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Happy birthday Jungkook!

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Dear Oppa: Memory Countdown... 1

Dear Oppa,

We've gone on cute dates to the beach where we rolled around in the sand then brushed it off of each other...

We've spent hours being cute in Disneyland, singing songs and making inside jokes, with you making me giggle by using your incredible arm strength to spin the tea cups... 

We've gone night swimming in the pool which we established is really hot...

We've had cute dates at Olive Gardens where people offer us alcohol and we joke about accepting it... 

We've blown the minds of people at proms as the couple that dances most fearlessly...

We've fought and kissed it better...

We've stood up to each other's families despite the odds of both our fathers...

We've proven high school romances can last... 

You've wooed me with your Lebanese language and accent...

You've told me I'm not crazy when other people had me convinced me otherwise.... 

You've been beside me while teachers and professors challenge me... 

You've kissed all the booboos better... 

You've held my hand in front of your friends that questioned your decision to go out with the nerdy sophomore daughter of a pastor, it didn't take much more than their facial expressions to catch that... 

You've bragged on me to everyone even though I don't deserve any of it...

You've forgiven me...

You've helped heal me...

You continue to make me laugh more than anyone else I know..

Your arms are the place I consider home.

Your voice makes me feel safe and sure. 

Your eyes dance with mine, no matter where we are.

You're the reason I work hard, I want to deserve you.

Everything about you treats me like a princess, makes me feel beautiful, makes all my dreams come true, and gives me better dreams for the future. 

Thank you, thank you, thank you... Thank you for loving me and staying with me and not giving up and for never treating me worse even after I make mistakes.

I love you so much and miss you and want to be with you.  

I need you. 

All my love, life, and relational experiences, 

Habibi

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[sospiriesogni]

Leelah.

I can understand everything.

I was the first to bow my head in HER honor. I was the first to appreciate some initiatives that you all had, like paint a nail in pink.

Leelah, our angel, was a person. With feelings.

That commited suicide for some reasons, reasons that we all know. We cannot understand it till the end, do we?

Even if we have our problems, if we were thinking about suicide more and more times.

I SUPPORT Leelah, transgenders and every people that is fighting for his or hers rights.

But I can't support someone that now is SELLING bracalets. This person is gaining money on a death.

So that's what we're doing now?

I would understand If it was a lgbt community that tries to collect so some money to have more founds to make their messagge more visible, but not a stranger that tries to take profit by this that, this act of hope in a better future for transgenders and others.

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Dear Oppa: Memory Countdown.... 4

Dear Oppa,

I'm so sorry this has taken so long... Our schedules are whacking each-other out though. 

We were progressing well, right? We confessed feelings. You asked me to prom. First date was incredible... 

The next night we were doing that thing that highschoolers do and it was like texting things that we hadn't told eachother yet or, preferably, hadn't told anyone else either. 

I wrestled with all sorts of things. Didn't want to scare you off, but I really wanted to be open to you...which was odd for me. 

I finally sent one that seemed to be nice middle ground. "I've only ever kissed one person, until yesterday..."

Your response CRACKED ME UP.

"What? Why???" 

Typical guy. ;) Didn't think at all about how that would come across. 

I told you the truth. Kissing made me nervous because I didn't know how and the last one had been so embarrassing I wasn't in a hurry, not to mention I reserved it for special people. This made you apologize to which I bluntly told you (the way I did everything else) I wouldn't have done it if I didn't want to. You  were special. 

One thing led to another and you ended up asking, "So, what do you think would be a cute place for a guy to ask a girl to be his girlfriend?"

I had no idea what to say. No, really. I drew a blank. I was overwhelmed with this hopeful feeling that you were thinking about asking me, but trying to keep my hopes down to avoid heartbreak, AND I really just had no idea. So I told you that. How was I supposed to know? I'd never done it. Plus it would depend on the people, how you wanted to ask, etc. Finally I said maybe Disneyland.

You sort of said, "okay cool no biggie it was just a question..."

Always getting your hopes too high, Gabriena. He's not asking you. It's a question. A NORMAL question to ask during these sorts of conversations.. 

I beat myself up a lot during our first few months, btw. Also I'm sitting on the toilet right now because April and Nathan are in my room but I'm running out of time so I have to write this. 

A few days later you asked me to hang out with you at DtD... I didn't realize this was a super important thing, and our friend Cal wanted to come, so me being me I said "sure!".. you looked so flustered for a whole millisecond. You stumbled around and asked what time I was getting there, if I could get there earlier, no that wasn't early enough, could we just get at least an hour alone..?

