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 Do I really want to fall in love or do I simply want to write about what it feels like? These hallway glances are torturous, the calls in my car, the way they drew me- It never ends. The love, the affection, the people telling me I’ve never made them feel this way before. Every person I meet turns me into someone new- someone lovable to them, I guess. 

I tell people ‘that’s crazy’ or ‘that’s insane’ a little too much- as if to block off any sense of genuine emotions for my being- my stupid being. My mother has convinced me I’m too much of a mistake to let myself receive genuine poetry, hand written letters meant for me. That’s not for me, that’s for the flesh of a person who shares my name. Trust me, my whole self is not worth the time you’re spending. 

I’m learning, I say. I’m nineteen, I say.

“It’s okay.” You say. “It’s okay.” You say. 

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it seems very likely that someone decided to deal with a cat going into heat for the first time by dropping her off in the middle of nowhere 'to live on a farm' (my house)

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ngl i kinda hate when i draw a character looking straight forward like why are you looking at me. why are you judging me. let me draw you.

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I fear not the girl with one 10,000 noter, but I fear the girl with 10,000 one-noters

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I WORKED FOR THIS.

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we're having sex and you pull out at the end to discover your cock is entirely gone, dissolved (ive digested it like a pitcher plant). bye!

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Since it's mid-august it's time for a reminder for the DIY folks or those who like to cosplay

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"i unfollow if our media interests no longer align" I still follow moots haven't spoken to in years and have learned the entire story of deltarune, mouthwashing, that one ninjago lego show, continuations of media I havent been into since 2018 and many others. I don't need a summary of something I just need Mutual to be insane about it on my dash

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Its butch appreciation day appreciate ur local butch <3

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And so, after being told by the town's mayor that he wouldn't pay him, The Pied Piper returned while all the parents were at church and lured the town's children away, never to be seen again. Well! The Midwife won't be having any of that.

So I wrote a bit of flash fiction about The Midwife during my ketamine treatment and liked it so much that, when I sobered up, I edited it a little and posted it on Ao3 for everyone to read.

No idea who The Midwife is? Then may I suggest the time she Defeated The Deadly Lindworm, or perhaps her encounter with The Mighty Sea Hag, or even that time she helped solve the case of Little Red Riding Hood's Murder?

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My eldest was nine years old and had questions, for the first time, about why we said Hamotzi over the Friday challah we'd picked up at the JCC.

"Blessed is God, ruler of the Universe, who brings forth bread from the earth." 

9yo:...but I don't believe in a ruler-of-the-universe kind of God...?

Me: I don't either- but I'm glad bread exists and I'm grateful that we have food to eat. Are you?

9yo: Yeah... 

Me: So I think of it as a way of remembering to be grateful. To remember how amazing it is that humans learned to cultivate wheat, to grind it, and make the flour into bread. A prayer like this is a way of remembering how fortunate we are instead of taking it for granted.

9yo: But it's amazing that HUMANS learned to grow wheat and bake bread. Why thank God? 

Me: Do you remember when we talked about Pesach and the Exodus story and the ancestors of the Israelites being slaves in Egypt? Do you remember what we learned about that? 

9yo: They were probably never slaves in Egypt, because there's no evidence for it where there should be. It's probably just an origin myth. 

Me: Pretty much, yeah. But if a people's origin myth includes escaping slavery, how are they likely to feel about slavery? 

9yo: They'll hate it

Me: And how will they hopefully feel when other people are enslaved?

9yo: They'll know it's wrong. 

Me: So even a story which isn't literally true...can still be good. Origin myths shape peoples. I like this one and I'm glad it's the origin myth for our ancestors.

9yo: Okay...but Hamotzi isn't about the Exodus story...?

Me: To me, Hamotzi is sort of like the Exodus story- it doesn't need to be literally true to be good. Since I don't believe in a creator-of-the-universe sort of God, I see the prayer as a way of remembering to be glad that we evolved the way we did to enjoy eating delicious bread, to be glad that humans learned to grow wheat, grind flour, domesticate chickens and bees, and make bread, and to be grateful that we have enough to eat, because many people in many times and many places, including today, don't have enough to eat.

We can see it as a way to remember to not take for granted that our bodies are healthy and we can enjoy eating bread which fuels our bodies. We're lucky to have this bread, and it is good for us to remember how lucky we are. It's bad for us to take our good fortune for granted.

9yo: Okay, being grateful is good. But why thank a God who we don't think is listening? Why do it in Hebrew? 

Me: Because expressing that gratitude, in Hebrew, towards God, is the way our ancestors remembered to be grateful for a very, very long time. When we do it the same way they did it, it's a way of remembering who they were, how hard they worked, and how much they struggled to enable you and I to be here, generations later, on the other side of the planet, healthfully and peacefully eating bread.

Sometimes, it's easier to remember to be grateful if the words for expressing that gratitude are pre-parepared. Sometimes, it's easier to feel gratitude if there's a direction in which to express it. I don't believe in a human-like God who cares at all about prayers or being thanked by humans in Hebrew or any other language. But I believe it is good for us to take moments, now and then, to appreciate the incredibly long chain of events which have resulted in you and I, sitting here, eating Challah, and talking about why we pray.

9yo: Okay. It just felt weird to thank a God I don't believe in.

Me: Oh yeah. That felt weird to me for a long time too. You ask really good questions, though- and I like how you don't want to do or say things which don't make sense to you.

9yo: Someone at school told me it's bad to question God.

Me: Maybe that's what the religious tradition of their heritage teaches. In the religious tradition of our heritage, questions are not just okay, but good. You're supposed to question stuff.

9yo: Oh. So that makes me good at being Jewish?

Me: Absolutely.

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I will arise and go now, and go to Innisfree, And a small cabin build there, of clay and wattles made; Nine bean-rows will I have there, a hive for the honey-bee, And live alone in the bee-loud glade.

And I shall have some peace there, for peace comes dropping slow, Dropping from the veils of the morning to where the cricket sings; There midnight’s all a glimmer, and noon a purple glow, And evening full of the linnet’s wings.

I will arise and go now, for always night and day I hear lake water lapping with low sounds by the shore; While I stand on the roadway, or on the pavements grey, I hear it in the deep heart’s core.

The Lake Isle of Innisfree By William Butler Yeats

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Something that I get chills about is the fact that the oldest story told made by the oldest civilization opens with "In those days, in those distant days, in those ancient nights."

This confirms that there is a civilization older than the Sumerians that we have yet to find

Some people get existential dread from this

Me? I think it's fucking awesome it shows just how much of this world we have yet to discover and that is just fascinating

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Hi I got tagged by bamsara but saw this from kris's post whoop

Edit: I forgot to fucking tag mutuals @corvidmancer @smbdymiau @aughtpunk

Challenging you all!

Put your music library on shuffle, then list the first five songs that come up in a poll to let people vote for which one they like the most!

Then tag Tumblr friends to keep the game going!