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Guess what? I’m still not over it

You know what? I’m actually not over it and I’m a petty bitch so no I don’t support you

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My disabilities take and take and take and I don’t have anything left to give

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My youth was stolen

First by myself

Then by a boy

Then by loss

Then by my body

And I will never get that back

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Can I scream something into the void?

I hate myself sometimes, most times, but I’m trying to work on it. But it’s hard to work on it when I keep doing stupid shit.

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So my therapist and my boyfriend both went on vacation at the same time. My emotional support humans left me for over a month. I’m doing so well thanks for asking haha

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extremely fucked up that one of the symptoms of adhd is forgetfulness and difficulty sticking to habits and schedules and one of the best ways to alleviate those symptoms is by remembering to take a pill every morning at the same time

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Living with chronic pain.

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It took me 7 years and 6 inpatients to figure this out…

I promise you. Starving is horrendous for you.

Diet companies won’t tell you this but starving yourself is a lot worse for your health than overeating

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Update: OCD still sucks. Fuck you OCD.

OCD sucks. That’s it that’s the post.

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There needs to be more allowance for disabled people to be angry. People want us to be somber and quiet. Sad at our condition and how hard life is. And yeah that’s allowed. But we’re also allowed to be fucking pissed off. People don’t help, people infantilise, governments don’t supply enough support, places aren’t accessible. This isn’t momentary. This is forever. There are so many things we can’t do and so many things we can’t be. Life isn’t fair. It likely won’t get fair enough for most to be comfortable. Yeah, I’m grieving, I’m sad, but I’m also FUCKING ANGRY.

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when someone asks how I'm doing I'll just direct them to Noah Kahan, that man knows my mental state better than I do

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Shout out to everyone who struggles with the New Year. We are going to get through this together. I know all everyone wants to talk about is whats happened this year and their goals and resolutions for next year, and it’s okay to not like or relate to any of that.

For some of us the new year is a reminder of all we lost, suffered through, continue to fight, regret or feel guilty over, or wish to forget. And that’s okay.

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OCD sucks. That’s it that’s the post.

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Ah yes, the autistic experience of being more mature than your peers as a child/teen, and then less mature as an adult. The window of opportunity to relate is... not there

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Ah to be chronically ill and work twice as hard to maintain a level of health that is half that of my peers.

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You know what? I’m actually not over it and I’m a petty bitch so no I don’t support you