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[nxmelessfighter]

// just random 2am thoughts but

kara and hana sharing mitsu

[nxmelessfighter]

Hikaru's first reaction to the hand on his shoulder is to flinch slightly, not enough to be noticeable but the gesture had surprised him nonetheless. Physical contact... is not his favorite thing, to say the least (he clearly takes after Ookurikara in that regard), but after a while it feels rather... reassuring?

The white haired man seems rather confident about winning the ring toss, not that Hikaru wants anything-- no he's not still looking at that fluffy white teddy bear-- and of course it's a losing game. Aren't some of these things rigged anyways?

Hikaru takes the proffered rings and makes an attempt of his own, but given his... lack of height and terrible sense of aim, the first ring doesn't make it. He uses too much force on the second and it goes too far ahead.

One more shot... he never really had much of a competitive streak but for some reason he really wants to prove himself. Aim and...

"Huh?"

The ring landed perfectly. He blinks a few times, trying to make sure he's not seeing things. But nothing changes, he actually won.

"Wow..." So it's not rigged, he almost says, but he gets the feeling that thought had never crossed the mind of his companion next to him so he keeps it to himself. He turns to him and can't help but smile.

"Thank you… if it weren't for you I…" He'd probably still be sitting at that bench, panicking-- or who knows, maybe his parents would have found him by now. But for some reason... he barely knows this guy but feels like they're friends now.

Hikaru ends up choosing that teddy bear as his prize. He looks at it, in all its fluffiness, blue eyes staring back at him... The resemblence is uncanny.

"Um…" he looks back at his new friend, "I… never got your name…" Wait, what is he doing, you're supposed to introduce yourself before asking for someone's name! "I'm Hikaru."

Fuyuki, blissfully unaware of his surroundings as ever, just nodded. "Sounds great. I was a pro at that as a child, hehe."

After collecting the trash of both of them, Fuyuki leads the other over to the stall; a hand gently placed on the shoulder to not loose each other as they made their way through the busy masses.

"I can help get you anything you want" proud and eagerly, the white haired paid for both of them and started the game.

And he lost. Of course.

"Uh ...it really has been some time...." Well, it surely was easier as a kid given the way he sat on Yūjis shoulders and was able to overlook basically everything. Looking back apologetically, he handed over the rings to his new companion.

[nxmelessfighter]

For the non-romantic thing, Fuyuki and Hana 🤲🏼

And maybe Mitsukuri (ha, stole the romantic off them)

ㅤsend 🌊 (or wave emoji if unable to see it) and i will fill out the below form based on what i would like to see between our muses!

ㅤㅤㅤbold = absolutely, italics = maybe, strikethrough = never.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ(s) = sender, (r) = receiver.

fuyuki & hana

FAMILIAL

blood relatives // half relatives // step relatives // adoptive relatives // found family // (s) is a parent(al figure) to (r) // (r) is a parent(al figure) to (s) // (s) is an older sibling to (r) // (r) is an older sibling to (s) // our characters were raised as siblings together // our characters are cousins // (s) is a sibling (figure) to (r)'s parent // (r) is a sibling (figure) to (s)'s parent

PLATONIC

childhood friends // family friends // teenage friends // university friends // work friends // adult friends // new or recent friends // best friends // queerplatonic // friends who live together // friends through circumstance // exes to friends // enemies to friends // (s) previously had feelings for (r) // (r) previously had feelings for (s)

ANTAGONISTIC

frenemies // rivals // friends to enemies // exes to enemies // family-based // work-based // circumstance-based // misunderstanding-based // ideology-based // (s) betrayed (r) // (r) betrayed (s) // (s) believes (r) is a villain // (r) believes (s) is a villain // (s) is a former villain // (r) is a former villain // (s) is actively antagonizing (r) // (r) is actively antagonizing (s)

GENERAL

coworkers // frequent the same locations/cross paths often // grumpy & sunshine // share a brain cell // begrudgingly connected // hot & cold // straight man & funny man // opposites attract // other not specified

specific dynamic(s) i'd like to see between our muses not specified :

two airheads meet. the results may surprise you.

