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Bad news. My parents noticed that i have tumblr and told me to delete it 'cause apparently its too much for my mental and physical health. I hope you'll all get better soon.

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So, i'll try to do a 24 hour fast tomorrow (i'm already doing it, but it's mainly tomorrow) and i'm kinda scared of binging (i don't really have a history with binging, but you neva know). So to help mysel,f and possibly you (don't know how many will see this), i present you my binge-preventing list:

• Drink lots of water - it sometimes makes me feel sick and bloated, but you'll pee everything out and its 0 cals

• drink tea - tea also helps, especially when its really hot, so you have to wait for it to cool off

• brush your teeth - a good ol' classic, but still helps

• go for a walk (or even better - a run) - the urge to binge might pass, so worth trying. This is honestly one of my personal favs because you can walk until the urge passes and if you do binge later, it's not as bad because you just exercised. Technically any exercise works.

• paint your nails - haven't tried this one, but i heard it helps, because you have to wait. If it dries and you still wanna binge, paint another layer. You have to get the one that doesn't dry fast tho.

• clean your room - kinda helps to take your mind off of food.

• look at thinspo on pinterest, tumblr or other soacial media - as far as i know, it helps a lot of people. This doesn't help me tho, it just makes me feel even worse and if i end up binging i feel even guiltier.

• chew gum - another good ol' classic. It does work for me. Things like lolipops also work and most of them aren't high-calorie

• eat the food you cooked - this has helped me prevent a bigger binge. I cook something that takes a bit longer to cook and requires more of your attention. Also, cooking a bit bigger portion also helps, because it fills you up and you don't end up binging.

• go shopping - just takes your mind off of things and if you don't want to socialize or just don't have a shop/mall near, just go online.

Watching a film kinda helps, but sometimes the urge comes back during or after the film, so i didn't put it on the list. I know reading or studying helps for some people, but i just can't take my mind off of food and can't focus when i want to binge.

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My plans for tomorrow. So my last eating time today was at around 4 pm. Because of some circumstances (the circumstances being that i'll probably be out for almost the whole day) i'll try to complete a 24 hour fast. Since my parents usually force me to eat breakfast, i'll try to convince them that i'll eat at school. If that goes my way, i won't have breakfast and not having breakfast, at least for me, is easy. The hardest part is not eating at school. At school i get soooo hungry, that i buy a granola bar or cookies or something like that. If i manage to fast during school, that will be almost good. After school, i'll have one hour free, but in that time me and my two friends go to athletics. That should be easy, exept it's not 'cause they wanna go to this shop (!!FOOD DANGER!!), buuut if i manage to not buy anything, i should be good. So practice ends at 5 pm and i should be home by 5:40. Then i'll probably have to eat something, and i will, because i don't wanna binge on the weekend. Also, even tho it's not likely, i might binge later. If you have any advice on how not to, i'm happy to listen.

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Today was pretty bad. I did stay in my calorie limit, but i was active way less. I skipped athletics today and didn't even finish my 10000 step goal. And on top of that today I couldn't get my exact weight, since I had to hurry up in the morning and in the evening i weighed myself with wet hair and a towel on my hair. Anyways, my measurements:

Weight (in the evening and with towel + wet hair) - 64.9

Calories consumed - ~1000

Steps - 7808

Distance i walked - 5.5 km

Calories burned - 358

Bmr - 1510

Even tho my weight is higher, im still kinda cool with that (well not cool, but it doesn't freak me out that much), because i gained muscle yesterday and i drank a lot today (thats great, 'cause im trying to drink more).

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The best post on Tumblr I have seen so far👑

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Ok, so i already ate a bit more than i was suposed to. Gotta walk to school instead of my dad driving me. Anyways, a lil thinspo dump :))))

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To not give up when trying to achieve your goals, think not about NOW you, but about FUTURE you. Work for FUTURE you. How will that goal change future you's life? How will your decisions affect your life later? Think about yourself in like 3 months (or whatever deadline you have). Think about how you will be greatful to yourself about the decisions that you made.

e.g. when i wanna give up on the whole glow up thing, i think about my self in a few months laying on a paddle board, or going swimming, or skateboarding, or walking or just chillin' in ma room. If i achieve my goals, i know im gonna do all that and be greatful to myself for not giving up. If i give up, when summer comes, i will be dressed in a hoodie, sweating my soul out, walking my dog and feeling like shi. I will be dissappointed and disgusted and i will regret not making the decisions i should have made. These two scenarios really help me motivate myself, so i thought i would share :)))

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My goal is 58 kg by the end of February (02-28) (-5 kg, i think that's 11 lbs).

What i'll do to achieve the goal:

Won't eat any more than 1000 cals

Will workout everyday

Will walk at least 10000 steps a day

Will eat protein rich and low carb foods.

I'm now (01-25) around 63 kg. I'm trying to be ok with the fact that this week i might gain because i just started athletics and muscle weighs more than fat. But if i won't eat a lot, then i won't gain weight :)))))) So my eating plan for tomorrow (i try to prepare for my parents forcing me to eat, so this includes quite a lot of calories):

Breakfast: peanut butter toast - 100 cals

Snack: dark chocolate - 100 cals

Dinner: 2 scrambled eggs with corn - 250 cals

Snack: greek yoghurt - prob around 150 (i'll read the exact number tomorrow)

Total: 600 cals (tomorrow is gonna be similar to today and today i burned almost 800 cals and my bmr is 1510 cals)

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Ma first post!!! Anyways, i get that i'll probably be the only one reading these, but it's just a form of ✨self expression✨.

Today's measurements:

Weight in the morning: 62.6 kg

Weight in the evening: 63.9 kg (had an anxiety attack but later realized that I just drank like a whole liter of water)

Consumed calories: 1000-1100

Burned calories (what my watch shows): 790

Bmr: 1510 cals

Steps today (also measured by watch): 17 185

Distance i walked (also showed on watch): 12.11 km

My height almost a year ago was 172 cm (5'8 i think), but people have been telling me (and i kinda noticed) that i've grown

My bmi is somewhere around 21.3 (it's changing a lot and i don't know my exact height)

So if by any chance you're seeing this and have tips how to find out your height without going to the doctor, I'm all ears.

Today was an ok day, despite the fact that I don't feel empty at all or that i slept 2 hours or that i ate like a pig or that i couldn't focus in class. Ok, next post - probably tomorrow (01-26) at around the same time (in the evening or early night).