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what’s up losers, guess who gained 15 pounds and is relapsing? this guy!!

back at 205 again. been struggling to get down from it for a while, even though I lost ten pounds in a week and now im eating less than usual and still not losing weight. sucks ass.

just can’t wait until I can pass as a guy once I get rid of my giant fuggin hips 😟

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hi again

I’ve gained a lot of weight from my nexplanon implant and also because my parents haven’t been able to buy us good food so we’ve only been eating fast food

I’m really sad. I wish I could’ve been a more beautiful person.

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I’m trying to get healthier

I don’t want to feel so sick anymore is I’m trying to just eat a little bit more a day so I can still feel hungry but feel better about myself

:( I wish I wasn’t so sick

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hey, haven’t posted in a bit lol

shit happens, you know? I kinda went off for a bit. which is stupid. but who cares?

I’m genuinely not excited to get onto the scale. I probably gained like, idk, five pounds? which is a shit ton, but I’ve been withholding my eating lately so yay. Im probably at 195 again, which sucks actual balls but lol, I’ll get over it

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ok so I’m getting chipotle tonight because my mom is forcing me to ( she always gets me food no matter what) and we don’t have a lot of money so I have to eat what she buys me, but it’s not too bad. the whole meal is around 730 calls, plus like 330 from what I ate for breakfast it’s like 1060. it’s not good, but it’s better than binging like I did before. I’ve been doing pretty good and eating 300 calories more than I usually do won’t kill me. I even lost weight even though I ate around 1000 calories last night. so I’m sure I’m be okay- is just excited to eat that burrito

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ay I think I lost like 2 pounds from yesterday!! crisis averted. that binge didn’t do that much damage so I’m really happy about it! currently 189.4, but I weighed myself after drinking some water so it might not be too accurate.

if you’re an ana and post malespo or want malespo follow me and I’ll follow u back! gotta give support for me and my boys (and nbs and girls if u want!)

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None of those are me!!! If you know the people in this photo please tag them, if they want me to take it down please tell me!

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Reblog if you do/are any of the following:

post masc/androgynous thinspo (!!!)

are pro recovery + body positive

are still overweight

have a higher starting weight than most

are an adult (16+ is fine ig but no younger)

are queer

like making friends in the community (NOT ana buddies, just ppl who relate and wont shame you)

ill follow you! my dash is so dead :(

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am i aesthetic yet

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I hate how engrained food is in our society.

it’s not that I hate food- I love it. i think good is good for the soul, but not really for people like me. I want to become a chef. I love cooking and baking and watching people’s faces as they eat my food- but it’s not really about the food. I want to make people happy, not indulge in my own disgusting desires to eat whatever I make. I usually don’t anyways, looking at how the food is made, especially if it includes raw meat, kinda turns me off. But food is so engrained in our society, everywhere you look there’s food, food, food. our jokes are about food, our media is about food, our everything is about food.

just find it so strange.

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3 little words better than I love you....

‘You look skinnier’