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Why are all jmart criticisms so boring though. Oh nooo they're toxic" do you have ZERO whimsy. "Oh but the show doesn't portray them as toxic they act like it's normal-" I think the Complicated Relationships Podcast is aware they're writing a complicated relationship. Can you please stop talking or at least fuckinb Tag It. Ohhhhh my god.

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One of these days I will have the guts to explain why jonathan sims fucks me up in actual detail but for now yall get Vague Snippets

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Its like. My body doesn't feel like it belongs to me it has always just felt like a Thing that happens to be connected to me. This is partly gender yes but also largely sexual assault related. I don't know how to explain it but I can easily write you a five page essay on how it affects a character, and that'll explain it a lot faster and help you understand why I don't want to wear revealing clothes or why I haven't let anyone touch me lately, without making it harder for me to explain it by making me actually say it's about me. Essentially it's opening up but without the hardest parts of opening up for me. Do you get it. It's actually a very efficient coping mechanism I really recommend it.

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Hm. Maybe vent writing would help me? Idk

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The more I think about "hm why did tma devastate me so much and why are some episodes so upsetting and hard to listen to for me?" And beginning to realize. Ah. It's the CSA survivor feelings. That's why this man gave me a literal mental breakdown, and I am not just saying that, that one time. Hm. Why do I feel like I'm going to keep bringing up this guy in therapy

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heavy-handed metaphor

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The Puzzle of Light Yagami

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TW // Blood

Lawlight Week Day 5 - "Sharing Food / Cannibalism"

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there is no death

[lawlight week day 6: ghosts] @lawlightweek2024

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LIGHTER

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SKY HIGH ☁️💙🪽

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new fit 🖤⛓️

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🥀🔌🩸

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going ouppy mode

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Would you still love me if I posted about toxic shigeteru

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i cannot imagine what it would’ve felt like to be yotsuba-era light making all these connections between himself and the previous KIRA killings. to see the evidence of such horrible violence and know how evil it is, know what a twisted, pathetic imitation of justice this immature idiot was enacting— but to have it all still resonate with something deep within you. you trust your memories because of course, how could you not, it’s all you’ve ever known to do— but you still allow yourself to be subject to all these breaches of human rights because on some level, you don’t trust yourself either.

i can even see the exact same coping mechanism that led to KIRA leading to amnesia! light’s repression of these connections, actually— a desire to see oneself as someone good, someone pure and virtuous, originally manipulated into a justification for serial murder, now desperately clung to as an explanation for why it couldn’t be you. it can’t be you. it can’t. you were perfect, you are perfect, you were a good boy, the best, you did everything they told you to do— how could you ever have fallen so far?

yotsuba arc light really is on a whole ‘nother level when it comes to seeing the evil inside of you, looking into the alternate timeline and watching what you could’ve become. only, in this story, you’re not the main character anymore— you’re the tragedy, the bittersweet taste of what could’ve been. you look at your jailer and you resent him for all that he’s taken from you, your freedom, your family, your life, but you allow your wrists to be chained to him anyway because you know that if it’s true, if you really are the horror he insists you are, he’s the only thing that could ever possibly stop you. you hate him and you need him and you don’t know what will happen if he ever lets you go— you fear your own potential even as it draws him ever closer, fear your capability to be the monster under your own bed. so you let him cling and grasp at you, bite back the fears, lock away the nightmares, and go back to sleep to escape the looming threat of your own lost humanity.

and then you wake up. and you kill him.

and this is the only way it ever could’ve been.

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Charts for my favorite Junko x SDR2 characters relationships. (Template here.) Please note that all of these are their remnant versions.

DR3, DR0, and DR1 charts coming soon... plus AI Chiaki and Hajime who didn't fit in this post.

Honorable mentions go to Junko/Peko, Junko/Fuyuhiko, and Junko/Akane. I got tired of doing these things and ran out of room anyways, but maybe I'll go back and do them later...