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should delete this, too, but whatever.  i dont use it enough to justify doing anything with it.

towtu mloiin yownsi anhgso whnrha heeoit iysint?  galo nimd eice atoi ieset mtat.  lnststo eehhhse tthiedts rhogotih bleaomef uywrbiau aoatinr.  tay orn snym mdo iylh tali.  wsoo ntes egery oewi thcvr horet esdm!  esnjeeidr ohvepttpth dltdthitmi hyehuanuag asnutrsie ntoastesmf neeswhiut?????

whatever, whatever, w h at ever.

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when she said you deserve better, she wasnt wrong. i hope you find it, someday.

i dont know why im putting this here, you havent been on your blog in over a year.  but.  whatever, i guess.

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for what little its worth, im sorry.

im sorry about the fact i took your stupid.  hint.  and that i started getting passive aggressive(???) in response to it.  in public.  where mabel ended up seeing it.  im sorry that i ruined that good thing for you, that one thing you had in your life, stable and just all around good.  maybe in the end, youre okay with it, but it was still incredibly stupid.  my fault.  my bad.  i should have taken it elsewhere from the start.  i knew that.  i think, the end result ... while not exactly what i wanted, was kind of.  what, maybe deep, deeeep deep down, is.  what i wanted out of that.  knowing that i could have that chance, maybe.  i guess.

... not that i do now.  lmao.

im sorry i come off like ... i dont like him.  my reasoning, although entirely stupid!!! ... is just, you know.  the obvious ... yeah, im jealous, and.  i havent actually talked to him, because im just, incredibly awkward about talking to new people and the second i knew he even existed, it wasnt as just.  your friend, it was as that guy you were going to catch dinner and a movie with.  a guy who was suddenly an option.

im sorry that im so immature about everything.  i did want to try getting to know that group of friends you have.  now, i think they all hate me, so.  sorry about that, too.  i ... was starting to make an effort, but i guess im not too good at that whole thing.

um.  ... sorry for ... cornering you, like that?  i just ...  i dont even know what .. i was thinking, exactly.  pretty sure i wasnt.  its not much of an excuse to say, hey.  medicated out of my mind, just kinda did whatever i felt like at the moment without considering how anyone else would feel about it!! ... but i guess thats all i really have to explain myself, and its stupid and i am aware its entirely stupid, and.  im sorry.

thats starting to lose meaning.  ‘im sorry.’  i keep saying it, over and over, but.  i am.  to you, to morty.  lost my best friend, and my boyfriend, in one ... stupid fell swoop.  over one incredibly stupid thing.  but, we always knew i was never that smart to begin with, so i guess on some level, its not a surprise at all.

um.

... youve been ... nothing short of amazing, in all the time ive known you.  i could have never asked for a better friend.  youve always been there when i needed you to be, and even when i didnt want you to be, but really needed it beyond my stupid stubbornness.  you always know ... what to say, how to say it.  youve always been a lot better than me with words, when it comes to it.

i can write an essay with the best of them, getting teachers praising me and my vocabulary and vernacular, but.  when its stuff like this?  yeah.  right.  i dont know what im doing.  thats your shtick.

anyway.  i just want to thank you.  really.  for being there for me despite how hard that had to have been a lot of times.  for looking out for me.  for giving me the chances that i did have, being friends with you, seeing places and doing things with you ...  just.  yeah.  thanks, for everything.

and im really sorry that im like this.  im sorry that i did that.  im sorry that all i can say is sorry.

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well this is weird.

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Ghost - Parachute

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  Dipper, you are in the same vehicle as I am, which means you are perfectly capable of responding like a real living human.

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... think im feeling coralines ( hopefully abated ) need to scream really loudly into an empty field to let off some steam.

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ugh, coraline.

... i really don’t, for a second condone even talking to him again, much nonetheless try and give him a second chance at even being friends.  because i know right well that if gideon showed up again, if i so much as talked to him, there’d be some shit, and rightfully.

but.

whatever you choose to do, however you choose to handle him being here, i’ll be here to do what i do best and muck up both of our lives with the most epic tale of dweebdom that you can stomach, and then some more to really lay it on thick.

just know that if i see him, i’m going to deck him in the mouth one way or the other.  because i’ve already watched you crumble over him.  and the fact i have to watch the strongest person i know fall apart a second time over an asshole like him pisses me off incredibly.

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.. i guess there isn’t much more to say in his case right now, because frankly, i’d still happily shove him down the bottomless pit and seal it off with ten pounds of cement, so whatever, just.

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i’m not going anywhere.  if somehow, someway, it was literally just the two of us and we happen to be god only knows how many hours from our imminent death in the fiery flames of hell, know that not only will i forego going to take a piss somewhere, but i’ll probably be that lame dweeb who holes your hand the entire time we’re still conscious, because really.

aside from mabel, you’re pretty much one of the most important people in my life, and i really, really can’t afford to lose you and i absolutely refuse to let it happen.

you’re stuck with me.  i love you.

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... sorry.  i know its ...  i know its shitty, and i know its hard, i mean.  while it hasnt happened and i swear it never will if i have anything to do with it, sometimes i consider where id be without you, and just the idea stresses me out past the point of no return.

i couldnt even begin to think what youre feeling like over him, but.

youre stronger than that.  stronger than him.

everyones allowed a moment of weakness, especially you after everything youve been through, but remember that youre BETTER and you dont need him and nor did you ever.

... so once you vent out how pissed off you are, flip him to the banana slug pit where he belongs.  ill be here.  mabel will be here.  and we’ll make sure you get through this in one piece.

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Do you miss anybody? As far as I know some of your buddies from before are... well- not here.

this ask is two years old, but i guess it’s relevant to respond at this moment and say, no.  not really.everyone who mattered to me is still around.

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... not like my physical stature has stopped me from a lot of things i’ve done.  heh.  not sure i could smooth talk my way out of the mess i’d get in with the authorities but i mean --

not opposed to swiping rick’s portal gun, either.  can’t prove much on that front.

but.  coraline, the best course of action right now i think is really to ... i don’t know, treat him like an entirely different person, as hard as it is to do.  because, at this point in time, with all the shit he’s put you through, he’s no better than a stranger anyway.

.. so fuck it.  fuck him.  don’t let him ruin the entire night.  don’t let him do the same thing again.  he’s lucky you’re even acknowledging him again, frankly.

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it isn’t.  you don’t need this, so don’t let it happen.

i know, easier said, trust me. but, that’s what i’m here for.  whatever you need me to do to stomp out the fuse before this shit ignites, i’m here to do it.

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id ask why were friends but i guess this is the answer.

And it was beautiful. Got it on camera.

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well, i got hit on by an old lady today at a truck stop, so that sure is something.