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You're a sweetheart. I love you so much and look forward to building our life and family together.

There is nothing like seeing the woman you are going to marry holding a new born baby that makes you want to have one of your own

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I remember that gazebo. I remember you. I remember that street light, And the corners you took me too.

I remember all our kisses. I remember our first goodbyes. I remember being speechless, When you first looked me in the eyes.

I remember the first theme park. I remember hands on hips. I remember avoiding eye contact, As your kisses found my lips.

It’s not like me to remember, Often-times I forget. But all these things I treasure, So thank you! thank you! thank you! For all these things that are now set.

Please remember that I love you. Please remember I’m always here. Please let me be the one to Give you memories you’ll hold dear.

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I would very much like to dissolve into bedsheets with you.

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There are days I feel feisty I want to rip your clothes off Leave them scattered where they fall Leave scratches all up and down Your thighs, chest, shoulders I want to make you beg I want to hear you say my name With your guttural voice Reverberating through the rocking Of my hips...

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Hehehehe, awwwww. I wasn't happier that way at all. Thank you for backing off when I asked, though. It proved to me that you cared about me and weren't just looking for a good time. You're wonderful, and I love all your pet names and affection hehehe thank you

Dear Habibi,

Lets continue shall we after we told each other we liked one another I went into my loving u mode, I called u pet names like baby, princess, and constantly told you how beautiful you truly are. Things were going great on my end but much to my dismay the feelings appears to differ...

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I'm trying really hard not to cry in front of my mom because this is so sweet and cute and makes me really happy, giggles can't be helped so hopefully she doesn't ask hehehehe. Thank you so much. Those first weeks and this conversation are some of my favorite memories. Thanks for asking... XOXOXXX

Dear Habibi,

Now that I had your number we were texting constantly, I told you everything and didn’t hide anything. I was an open book an answers every question you ask with full honesty. The only time I don’t text you was when I was at work, you knew more about me then my entire family combined....

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Dear Oppa: my only regrets

Dear Oppa, The only reason I regret the factor started dating when I was so young is because I was too immature and naive to appreciate your extravagance while you had the energy and time to be dramatic. I wish I had said yes everytime you offered to drive an hour or more to see me 3mins or to just be in my neighborhood. I wish I wouldn't have told you to act chill around SOME of our friends so that they weren't uncomfortable. We should've danced and hugged and kissed all we wanted. I wish I had accepted all your offers to confront people that were mean to me. I wish I had been as excited then as I am now when you wanted to dance in public and pick me up. I wish I hadn't been afraid of how much I loved you, and secretive about how much you loved me. I don't want chances to go away. I'm really sorry I was not very wise. I love you. All my love and forgivable regrets, Habibi

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This made me really really happy and I giggled a lot in the middle of the night when I should be sleeping. **} thank you very much hehehehe

Dear Habibi,

To start this off let me say I love you with all my heart, far more then anyone and anything other than Jesus. About a month ago you posted a beautiful count down of your favorite memories and had me in tears of joy, now it’s my turn to tell them from my point of view.

Lets start,

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Dear Oppa: Memory Countdown... 1

Dear Oppa,

We've gone on cute dates to the beach where we rolled around in the sand then brushed it off of each other...

We've spent hours being cute in Disneyland, singing songs and making inside jokes, with you making me giggle by using your incredible arm strength to spin the tea cups... 

We've gone night swimming in the pool which we established is really hot...

We've had cute dates at Olive Gardens where people offer us alcohol and we joke about accepting it... 

We've blown the minds of people at proms as the couple that dances most fearlessly...

We've fought and kissed it better...

We've stood up to each other's families despite the odds of both our fathers...

We've proven high school romances can last... 

You've wooed me with your Lebanese language and accent...

You've told me I'm not crazy when other people had me convinced me otherwise.... 

You've been beside me while teachers and professors challenge me... 

You've kissed all the booboos better... 

You've held my hand in front of your friends that questioned your decision to go out with the nerdy sophomore daughter of a pastor, it didn't take much more than their facial expressions to catch that... 

You've bragged on me to everyone even though I don't deserve any of it...

You've forgiven me...

You've helped heal me...

You continue to make me laugh more than anyone else I know..

Your arms are the place I consider home.

Your voice makes me feel safe and sure. 

Your eyes dance with mine, no matter where we are.

You're the reason I work hard, I want to deserve you.

Everything about you treats me like a princess, makes me feel beautiful, makes all my dreams come true, and gives me better dreams for the future. 