mitsu & kara

FAMILIAL

blood relatives // half relatives // step relatives // adoptive relatives // found family // (s) is a parent(al figure) to (r) // (r) is a parent(al figure) to (s) // (s) is an older sibling to (r) // (r) is an older sibling to (s) // our characters were raised as siblings together // our characters are cousins // (s) is a sibling (figure) to (r)'s parent // (r) is a sibling (figure) to (s)'s parent

PLATONIC

childhood friends // family friends // teenage friends // university friends // work friends // adult friends // new or recent friends // best friends // queerplatonic // friends who live together // friends through circumstance // exes to friends // enemies to friends // (s) previously had feelings for (r) // (r) previously had feelings for (s)

ANTAGONISTIC

frenemies // rivals // friends to enemies // exes to enemies // family-based // work-based // circumstance-based // misunderstanding-based // ideology-based // (s) betrayed (r) // (r) betrayed (s) // (s) believes (r) is a villain // (r) believes (s) is a villain // (s) is a former villain // (r) is a former villain // (s) is actively antagonizing (r) // (r) is actively antagonizing (s)

GENERAL

coworkers // frequent the same locations/cross paths often // grumpy & sunshine // share a brain cell // begrudgingly connected // hot & cold // straight man & funny man // opposites attract // other not specified

specific dynamic(s) i'd like to see between our muses not specified :

all their friends don't know if they're together or not and tbh they don't know either

[nxmelessfighter]

THE NON-ROMANTIC SHIPPING GUIDE

inspired by various (romantic) shipping memes i've seen, this is a non-romantic shipping guide meme! this is for those who are interested in dynamics that are solely familial, platonic, antagonistic, and/or simply general, without being romantic or sexual in nature!

ㅤsend 🌊 (or wave emoji if unable to see it) and i will fill out the below form based on what i would like to see between our muses! alternatively, feel free to fill out the form yourself & send it in an ask if you would prefer to share your ideas! (please remember to specify what muse you're sending from or for with multimuse blogs!)

ㅤㅤㅤbold = absolutely, italics = maybe, strikethrough = never. ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ(s) = sender, (r) = receiver.

FAMILIAL

blood relatives // half relatives // step relatives // adoptive relatives // found family // (s) is a parent(al figure) to (r) // (r) is a parent(al figure) to (s) // (s) is an older sibling to (r) // (r) is an older sibling to (s) // our characters were raised as siblings together // our characters are cousins // (s) is a sibling (figure) to (r)'s parent // (r) is a sibling (figure) to (s)'s parent

PLATONIC

childhood friends // family friends // teenage friends // university friends // work friends // adult friends // new or recent friends // best friends // queerplatonic // friends who live together // friends through circumstance // exes to friends // enemies to friends // (s) previously had feelings for (r) // (r) previously had feelings for (s)

ANTAGONISTIC

frenemies // rivals // friends to enemies // exes to enemies // family-based // work-based // circumstance-based // misunderstanding-based // ideology-based // (s) betrayed (r) // (r) betrayed (s) // (s) believes (r) is a villain // (r) believes (s) is a villain // (s) is a former villain // (r) is a former villain // (s) is actively antagonizing (r) // (r) is actively antagonizing (s)

GENERAL

coworkers // frequent the same locations/cross paths often // grumpy & sunshine // share a brain cell // begrudgingly connected // hot & cold // straight man & funny man // opposites attract // other not specified

specific dynamic(s) i'd like to see between our muses not specified :

(list here as needed)

[nxmelessfighter]

Please like/reblog this if you're willing to roleplay with villain characters without acting like the mun is a terrible person.

I writing evil or nearly evil characters more fun than writing good guys. I’m sick of feeling like people are going to judge me for my characters. I have a right to rp what I want and explain my characters actions, but not try to justify them. Because I know why a character acts a certain way doesn’t mean I think they are excused. The world isn’t black and white.

[nxmelessfighter]

<< @saniwakenji

By the time Ookurikara leaves campus, the sun is already beginning to set. If he can catch the train within the next few minutes… yeah, no-- he's still not making it home before dark.

