#tw depressing thoughts

[120daysofsodomm]

loneliness and emptiness

[miss-menhera]

"What are you gonna do when you're old then?" I am actually glad you asked!!! ♡ I plan to kill myself in my thirties!!!!!

[werewolveswithdiaries]

fear of abandonment is not always intense fits of rage and spells of uncontrollable crying at the thought that someone will leave you

it also is

the paralysing anxiety and just swallowing your tears while staring into the screen until your eyes hurt because they haven't texted back

is stupidly testing everyone's loyalty and your heart pounds at the idea that they will make the tiniest mistake and it means they never cared in the first place

is isolating months on end because self induced loneliness became strangely more bearable that constantly awaiting the loneliness because you cannot trust that anyone will stay

is having your heart dropping in your chest when they hang out with someone else and all your bones ache because of course, it must mean they prefer anyone else over you

is asking yourself over and over again if it would be less painful for you to be their second choice or not a choice at all

is feeling shame for craving intimacy and privacy because you feel unworthy of it all, and and unworthy person will not matter for anyone right?

is having every emotion, thought, move, plan consumed by your favourite person and this obsession cuts deeper than anything else could ever do. they become your entire world, they are your solace, your existence is not present outside them

[blownawayy]

i can’t trust my thoughts

[harukahik4r1]

feel the pain because you deserve it

[it's only temporary]

[virginsuicidalgurl]

OH OKAYYYY????!!!!

[jirai-girly]

Hey guys (say it back or I'm never coming back)

[crackerbarrelsystem]

Tw/bl@des

SHOWCASE OF MY TOOLS!!!!

[pleasantspark]

Depression is a curse man.

The way its depicted in Hazbin Hotel as some, "UwU quirky dad making ducks to feel something" pisses me off. My depression is never taken serious by anyone so to have it mocked and ridiculed like that just doesn't make me any more proud.

I can barely fucking get up in the morning, eat, sleep. Do anything else but mope. I tell everyone my feelings and I feel like I am a burden to them. I am constantly being fed my depression. People give me praise but I don't know if it's true.

I cannot take this shit anymore man, I just want to end the sadness end the suffering. When I am not so close to the edge I feel happy, but it comes back again what's the point in being happy if everyone's gonna tell me to suck it up?

The fucking mental health clinics or even therapy does nothing but fill your head with hope. Hope that eventually you'd get better. These are just feelings rehab. They are not there to help you get cured.

Hazbin could have this level of shit where they can help someone but ultimately they relapse because that's how being a 20 year old unemployed bitch is.

I hate being alive sometimes. I feel like existence is just pointless. But yeah, depression is a joke guys, its not like it evovlves to wanting to throw yourself off a moving truck GUYS.

FFS, I'm done. I'm going back to writing.. OH WAIT I CANT

BECAUSE I AM TOO USELESS TO EVEN DO THAT!

[xvelvetcoffinx]

You see, if everyone around you tells you you're the problem. You eventually internalize it. I wish I never existed, maybe then people around me wouldn't be so miserable. They'd be happy. And that's all I want.

[werewolveswithdiaries]

there will always be “i m getting better”. but there will also linger “i am not sick enough yet, therefore i need to get so so much worse before i am worthy of receiving help”. having a sick brain means constantly postponing your salvation. until it s too late

[letsventstuff]

I assure you. If they want to, they would. Simple, clear, and precise as that.

[emotionaleating]

when someone doesn’t wanna tell me what i did wrong and suddenly i’m 8 years old wondering what i did to make my mom mad again

[eccedentesiast-skies]

You’ve grown into someone who would have protected you as a child. And that is the most powerful move you made.

[harukahik4r1]

is there even something wrong? or is it all just in my head?...

[hamoodmood]

In another universe I was happy