Thank you, thank you, thank you... Thank you for loving me and staying with me and not giving up and for never treating me worse even after I make mistakes.

I love you so much and miss you and want to be with you.  

I need you. 

All my love, life, and relational experiences, 

Habibi

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Dear Oppa: Memory Countdown.... 2

Dear Oppa,

So many memories, so little time. Which ones to choose O_O

Okay so remember that time we got in huge trouble with my parents and I thought they were gonna force us to break up because of the phone calls at night, even though they were free and we asleep half the time. 

Yeah, regrettable.

BUT

worth remembering.

BECAUSE

It was like... the ultimate sign you really loved me and weren't ever going to give up on me. 

You had to sit there and look my dad in the eye, while he explained the new ground rules for you seeing me. 

I'm not blind. My dad is terrifying. But you kept your cool, you held his gaze, and respectfully replied "Yes,sir.". 

Oh, my man.... I fell so much deeper in love with you that day...

Thank you for not giving up. Thank you for not running away from my dad over the years. Thank you for telling me how amazing he is even though you've NEVER seen him at his nicest. 

I'm so incredibly proud of you, and proud to be yours.

All my love,

Habibi

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I KNOW MY COUNTDOWN POSTS AREN'T DONE BUT I'M SORRY IT'S HARD TO TYPE FAST WHEN EVERYONE KEEPS COMING AROUND I'M TRYING THESE ARE LONG OKAY BUT THE POINT IS THAT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND YOU'RE MY MIRACLE HAPPY THREE YEAR ANNIVERSARY

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Dear Oppa: Memory Countdown.... 3

Dear Oppa,

The timeline's over... but we're not done. Memories definitely don't consist solely of before you asked me out. They got so much better... However, there are hundreds of those... and I'll need more time to cover them. This countdown will only have two or three. I haven't made a decision yet. 

One of my favorite during-legit-relationship-memories is that time we went to Knott's with Momma C, and it's so sad that this is my favorite but it made me feel like really really yours. You were sick. You had a high fever, and you had been silly enough to just chug dayquil to try and solve it. I didn't have time to stop you, by the time I got in the car you'd already done it. 

We were line dancing (which btw you're the only man alive that makes that look hot, well done. I'm so impressed with you constantly)... but you started looking...odd. Your eyes glazed over and you were sweating so much and you kept drinking water and you looked dazed. Finally you told Mom that we needed a break, and we snuck around the back and sat down. 

My woman instincts were kicking in, man. 

I kissed your forehead. It was BURNING... you got dizzy pretty fast. I was so stinking worried man you caused me so much anxiety I was freaking out I had no idea how much dayquil you had already drank and now you were basically passing out.... ahhhhh!

I sat down and had you lay down next to me on the steps we found. I put your head in my lap and kept kissing it soft and playing with your hair. 

Within two minutes you were fast asleep, I was a liiiiitle relieved. 

For an hour and a half I sat there kissing your head, playing with your hair, and holding eye contact with every security guy and employee that strolled by. Let them try to tell me we had to get up. My man wasn't feeling well and needed sleep. He was gonna get it. 

I think they got the message... You slept, and by the time you woke up your eyes were a bit clearer, your fever had dropped noticeably, and you could see straight... I COULD FINALLY BREATHE...

This one's one of my favorites because I remember how awesome it was being the protective one for the first time. I felt like maybe I was inching towards being as wonderful to you as you always are to me... you always protect me and take care of me. Even when I'm not sick. You truly are the most amazing boyfriend. 

All my love and protection to offer,

Habibi

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Dear Oppa: Memory Countdown.... 4

Dear Oppa,

I'm so sorry this has taken so long... Our schedules are whacking each-other out though. 

We were progressing well, right? We confessed feelings. You asked me to prom. First date was incredible... 

The next night we were doing that thing that highschoolers do and it was like texting things that we hadn't told eachother yet or, preferably, hadn't told anyone else either. 

I wrestled with all sorts of things. Didn't want to scare you off, but I really wanted to be open to you...which was odd for me. 

I finally sent one that seemed to be nice middle ground. "I've only ever kissed one person, until yesterday..."

Your response CRACKED ME UP.

"What? Why???" 

Typical guy. ;) Didn't think at all about how that would come across. 

I told you the truth. Kissing made me nervous because I didn't know how and the last one had been so embarrassing I wasn't in a hurry, not to mention I reserved it for special people. This made you apologize to which I bluntly told you (the way I did everything else) I wouldn't have done it if I didn't want to. You  were special. 

