't include it because it was getting way too long and wordy with everyone pitching in on their favorite heroes that I felt it didn't really serve much purpose overall and was just dragging the story.

I wanted to be able to stick to my current outline and kill Ra's in two chapters.

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hey! im not sure if youve said this before, but i was wondering if you have a schedule for when you post for “ill be the villain so they can be the heroes”? you dont have to answer i was just wondering! anyways, i hope you have a wonderful day! <3

Thank you! I hope you have a wonderful day as well ❤️

Right now. It's looking like the upload schedule is every 3 weeks since things are getting busier at work and I'm preparing for my last year at college (and getting ready to start applying to grad schools). I tried to do every 2 weeks but that was too much with my current workload.

So the next update will come in 2 weeks (projected date: Aug 14th)

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thinking of I'll Be The Villain today and just wanted to thank you for writing the good content <3 Jason's death ruined Bruce and time travel stories to before then are always my favorite because we might have a chance of good dad. I'm a Dick girly all the way, though, so I'm even more happy he's getting the most of good dad Bruce

Thank you for the support and kind words ❤️❤️

I love writing Good Dad! Bruce. And Dick deserves nice things.

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Jason: *theater voice* I’M BACK!! THE VILLAINS COWER IN FEAR OF ME!

Tim:*thinking back to Dick’s Robin days where he smashed the Joker’s face in with a staff, single-handledly took down Clayface, and mentally ripped apart the Riddler* uh huh.

Jason: NOONE CAN STAND BEFORE ME

Tim: *Again thinking about Nightwing killing the Joker with his bare hands, mocking Boone’s origin story, ripping people’s teeth out with pliers, dangling them from a flying jet, and threatening to feed them rats* yup. You’re the worst.

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Now I do be a guy who is a big fan of dick being damian's dad and raising him but I am also a guy who thinks Jason raising Damian would've been hilarious

He's like "I'm not ready for parenthood <holding Damian on his hip wearing a onesie that matches Jason's Red Hood suit>"

"<torturing someone to get information> <phone rings> hold on a minute, <answers phone> <in the softest voice ever> Damian, honey, what is it, I'm at work. Oh, you taught Titus a new trick? That's wonderful, I'm so proud. And you drew something for me? I'll put it up on the fridge when I get home," the poor criminal is like 'oh I can appeal to his better nature' except he has no better nature that's just for his family and now he's back to Red Hood mode

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I’ll Be The Villain So They Can Be Heroes Ch. 18 Sneak Peek

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I tried to finish Ch. 18 in time to upload it today but work has been crazy this past week, I fell ill, and the scene with Dick and Bruce finally having that talk is not turning out like I hope (there are so many rewrites).

But I didn't want to leave you guys with nothing so I decided to share a sneak peek.

Bruce's thoughts were interrupted when a tiny hand loudly put down a crayon on the table in front of him. His smile grew incredibly fond as he gazed at Damian —his youngest. He was so small and so perfect and he wouldn’t change a single thing about him.

Damian had a cute angry pout on his face. He didn’t need to speak to let Bruce know his thoughts.

“I’m sorry, Damian. Daddy was lost in thought.” He’s been trying to get Damian to call him Daddy or Dad out loud. Not Baba. Never Baba because that was Dick and he will never take that away from him.

He still doesn’t know how Dick became so attached to Damian but he wasn’t going to ruin that relationship. He wasn’t jealous that his son adored his eldest more. It actually made his heart warm to see Dick interact with and care for their baby bat.

Damian blinked and huffed before moving the crayon closer to him. Bruce got the message and went back to coloring the cow. Dick got Damian an animal coloring book and it was just them two in the family den coloring it.

Bruce wasn’t oblivious to the army of stuffed animals slowly growing in Damian’s room or his fascination with anything dealing with animals. He already knew that Damian was going to ask for a pet when he’s older.

Damian let out a smile when he saw Bruce get back to work and went back to coloring his dog blue like Baba’s suit and his nameplate. He wanted to get a real barking dog that he can play with and Baba said later.

He is definitely getting one soon.

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re-reading ill be the villain while listening to teresa by yungblud is on a Whole nother level and i am feeling So many emotions

I like some of his music too ❤️