Renting an apartment on the outskirts of Fushimi may have been cheaper than getting one near the university, but with each passing day the commute was making it a questionable decision considering he loses over two hours of his day traveling between Nosho and Sakyo. If it weren't for Kashagiri making friends with the boy at the shrine near their residence, Ookurikara would have considered moving again.

Putting his headphones on, Ookurikara begins the trek to the station, swiftly stepping through the crowd that seems to only grow as workplaces close for the day. The sound of two-decades-old rock music drowns out his surroundings, and he supposes the good thing about the city is that everyone is too busy to bother him, the last thing he needs is to be stopped and--

He stops himself when his eyes land on a familiar figure.

Dark hair with a midnight blue sheen, the only visible golden eye rivaling the sun in its brightness, the other covered by the man's hair and an all too familiar eyepatch...

"…Mitsutada?"

The one person he had been waiting for but thought he would never see again.

Ookurikara can only stare in shock, sliding his headphones down around his neck.

He subconsciously takes a step forward. And another. He wants to just throw himself at the taller man, to feel his embrace after pining for that very sensation for so long, but he can't. Does Mitsutada even remember their past life? Fighting side by side, protecting history and each other... though in the end--

His question is answered by Mitsutada's arms around him.

'I missed you more than I know how to say...'

That should be his line, really, because Ookurikara has no words for how much he had wished he could see Mitsutada again, how he had resigned himself to the crippling loneliness that came with having loved and lost.

Tears prick his eyes and for some reason it hurts to even breathe but he wouldn't trade this moment for anything. His breath hitches but a small smile takes over his features as he rests his head against Mitsutada's shoulder. No thought is given to any curious glances in their direction, for now the two of them are all that exists.

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Why I haven't answered back in a RP:

1. I am NOT ignoring you. 2. I am trying to think if a reply. 3. I’m not up to it at that moment. 4. Tumblr ate it.

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"...What?" The question, more like admission of disbelief, comes out softly, and he shakes his head.

"...Why... why would you even think that?" Ookurikara asks as if he has no right to be angry about his own photos being not only shared without his consent but then broadcasted to the entire world. But in the end he couldn't blame Mitsutada for it. Not when Mitsutada had went and turned Ookurikara's life around in more ways than one— though being scouted for an idol gig after posting some song covers had somehow been less surprising than falling in love.

"I'm not going anywhere. Unless upper management decides to fire me," he says wryly, crossing his arms over his chest, "Even then..."

His gaze softens, "I'm not leaving you."

The 'unless you want me to' goes unsaid, despite his own guilt-- knowing that even if they had met under different circumstances, Ookurikara likely would have been just as secretive. He knows it isn't fair to Mitsutada at all, and yet...

How ironic, for someone who hates for his feelings to be perceived by anyone to be put under the spotlight. Though he supposes that's what his mask of indifference is for. The mask that Mitsutada had seen straight through since the very first day.

Ookurikara just hopes it's enough to get them both out of this mess.

He knew what danger could come with such news spreading like wildfire ..he saw it often enough. Yet he still selfishly decided to post it just for his close people...well ..

Some comments and even threats reached Mitsutada already but he decided to keep quiet over them. In fact, the lingering fear as well as extreme guilt were on his mind, all present.

"I...I know..." He looked down, overwhelmed by everything he had to manage later.

But....still...

"Will you....break up now...?" He only whispered, not daring to say it out loud. As if it would become true, despite his watering eyes. He really fucked up the others life and asked this question now...

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<< @saniwakenji

No one was supposed to find out about their relationship. Ookurikara didn't even tell his own brother.

Yet here they were, the tabloids spreading it like wildfire. Because what do you mean Mitsutada had been posting those pictures-- even if it was on a private account?!

There was a reason Ookurikara worked solo, trusted no one-- okay maybe not no one--

Actually now he might as well.

Though the anger in his earlier outburst subsides into something else, more akin to worry, albiet masked by his unflinching gaze and almost ice cold voice.

"Do you realize what you've done?" It wasn't just about their jobs. That isn't even on his mind right now.