One thing led to another and you ended up asking, "So, what do you think would be a cute place for a guy to ask a girl to be his girlfriend?"

I had no idea what to say. No, really. I drew a blank. I was overwhelmed with this hopeful feeling that you were thinking about asking me, but trying to keep my hopes down to avoid heartbreak, AND I really just had no idea. So I told you that. How was I supposed to know? I'd never done it. Plus it would depend on the people, how you wanted to ask, etc. Finally I said maybe Disneyland.

You sort of said, "okay cool no biggie it was just a question..."

Always getting your hopes too high, Gabriena. He's not asking you. It's a question. A NORMAL question to ask during these sorts of conversations.. 

I beat myself up a lot during our first few months, btw. Also I'm sitting on the toilet right now because April and Nathan are in my room but I'm running out of time so I have to write this. 

A few days later you asked me to hang out with you at DtD... I didn't realize this was a super important thing, and our friend Cal wanted to come, so me being me I said "sure!".. you looked so flustered for a whole millisecond. You stumbled around and asked what time I was getting there, if I could get there earlier, no that wasn't early enough, could we just get at least an hour alone..?

It was cute. ^-^

I got to DownTownDisney and we talked and walked around. I asked what you wanted to do and you said you wanted to show me something. You took me down this pretty garden, stream, bridge path thing... We started going down stairs. We were in a cave. Behind a waterfall. It was like the only thing in DtD that I didn't know existed. I was already baffled. 

Then you were really cute and pulled me into your arms and kissed my forehead then said "What would you say if I asked youuuu to be my girlfriend?" 

I giggled and said "I'd smile and kiss you and then say yes". 

It was so adorable you got all surprised and gave this big sigh of relief and said "Oh, yay... will you be my girlfriend?"

I kept my promise ;) 

That was the best day of my life and I made the wisest decision I could have.

Thank you for being mine and staying with me and not giving up on me. I need you and can't live without you. 

All my love, yes's, kisses, and holds behind the waterfalls,

Habibi

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Dear Oppa: The Memory countdown... 7,6, 5....

Dear Oppa, 

Sorry I'm late. Spring break can't last forever. She said as she cried into her math book....   

But anyway.. where was I?... hm. Oh! Yes! I told you to back off, then begged you to come back on. And so you did. and it was oh so cute and wonderful. And we went to a movie and you made your first romantic move, little did I know, that was only an introduction. 

Then you asked me to Disneyland for our first date, and I knew you were the one for me... 

This date answered those last few questions I had that were key to knowing if we could be the real deal. It proved you were incredibly romantic, strategic, and respectful. You invited other people so that I wouldn't be uncomfortable but strategy #1 you told them to come a little later. This gave us just enough time alone for you to figure out just how into you I was. I dunno about you, but I thought my shoving my hand into yours was a pretty self explanatory explanation as to how serious I meant the words "I like you.". 

I was so nervous you have no idea I was all "ohmygosh he's going to hate me when we're alone. I'm not funny if there aren't crowds to be funny for. I'm shy and weird and he's going to wonder how on earth I ever fit in anywhere in the drama circle." 

My confidence in myself had been shattered by my last "date" at Disneyland, where the guy blatantly told me I was boring and then refused to talk to me after that.... Are you a doctor? Because you sure mend wounds ;)

Thirty minutes into the day, I found myself laughing and feeling safe under your arm, which you so smoothly wrapped around my shoulders while we walked. While we stood in lines you sang all these cute songs quietly in my ear, like "1234" and "Hanging by a Moment" and "Mario Kart Love Song"... Baby boy, you can sing.. I still have a playlist saved on my computer of all the songs you sang that day... 

But, as I would later come to discover is normal for you, convincing me that I was important to you wasn't enough. You wanted to convince me in front of the world.  The Tomorrow Land future technology something rather building had Garage Band front and center with a stage and giant TV in on of the rooms. You went up to the microphone and told everyone in the room that you were dedicating this song to "that girl hiding in the corner", then you proceeded to point me out, and I was indeed hiding in the corner. what can I say? you left my side. I can't face humanity alone.  Then you sang "Check Yes Juliet" with your voice that commands the attention of legions if you so desire. 

I think I cried. Knowing me, of course I did. How could I not cry? This stuff was better than a romantic comedy man. I didn't even have to embarass myself. 

