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art idea i've had since last night

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You know your drunk art post about love and personhood from 2019? Every night at bedtime my late cat would lie on my chest, and her little heartbeat would be right on top of mine, and I'd think about that piece of art you made, and have a similar sort of image in my head. Anyway, yesterday I finally put the image to paper, and idk where this is going, just that that piece of art you created means a lot to me. Have a cool day ✌️

OHHHH MY GOD!!!!! EVERYBODY SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LOOK AT THIS. ITS ALL BEEN WORTH IT

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I know millennials are getting the traditional generational luddite reputation at this point for sneering at smart devices and banging on about privacy and not needing all those fancy functions etc. but I am speaking to you right now as an experienced activist: you have to start seeing your smartphone as your big red glowing weak point. it is a repository of all the information someone could conceivably use to ruin your life, and you carry it around with you all day every day guarded by maybe a 6 digit PIN (or a photo of your face, seriously turn off face unlock right fucking now).

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if you have the words WOOL SOCKS on your label and then the percentage of wool is 3% and plastic material is 97% I should be able to hunt you for sport

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I reference this blog post every single time I bind off a project, Susanna Winter I owe you my life

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when i look up a knitting term, the last thing I want is an ai overview. I want a 60+ year old woman with no understanding of lighting or helpful camera angles who still manages to give the most concise and clear explanation of how to execute purl 2tog through the backloop. ai summary fuck off, where is phyllis?

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me, posting: Don't do things that don't benefit you. what I meant: If some activity doesn't give you material profit, emotional fulfillment, quality time of rest and recovery, or help you strengthen your ties to your community and loved ones, just don't fucking do it. Stop doing shit that upsets you and harms you and annoys other people for nobody's benefit. Literally just stop doing that. what people hear: Literally kill every single person, animal, and plant whose existence isn't directly and immediately profitable to you personally.

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being bisexual and academically interested in fashion is weird bc sometimes you'll see a person who is both attractive and well-dressed. which you think would make a fun combo! but actually it's a trick that sends my brain spiraling because what the heck parts am i supposed to be paying attention to

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Long before the introduction of color film, a Russian chemist and photographer named Sergey Prokudin-Gorsky used an innovative technique. He took three individual black and white photos, each through a colored filter (red, green, and blue), to create fully colored, high-quality pictures. The photo of this woman, taken by him, is around 107 years old!

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what if we cut each other’s hair in the kitchen…….. and we were both butches

11x16in acrylic on canvas

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Wishing all amab nb people who don't perform the femininity or androgyny that people expect from non-cis amab people a very nice Friday.

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make no mistake, the society we have built around us would rather see you skinny and dead than fat and alive. they might even convince you that you yourself would rather be skinny and dead. that's what's so evil about eating disorders, theyre practically built in to our lives. luckily for us, WE built this society, and we can change it too. step off the scales and dont let them win any longer.

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Having ADHD is so fun because sometimes youre looking for something that you use regularly and definitely put away in a smart and reasonable place and you have absolutely 0 hope of remembering where and finding it. And then other times ur like "hmm I need a some kind of small pointed object. I feel like i remember seeing a paperclip under the left couch cushion a month ago, i wonder if its still there" and it is

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There's increasing talk of Trump possibly having dementia so this is your reminder that making fun of disabilities is still violent and ableist even if the disabled person a bad person. People with dementia and other forms of CI are not stupid, intentionally violent, or more bigoted than the rest of the population. There is also nothing funny or mock-worthy about incontinence, slurred speech, confusion, or word salad. You can have discussions about his ability to lead and declining health without throwing an exceptionally vulnerable disabled population under the bus.

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I wonder if mental health issues peaking in your 20s is due to environmental factors? Could we blame this on parenting? Notably the authoritarian, totalitarian structure that is the nuclear family? Is this a function of pathologizing normal responses to extreme environments and overwhelming workloads outside the control of the people (children) responsible for those workloads?

Is it possible to “beat” mental illness? Or does it depend on type/circumstance?

“Beating” mental illness is actually the norm, not the exception. Most people who have a major depressive episode never have another one. 80% of people who survive their first suicide attempt never make a second attempt. 93% of Borderline Personality Disorder patients achieve remission. Up to 74% of people with Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder achieve significant clinical improvement in their symptoms, and 20% achieve full remission. Half of Generalized Anxiety Disorder patients achieve remission after the acute phase of treatment. Even disorders with relatively low rates of remission - bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, schizoid personality disorder - generally become milder and easier to manage as you age. Psychiatric symptoms tend to peak in your 20s and generally drop off as you get older, especially if you seek treatment. 

This is why the narratives we use to talk about mental illness matter so much. Right now, the dominant narrative is that mental illness is “an imbalance in the brain” and that it’s largely something that people are born with. There are upsides and downsides to this. The upside is that it promotes the idea that mental illness is not the ill person’s fault, and it helps us understand that mental illness can impact anyone, regardless of their life circumstances. The downside, however, is that it’s sort of given us this idea that mental illness is inborn and unchangeable. People have taken on the idea that “that’s just how my brain is”, when the reality is that, for most people, mental illness is less of a stable trait for them, and more of just a shitty thing that they are going through for a little while. The idea that mental illness is just “in your brain” also erases the very real connection between your life circumstances and your mental health - while it’s very true that a wealthy person in a happy marriage can become depressed, it’s also very true that living in poor conditions and being in an abusive marriage can be the cause of depression, and that improving your life circumstances can lessen or eliminate mental health conditions. 

If you have a mental health condition, it’s very important that you not resign yourself to the idea that you’re going to be like this forever. Chances are, you won’t. Even if you have a mental health condition that is associated with low rates of remission, it is possible to make leaps and bounds in your functioning, and to get to a point where managing your condition becomes second nature to you. Our understanding of mental illness is improving every year, and new therapies and treatments are becoming available all the time. If you seek treatment and do your best to manage your condition, you have every reason to believe that you will make huge improvements. 

Hope this answers your question!

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Normative (i.e. cishetero, vanilla) sexuality is such a bizarre nightmare dimension cause people think there's something wrong with you if you're attracted to human bodies in their natural state & not the overly processed consumerist flesh homunculus they're trying to peddle & growing up hearing this you'll just say "ok" and internalize it. And saying things like that is why everybody thinks I'm a lesbian. Because I am