It was cute. ^-^

I got to DownTownDisney and we talked and walked around. I asked what you wanted to do and you said you wanted to show me something. You took me down this pretty garden, stream, bridge path thing... We started going down stairs. We were in a cave. Behind a waterfall. It was like the only thing in DtD that I didn't know existed. I was already baffled. 

Then you were really cute and pulled me into your arms and kissed my forehead then said "What would you say if I asked youuuu to be my girlfriend?" 

I giggled and said "I'd smile and kiss you and then say yes". 

It was so adorable you got all surprised and gave this big sigh of relief and said "Oh, yay... will you be my girlfriend?"

I kept my promise ;) 

That was the best day of my life and I made the wisest decision I could have.

Thank you for being mine and staying with me and not giving up on me. I need you and can't live without you. 

All my love, yes's, kisses, and holds behind the waterfalls,

Habibi

[esperanzaramirez]

what happen to our "forever" you promise, we would be forever where did it go wrong, babe what happen to "us" i miss our beautiful forever, i miss us

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Dear Oppa: The Memory countdown... 7,6, 5....

Dear Oppa, 

Sorry I'm late. Spring break can't last forever. She said as she cried into her math book....   

But anyway.. where was I?... hm. Oh! Yes! I told you to back off, then begged you to come back on. And so you did. and it was oh so cute and wonderful. And we went to a movie and you made your first romantic move, little did I know, that was only an introduction. 

Then you asked me to Disneyland for our first date, and I knew you were the one for me... 

This date answered those last few questions I had that were key to knowing if we could be the real deal. It proved you were incredibly romantic, strategic, and respectful. You invited other people so that I wouldn't be uncomfortable but strategy #1 you told them to come a little later. This gave us just enough time alone for you to figure out just how into you I was. I dunno about you, but I thought my shoving my hand into yours was a pretty self explanatory explanation as to how serious I meant the words "I like you.". 

I was so nervous you have no idea I was all "ohmygosh he's going to hate me when we're alone. I'm not funny if there aren't crowds to be funny for. I'm shy and weird and he's going to wonder how on earth I ever fit in anywhere in the drama circle." 

My confidence in myself had been shattered by my last "date" at Disneyland, where the guy blatantly told me I was boring and then refused to talk to me after that.... Are you a doctor? Because you sure mend wounds ;)

Thirty minutes into the day, I found myself laughing and feeling safe under your arm, which you so smoothly wrapped around my shoulders while we walked. While we stood in lines you sang all these cute songs quietly in my ear, like "1234" and "Hanging by a Moment" and "Mario Kart Love Song"... Baby boy, you can sing.. I still have a playlist saved on my computer of all the songs you sang that day... 

But, as I would later come to discover is normal for you, convincing me that I was important to you wasn't enough. You wanted to convince me in front of the world.  The Tomorrow Land future technology something rather building had Garage Band front and center with a stage and giant TV in on of the rooms. You went up to the microphone and told everyone in the room that you were dedicating this song to "that girl hiding in the corner", then you proceeded to point me out, and I was indeed hiding in the corner. what can I say? you left my side. I can't face humanity alone.  Then you sang "Check Yes Juliet" with your voice that commands the attention of legions if you so desire. 

I think I cried. Knowing me, of course I did. How could I not cry? This stuff was better than a romantic comedy man. I didn't even have to embarass myself. 

The cuteness didn't end there. How could it? I was with you :D we got in line for... I want to say Indie because I'm seeing a dark cave in my memory movie... you and your mom (yes, your mom arrived I want to say shortly after the incredible CheckYesJuliet scene :']) started dancing in line... I didn't dance in those days. The only dancing I did was with Nathan in the kitchen. That was it. No audiences. Ever. That was forbidden, personally, by me. So, I was growing increasingly uncomfortable which just made you laugh and smile at me more, until finally you really just grabbed my hands and started slow dancing with me in front of the whole universe including your mother and I could smell your cologne and was getting intoxicated by the whole circumstance and kept asking you if this was going to bug your mom and you looked at me with your big, safe, calming, dancing, blue eyes and said no. 

YOU WERE JUST SO SWEET AND ROMANTIC AND BOLD WHAT DO I EVEN DO?!?!?! 

Look, I'm about to burst to tears right now in my bed at 3am just because I'm remembering all of this and it's too much in so many good ways.... 

Story's not over, but we're close.