The cuteness didn't end there. How could it? I was with you :D we got in line for... I want to say Indie because I'm seeing a dark cave in my memory movie... you and your mom (yes, your mom arrived I want to say shortly after the incredible CheckYesJuliet scene :']) started dancing in line... I didn't dance in those days. The only dancing I did was with Nathan in the kitchen. That was it. No audiences. Ever. That was forbidden, personally, by me. So, I was growing increasingly uncomfortable which just made you laugh and smile at me more, until finally you really just grabbed my hands and started slow dancing with me in front of the whole universe including your mother and I could smell your cologne and was getting intoxicated by the whole circumstance and kept asking you if this was going to bug your mom and you looked at me with your big, safe, calming, dancing, blue eyes and said no. 

YOU WERE JUST SO SWEET AND ROMANTIC AND BOLD WHAT DO I EVEN DO?!?!?! 

Look, I'm about to burst to tears right now in my bed at 3am just because I'm remembering all of this and it's too much in so many good ways.... 

Story's not over, but we're close.

We went back to the tomorrow center thingy because your mom being the fun cool person she is wanted to play Garage Band too, but this time you stayed with me and I was so glad because once I was in your arms I never really wanted to leave. You just smelled so good and you're shockingly strong and I can feel your muscles when you hold me yet you're still comfortable and really it's just... paradise. 

You started kissing my forehead. which is like every girls daydream if you didn't know, forehead kissing.

Have I ever told you what an elegant kisser you are? You kiss so gently that i never feel like you're forcing me to like take the kiss, it's more of my skin is begging and your lips gravitate toward it if it calls. But they're not weak kisses either. It's as if once your lips know they're wanted, they swoop in to rescue my skin, whether it be my forehead or my own lips, from their cold, sad, loneliness. Your kisses are strong and safe and sweet and loving and... le sigh, I should stop while I'm ahead 

These are the kind of kisses you were giving my forehead, but I noticed something. strategy #2 Your lips were moving lower... down my face.... I didn't think much of it til they were on my cheek bone... and suddenly in the sunken area of my cheek. Then all of a sudden.... I realized.

I had a decision to make.

In less than a second I had to make the toughest decision of my life. I knew that if I really didn't want to risk that so soon, all I had to do was turn my head casually less than an inch. You were a good guy, you'd take it in stride... but I didn't want that. 

I did turn my head... towards you. And tilted up ever so slightly.  If ever a first kiss has actually mimicked the beauty and the beast on the balcony moment, ours did. Everything I doubted about you, whether it was my own feelings about you, or my doubts that you actually gave a flying flip I existed, or my concerns that this was an immature and stupid decision on both sides, all of it was gone in a flash. Nothing needed said, all you did was smile at me. 

Thank you for bringing the fairy tales to life. 

All my love, kisses, smiles, trust, and unwritten fairy tales,

Habibi

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Dear Oppa: The Memory countdown... 8

Dear Oppa,

This is short but it’s by far one of my favorites.

We went to see the new “Alice in Wonderland Movie” with Lexa and…Jimmy? There was another male there that I don’t remember I just know he sat with you. XD

It was our first like real hang out outside of school together, and I was this unique combination if really excited and really nervous and acting like I was 13 or something. And it made me get all red in the face which made me increasingly uncomfortable so then I got sweaty and omg ew look how sweet you are you stayed with me

So we got to the theater and sat in our seats and Lexa and me being us we decided to like lay down since the theater was empty. She laid on me then you told me I could lean on you…. it was more like lean in you… You full on embraced me with your incredibly strong, safe, and sure arms like I was a teddy bear or some sort of treasure box that had to be guarded… and oh how I loved it

BUT IT GOT BETTER

Ever so softly, slowly, gently, and gradually throughout the movie, you lifted my hand towards your face and you kisses it… First you just kissed the back.. then the palm.. Then the knuckles.. And then you kissed all of my fingertips, individually. You were so gentle and loving about it that I simply couldn't argue. If I tried to resist, it would have been immoral. I couldn’t breathe.. You literally took my breath away. Guys had flirted with me for years, not just verbally, often physically. But I had never ever before experienced someone being so smooth

Thus began my true taste of physical attraction toward a male… How sweet it is to be loved by you…

All my love, daydreams, and happy sighs,

Habibi

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Dear Oppa: Memory countdown... 9

Dear Oppa,

There’s this other conversation that happened a little after the phone number explosion of love and happiness. Everything weird and uncomfortable we ever said to eachother in the first 2 months of our relationship was through text….

Remember that time you called me baby?