Being well known came with consequences, and Ookurikara has had quite a few unpleasant run-ins, he just doesn't know which is worse, delusional fans or their pissed off exes. Or that one guy that went from being a delusional fan's pissed off ex to a delusional fan himself.

Either way the last thing he needs is Mitsutada getting hurt.

Maybe he should have told Mitsutada about those incidents when they had happened.

[nxmelessfighter]

Why is his room full of seashells? He hasn't even been to the beach this year.

[nxmelessfighter]

when do you gaze at your soulmate?

when they're sleeping

it's not just the way they're at rest. it's that they're at rest with you. it's not just that they're safe but that they feel safe enough to let you see them like this. it's trust and it's intimacy. and you're not sure you're ready for them to see the emotions in your eyes right now. they've been through enough. you both have. sometimes it scares you just how much you love them. it terrifies you that you feel happy as they lay there, eyes closed and hair a little messy. their features twitch and you know they're dreaming and it scares you because if you fall asleep too you won't have a nightmare tonight. you'll dream of them. or nothing at all. and either way it will make you need them more. and you're not supposed to need anyone but it's them. you want to hold them in your arms and never let go. you want to protect them but you know they want to protect you to. this is the kind of love you long for and it's the kind which will hurt if you lose it. but here you are anyway. it's too late now. you're glad it's too late to go back.

tagged by: stolen from @kinships tagging: whoever wants to do it lol

[nxmelessfighter]

"Of course it is." Why is that even a question? As if Ookurikara would answer in any other way. But there is one thing that bothers him.

The most important part...

Ookurikara flicks Mitsutada's forehead, gaze full of a fond affection he wouldn't show anyone else. "The most important part is right in front of me."

The tachi would always try so hard to be 'cool' but Ookurikara likes every side of him, perfect or not. Just being by his side is enough.

It's something he doesn't want to take for granted ever again.

The uchigatana leans in, resting his head against Mitsutada's chest. "…Just promise you're not going anywhere this time..."

A childish sentiment... It's not like they had any say in where they had went as swords, and even now, could they really choose their own fate?

He grew hot, all with the embarrassment and terror of having basically...fucked up this moment. But that didn't change Ookurikaras reaction luckily.

The tachi laughed, embraced the other and kissed him all over the face as he felt his hug tightly.

"Is that a yes?" He asked cheekily, trying to look into the others' eyes. Of course it was ..but he wanted to hear it, see the feelings in his very eyes as he did so. "I... I'm sorry for forgetting the most important part of this back in the honmaru. You deserve it to be perfect ..."

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tell  me,  was  i  just  a  placeholder?

Mitsukuri 👀👀👀

It wasn't supposed to get this bad. Not after everything had been getting better.

When the two had met Ookurikara had already hit rock bottom. Every day he woke up wishing he could just go back to sleep forever, that some stroke of 'bad luck' would end his miserable existence, but that day everything changed.

He never understood what the hell Mitsutada saw in him but they had somehow ended up in a relationship, the first one Ookurikara had ever been in. Instead of his constant state of exhaustion and complete disregard for his own well being combined with his 'antisocial' personality driving Mitsutada away, it did the exact opposite. Mitsutada had practically become his savior, and Ookurikara was slowly starting to realize he couldn't just stay dependent on him forever. Because some days he felt like he was losing his autonomy. Not because Mitsutada had any bad intentions, but because Ookurikara had let himself become too attached.

He needed Mitsutada by his side like he needed air. And that terrified him.

Even now, despite him finally being over the worst of it, the same tenderness he had been shown when he had been unable to function was starting to feel almost insulting. As if Ookurikara couldn't take care of himself-- which to be fair, for practically two years, he couldn't. Skipping meals because he didn't have the energy to care and never leaving the apartment outside of work...

He just needed some space. Some time alone to figure himself out. Because really, he didn't even know who he was anymore.

But expressing his feelings was never his strong point.

He had never intended to make it sound like he was just using Mitsutada as a means to an end, that he would just leave him after finally feeling some semblance of recovery.