We went back to the tomorrow center thingy because your mom being the fun cool person she is wanted to play Garage Band too, but this time you stayed with me and I was so glad because once I was in your arms I never really wanted to leave. You just smelled so good and you're shockingly strong and I can feel your muscles when you hold me yet you're still comfortable and really it's just... paradise. 

You started kissing my forehead. which is like every girls daydream if you didn't know, forehead kissing.

Have I ever told you what an elegant kisser you are? You kiss so gently that i never feel like you're forcing me to like take the kiss, it's more of my skin is begging and your lips gravitate toward it if it calls. But they're not weak kisses either. It's as if once your lips know they're wanted, they swoop in to rescue my skin, whether it be my forehead or my own lips, from their cold, sad, loneliness. Your kisses are strong and safe and sweet and loving and... le sigh, I should stop while I'm ahead 

These are the kind of kisses you were giving my forehead, but I noticed something. strategy #2 Your lips were moving lower... down my face.... I didn't think much of it til they were on my cheek bone... and suddenly in the sunken area of my cheek. Then all of a sudden.... I realized.

I had a decision to make.

In less than a second I had to make the toughest decision of my life. I knew that if I really didn't want to risk that so soon, all I had to do was turn my head casually less than an inch. You were a good guy, you'd take it in stride... but I didn't want that. 

I did turn my head... towards you. And tilted up ever so slightly.  If ever a first kiss has actually mimicked the beauty and the beast on the balcony moment, ours did. Everything I doubted about you, whether it was my own feelings about you, or my doubts that you actually gave a flying flip I existed, or my concerns that this was an immature and stupid decision on both sides, all of it was gone in a flash. Nothing needed said, all you did was smile at me. 

Thank you for bringing the fairy tales to life. 

All my love, kisses, smiles, trust, and unwritten fairy tales,

Habibi

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Dear Oppa: The Memory Countdown... 11

Dear Oppa,

Where was I? Yes, indeed, phone numbers...

I didn't think I could get butterflies from talking about waffles. But hey, you were talking about them. You were making me laugh and You were.. asking who I was interested in class?!?!  

It wasn't unusual for me to take long walks to the park down the street at night, so when the charmingly silly young man that had caught my eye started asking personal questions, I told mom I was slipping outside for a while... I still remember which route I took, it was the high street not the gutter. Oh how I wrestled with what to tell you. And how I've never forgotten what you said.... 

"do you like anyone in class?"

"I don't think that's any of your business"

"Come on I'm just curious"

"Why?"

"Just cuz"

"Lol.."

"Why won't you tell me?"

"If I tell you, you might tell them or laugh at me"

"No I won't I promise"

"You first"

"I like two people. One of them I might have a chance with, one of them I definitely don't. Now you."

"Same.... I might like two guys, I don't exactly know for sure. But yeah, one of them might likes me back. The other there's no way he'd go out with me."

"Who is it"

"I'm not telling you!"

"Come on, if you tell me I can tell you whether or not he likes you"

"No thank you"

"Is it Brandon"

"No. LOL. Well, Brandon's the one that might like me, but I'm not sure if I even like him at all. He's more like a brother and he's really annoying sometimes."

"Oh"

"Yeah...."

boy... you had balls

...."is it me"

I panicked...   I didn't want to tell you, I didn't want to be rejected. But if there was ANY hope at all for me being one of those girls, I had to act fast. Because, if I lied now, there'd be no eating back those words. You'd  think I wasn't interested, and go for whoever the "other" girl was.... 

"maybe... yeah."  

"omg awwww"

wtf?!?! awww?!?!?! GREAT HE THINKS I'M LIKE SEVEN AND THIS IS CUTE OR SOMETHING NEXT THING YOU KNOW HE'LL BE PATTING ME ON MY HEAD AND GIVING THAT AWKWARD SPEECH PPL GIVE WHEN YOU'RE TOO YOUNG FOR THEM BUT IT'S JUST SO CUTE

"um I'm glad that didn't upset you?..."

"why would it upset me?"

"idk??? some people act weird after that...."

"well I could I guess but that would b wrd since I like you too"

DON'T SCREAM. DON'T CRY. WHAT IF HE'S JOKING. THIS COULD BE SOME SICK CRUEL SENIOR JOKE..... BUT IF IT'S NOT OHMYGOSHKFSL;AFSIDFJA;WLEKJFA;WOIEFJA;SLDFJ

"you do...?"

