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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 hours

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My part of the trade with @opens-up-4-nobody !

Silna is just trying to walk home but Goodsir stops every minutes to watch a random animal she has seen thousands of time in her life

#thank u!!!!#i love them 🖤🖤🖤🖤#ugh. the glory of arctic creatures #i bet there r awesome microbial communities up in greenland #ugh. id love to go sampling in the arctic. either for terrestrial or aquatic samples #i just love filimentous cyanobacteria sm 😭#anyway. thank u again!!!!!!!!!! :-DDDD

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opens-up-4-nobody · 17 hours

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#me: ive gotta read so fucking much by monday if i dont wanna look like a fucking idiot in my lab meeting monday #also me: if i dont draw maid sanji right fucking now im gonna puke #can u tell what my 2nd favorite shojo was in high school? many scenes still live rent free in my head #clannad was my 1st fave btw lol #also. god i kno i say this on every sanji post but i think abt him so much ever sing day #she is my absolute favorite babygirl. i hate him. i want her to suffer forever #female sanji #me in 2014: what if girl sanji? me in 2024: what if girl sanji???#vinsmoke sanji #sanji #roronoa zoro #zosan #one piece

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opens-up-4-nobody · 19 hours

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My half of an art trade with @strogoff-era :-]

#sorry it took so long 😭#just got really frustrated with life lol #the terror #amc the terror #graham gore #harry goodsir #i think i prob made the wrong choice with wooden looking cups. but like a metal cup in the acrtic sounds insane

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opens-up-4-nobody · 5 days

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honk mimimi 💤

my half of an art trade with @opens-up-4-nobody !

#YEEESSSSSSSSS!!!!!#😭😭😭#i love the way u draw kushina so so much 🖤#theyre so cute 😭 thank u 😭#reblog #not my art #i almost typed: not my mom lmao

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opens-up-4-nobody · 5 days

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about your struggles with your undergrad. i was in the same boat not a few months ago. it got so bad i went to the ER for stress-related internal injuries, i was suicidal, i was convinced i couldnt succeed in my major (or life) no matter what, i felt hopeless... please consider: before you drop out, you have to be honest with yourself and your limits. i switched from compsci to my true passion and its very freeing. your advisor is there to help you. im sure they can help you like they helped me. also look for support from family/friends at this time. (i know its tough. again i was convinced id be better off dead so it was hard to ask for help BUT IM SO GLAD I DID.) instead of quitting, try changing your goals. btw, its never too late to change ur major. i changed 3 years in. better to swap now than live a lifetime, as you said, of stress and difficulty. future you will be so grateful. and past you will be soooo jealous. don't give up!! you've made it this far, you've got the skills! if you don't have the passion or patience to withstand a certain subject, then change it!! its so much easier than you think!! sorry for word wall. i believe in you. it gets better. good luck. and etc :)

Thanks, I wish you the best of luck :-) it is, however, a little more complicated bc im considering dropping out of a phd program and not undergrad

#im already post full breakdown (back in april) and now im stuck in indecision abt staying or leaving #but bc its a phd i cant just switch majors bc i specifically came to this school for this advisor to do a project in this lab #and im a year in so like it feels too late to change my project. which i would like to do. and i mean i could #probably manipulate into the project i want by doing eps stuff. but i just downt really wanna do chlorophyll things #and i dont wanna totally change what im doing bc i really like being a microbiologist and i looove algae #i just wanna do all lab work :-/ not that i wouldnt love to b a marine biologist focused on algae or a geologist or botanist or #paleontologist. but im not gonna spend a million dollars to get a 3rd degree that would require a 4th degree to do anything with. if nothing #else. i would work for a couple years as a microbiologist out in the real world and then go back to do a phd if i reall really wanted #bc im still young. but not that young. so ive still got time #unrelated

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opens-up-4-nobody · 6 days

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#ay. tomorrow might b the day i face the music #which is to say. i tell my advisor how fucked i am. i mean. ill spin it so it doesn't sound so bad #its just that ive told him like 2 weeks in a row that id send him my edited preproposal and i have not bc im too afraid to start reading #papers related to my project. which is frustrating. and like the thing is. and i kno ive said it before and i kno im not a fucking idiot #i can read papers and i can even understand what theyre broadly saying. but thats it.#zero critical thinking. zero insight. i use all my tiny fucking brain space to try to understand the words on the pages #and even then it only forms this broken fucking image of whats being said. like u dont understand. i used to struggle with writing papers bc #i couldnt fucking connect what i was saying from one paragraph to the next when i was the one doing the fucking writing.#what the fuck am i doing here? and again. im not stupid. i can follow the information if its fucking said out loud but thats not how this #works. and it just feels like sometimes there's a limit to what you're capable of and im at that fucking limit. the undergrads in my lab #have more ability to comment on papers than i do. its so fucking frustrating and i just have to live with knowing itll never get any easier #so what the fuck can i do other than drop out? theres no god damn way im gonna pass a comprehensive exam. not unless i buckel down and break #myself in half to try to retain all the information i need to. which requires that i read so many god damn papers that i cant fucking read.#just. why tf did i pick a career path where my suffering is inherent to a huge part of my job? i feel like ive consistently chosen to take #the hard path in life and ive finally stumbled too far from what is possible for me #so well see what comes out of my mouth tomorrow when i have my weekly meeting. i just feel like its my last semester #i feel like this is it. i just need someone to fucking hire me. bc everytime my lab mate mentions something abt #my project down the line or talks abt future conferences i should attend. im just like. its a nice idea but that's not happening. im just #at the end of the line and it sucks #unrelated

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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 days

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Thoughts on baby sasunaru, like academy days where Sasuke realizes ‘shoot, I like this idiot’ after Naruto is carried into the class room laughing by disheveled ANBU who had to chase him around the town for 3 hours.