"That's not... that's not what I meant at all!" Ookurikara rarely ever raised his voice, even his anger had usually been a quiet simmer, but for Mitsutada to even think something like that... It was like a knife to his heart.

"I just..." He can't even look Mitsutada in the eye, "I know how much you care. I know you're always worrying about me, but sometimes... it's too much. It's--" he almost says 'suffocating' but the last thing he needs is to make Mitsutada feel worse. So instead he decides not to make this about his own feelings. "It isn't fair to you to have to look after me like that. And honestly you don't even need to anymore but I guess that's hard to believe after all this time." Even after Ookurikara had been making some progress-- not going straight to bed after work; they finally split the chores evenly and sometimes he would go out for groceries, and even went to a concert the other day.

"I don't want to leave you. I just want to feel like my own person. And I can't do that like this... It's not your fault, please don't take it that way."

The more he speaks the more he realizes it does sound like he's trying to end things. But he's not. He wants to come back. He wants to stay. But it would be unfair for him to expect Mitsutada to feel the same after some time apart. He can't tie him down by asking him to wait until he was ready again.

[nxmelessfighter]

༘⋆｡ stirring the pot starters

a mix of arguments, tension, manipulation, gossiping, fighting, & general emotional messiness!

you  weren't  supposed  to  hear  that.

don't  look  at  me  like  i'm  the  only  one  lying.

want  to  tell  them,  or  should  i?

you  think  i  don't  know  what  you  did?

i've  hit  people  for  less.

oh,  i  thought  you  already  knew.

that's  funny,  you  didn't  say  that  last  night.

say  that  again.  i  dare  you.

you  wanna  talk  about  loyalty?

no  offense,  but  if  you're  the  last  to  know,  that's  on  you.

go  ahead  -  pretend  like  it  wasn't  your  idea!

they  deserve  to  know  the  truth.

you  didn't  hear  this  from  me,  but  -

oh,  so  now  you  care?

don't  flatter  yourself.  you  were  just  convenient.

you  crossed  a  line.

we  had  bets  on  how  long  it  would  last.

it's  not  even  a  secret  anymore.

you  don't  get  to  cry  about  it  now.

touch  me  again  and  see  what  happens.

say  it  again.  louder  this  time.

you  really  thought  nobody  would  find  out?

don't  act  so  innocent.

okay,  but  am  i  the  villain  for  laughing?

tell  me  who  else  knows.  right  now.

this  whole  time,  and  you  didn't  say  a  word?

don't  act  brave  now.

you're  really  gonna  do  this  here?

it  wasn't  supposed  to  get  this  far!

you  can't  rewrite  history.

oh,  i'd  never  say  it  to  their  faces.

it  was  supposed  to  stay  between  us.

we're  all  thinking  it,  i  just  said  it.

you're  not  as  untouchable  as  you  act.

do  you  even  feel  guilty?

they  warned  me  about  you.

go  ahead,  make  it  worse.

if  you  repeat  this,  i'll  deny  everything.

the  next  thing  out  of  your  mouth  better  be  an  apology.

you're  about  three  seconds  away  from  regretting  this.

you  keep  pushing,  and  i'll  push  you  back.

they're  going  to  find  out.

one  more  lie,  and  i  walk.

they're  lying  to  you.

you  need  to  back  off.  now.

you're  defending  them?  after  everything?

don't  try  to  hide  it.

tell  me,  was  i  just  a  placeholder?

you  really  think  sorry  fixes  this?

there's  nothing  left  to  say.

don't  act  like  you're  the  one  hurting.

i  don't  owe  you  any  explanation.

whatever  helps  you  sleep  at  night.

you  should've  seen  this  coming.

i  hope  it  was  worth  it.

i  told  the  truth.  just  not  all  of  it.

you'll  miss  me  before  i  miss  you.

smile.  you're  ruining  the  mood.

i'd  watch  that  tone  if  i  were  you.

it's  not  my  fault  you  believed  me.

you  have  such  a  talent  for  pretending  you're  innocent.

we  both  know  this  is  over.

i  never  said  i  was  a  good  person.

i  thought  you  were  different.