Yeah, okay. I sat in my room rolling around on the floor with my dog giggling because it was so stinking cute and I’d been called lots of cute things before but that was not one of them and I knew better than to tell anyone because you hadn’t technically asked me out yet but you were already calling me baby and I knew weird people in the world would think that was some bad sign but I didn’t care because it made me feel so stinkin pretty and important and then you said “love you” when we said goodnight once and I just totally lost control and squealed and said “hehe love you too” and then you panicked because you thought it would upset me and you were like “oh sorry if that bothered you I say love you to all my friends sorta out of habit” and then I was all “it’s all good I do the same thing” and *BREATH*…. wow that was a lot. My point is that so many cute and wonderful and new and romantic things were happening like all within the span of a week…

A week… and this is where my goody-two-shoes, watch your back, never trust your feelings or males because that’s what daddy says, instincts kicked in. Oh my gosh. Look at all the cute sweet flirty things he’s saying. What if he asks me out. I HARDLY KNOW HIM… AM I EVEN ALOUD TO DATE?!?!?! HE’LL THINK I LED HIM ON AND HATE ME…

To the dismay of my heart and emotions and giggle-meter, I knew what I had to do… I had to see if you were capable of backing off. If you would still enjoy my existence even if I didn’t want a relationship. If you were willing to wait out my weird 16 year old girl phases of uncomfortableisms. If I was worth it…. and I was so scared of your response.

At this point I had been viciously rejected by 2 of the guys I trusted most, but I came out fine… There was a different feeling with you. It mattered more with you. I was going to be much less fine if you didn’t find value in the simplicity of my existence.

I told you to back off. I sat there at the computer,doing homework and teary-eyed sent the text in a panic of “I have to tell him now, incase I change my mind. I can’t lead him on.” I told you things were moving too fast for me. I told you I thought I did like you, but I wasn’t sure because we hardly knew each other…

You said you were sorry and acted really chill about it... For an hour. Then for a week you responded to my texts with two word sentences, never texted me first, and completely stopped flirting even at school.... I freaked the f**** out.

After that week of growing increasingly sad, depressed, and uncomfortable, I realized I had to talk to you about it... you were my prom date for Pete's sake and we were rapidly running out of time... I Finally broke down and texted you this big old apology about how I didn't mean to make you mad and yada yada yada...

Your response was really cute...

"I'm not mad, I'm just trying to do what you asked me to. If you want me to stop just say so, it's not like I'm enjoying it. But I really don't want you uncomfortable."

That's it! Call the preacher and dig up the dowry. HE'S NOT GETTING AWAY

All my love, trust, and admiration,

Habibi

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Dear Oppa: Memory countdown... 10

Dear Oppa,

In a whirlwind of a few days of texting and walking to the cafe after classes together, things got even cuter. Who knew this could all happen within a week? We're ridiculous, I just hope you know. We're like those crazy stories of couples that meet once then get married the next day and literally last their whole lives together in love. 

All a sudden, prom tickets were on sale. Everyone was talking about it... including you... 

I remember you asking me at school if I was going, I said no. You looked confused and asked why. I told you straight up that I was a sophomore with no date. There was no point in my going. Not to mention prom was in about three weeks and I was not at all prepared... I had to go home right after that.

It took about an hour for you to text me. I'll be honest. I don't remember exactly what you said as you danced around the bush (which breaks my heart, btw. I should have wrote it down :( ) But I know I have a vague memory telling my mom "he's basically asking so if he actually does, what on earth do I say???" I also know whatever the banter was it went on for multiple hours, because my mom successfully completed this large meal preparation. At some point, however, you did finally ask. I wanted to find you and squeeze you and grab your face and kiss you. I mean let's face it, the most popular guy in class totally did just ask the nerdy shy girl who's only friend was the guy everyone hated to prom... But even though I might've been madly in love with you, I didn't know you and I didn't want to be stupid. For better or worse, Brandon was the only person I trusted. So I asked him if it was okay to go to prom with you XD 

My favorite part about this entanglement of weirdness? He said Do it.  He bragged and bragged on how I couldn't find a better date, I'd be perfectly safe, have tons of fun, and even have a guy that actually cared. 

I probably looked pregnant because, baby, I was glowing. 

FINALLY I responded to your text and said yes, two days later I showed up to class and all the boys were saying "congratulations!" while all the girls were talking about how I was some sort of slut. X) oh the good old days. 

I love you and I'm perfectly fine with making all the women in the universe jealous by being incredibly selfish with you forever. 

All my love, dances, and rushed decisions, 

Habibi