"You're the girl I thought I had no chance with...." 

There are a lot of things girls don't forget, like story books coming true before their eyes. Those fictional boys that had me convinced I was going to marry a book, suddenly came to life all wrapped up in one person. You.

I stood at the top of the street. Looking over the field and smiling at the stars in the cool March night air. And knowing me, I probably cried. Tears of joy. Like I am now. 

Thank you.

All my love, first times, and happy kind of frustrations,

Habibi

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Dear Oppa: The Memory Countdown... 13

Dear Oppa,

Within two weeks of our first interaction... you did this really cool thing.

You made the creepy stalker guy that used to harass me and follow me around look like an idiot.... Then you looked really badass because he tried to kick you and you moved so he fell flat on his back. You gave me this funny look while he was talking to me. I didn't know you very well then... but now my best guess would be your thoughts had something to do with wondering if you should help me get rid of him, because he was bad news. You also made my brother laugh. 

That was cute.

All my love,

Habibi

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Dear Oppa: Memory countdown... 10

Dear Oppa,

In a whirlwind of a few days of texting and walking to the cafe after classes together, things got even cuter. Who knew this could all happen within a week? We're ridiculous, I just hope you know. We're like those crazy stories of couples that meet once then get married the next day and literally last their whole lives together in love. 

All a sudden, prom tickets were on sale. Everyone was talking about it... including you... 

I remember you asking me at school if I was going, I said no. You looked confused and asked why. I told you straight up that I was a sophomore with no date. There was no point in my going. Not to mention prom was in about three weeks and I was not at all prepared... I had to go home right after that.

It took about an hour for you to text me. I'll be honest. I don't remember exactly what you said as you danced around the bush (which breaks my heart, btw. I should have wrote it down :( ) But I know I have a vague memory telling my mom "he's basically asking so if he actually does, what on earth do I say???" I also know whatever the banter was it went on for multiple hours, because my mom successfully completed this large meal preparation. At some point, however, you did finally ask. I wanted to find you and squeeze you and grab your face and kiss you. I mean let's face it, the most popular guy in class totally did just ask the nerdy shy girl who's only friend was the guy everyone hated to prom... But even though I might've been madly in love with you, I didn't know you and I didn't want to be stupid. For better or worse, Brandon was the only person I trusted. So I asked him if it was okay to go to prom with you XD 

My favorite part about this entanglement of weirdness? He said Do it.  He bragged and bragged on how I couldn't find a better date, I'd be perfectly safe, have tons of fun, and even have a guy that actually cared. 

I probably looked pregnant because, baby, I was glowing. 

FINALLY I responded to your text and said yes, two days later I showed up to class and all the boys were saying "congratulations!" while all the girls were talking about how I was some sort of slut. X) oh the good old days. 

I love you and I'm perfectly fine with making all the women in the universe jealous by being incredibly selfish with you forever. 

All my love, dances, and rushed decisions, 

Habibi

[oppahabibi-blog]

Dear Oppa: The Memory Countdown... 12

Dear Oppa,

A year after we first met, I got cast as your daughter in Fiddler on the Roof...

I couldn't decide if I was happy or not because I was super interested in you (no really, I'm surprised you weren't creeped out by the blonde girl that would sit in the corner with Brandon (which should have automatically placed me in the discouraged category if we're being honest with ourselves) and never take her eyes off you.... I don't even think I was smiling because you were always hanging out with people that openly hated me so how the hell was I supposed to get to know you. 

It didn't help that you teased and taunted me for being the daughter that lets you down and runs away. You tell me, now, how's that supposed to make a girl feel? It certainly wasn't a "Come let me love you" if that's what you thought. 

But as fate would have it, the root of all high school romances is a cute boy playing the guitar. Why would my story be any different?

I'll never forget the day you finally showed some feelings that you later claim you'd had for a while ;)

Your back was to me while you played and sang Michael Buble's "Everything"... It just so happened that was one of my favorite songs, and I knew the harmony like the back of my hand. So without waiting for the invitation that was certainly never going to come from the father who disowned me, I started singing. 

The way your eyes lit up and oh how I'd waited to be the one to make you smile. It was worth it. 

You finally talked to me like I was a normal person, and as we  saw my mother driving up you actually asked me for my phone number.

You have no idea how freaking hard it was to act all nonchalant about that. I seriously wanted to just grab you and kiss you but I didn't want you to think I was a slut, so I didn't. 

All my love, fondest memories, songs, stares, and phone numbers,

Habibi