phoenixnightshade

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Unfortunately (fortunately) i am stuck here again 😔

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Purrints&Purrtreon&Book😽

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Why do I?

Why do I keep thinking you care?

Why do I keep thinking I matter?

Why do I let you tear my heart out day in and day out?

All for a word here and there,

But never the words I want hear.

I wake up craving just those words,

And each time you say the opposite.

Why?

Why do I?

Why do i keep coming back?

Why do I keep hoping?

Why do I keep loving you?

All i want is to matter to you,

But everyone else always comes first

Every time you put me last.

Why?

Why can't I ever give up?

Why?

-jaulch 4/12/19

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oops! it seems i tripped and dropped several million free books, papers, and other resources

https://annas-archive.org

https://sci-hub.se

https://z-lib.is

https://libgen.is

https://libgen.rs

https://www.pdfdrive.com

https://library.memoryoftheworld.org

https://monoskop.org/Monoskop

https://libcom.org

https://libretexts.org

http://classics.mit.edu

https://librivox.org

https://standardebooks.org

https://www.gutenberg.org

https://core.ac.uk

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i removed the song from the carriage scene because that song choice was AWFUL and was totally ruining the vibe. I think it's better like this imo. the music is supposed to enhance, not distract!

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Yikes its been a few years! Have moved, got a new job gained weight, lost weight gained weight, currently back to losing it! Also shaved my head in December because my fibro has been causing all kinds of issues and without being able to see a doctor I had to help save me some spoons and not dealing with my hair has helped.

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#struggling #feelsoalone #lost (at Marietta, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CLnauv1BaS3/?igshid=14niejtgil8om

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Anyone able to tell me what this is? #crystals #gemsstone #gemstones #crystalhealing #witchesofinstagram #witch #witchyvibes #witchythings https://www.instagram.com/p/CIuCLuvhRA4/?igshid=1hhuh2car19rl

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:D. my newest set of kids! got today! soooo beautiful 🤩 still need a cleanse but working on that! cannot wait to work with them! #crystals #crystalhealing #crystallove #crystalenergy #witchesofinstagram #witchyvibes #witch #witchythings #witchcraft #proudtobeawitch https://www.instagram.com/p/CIeSzJwBovx/?igshid=57ucf7cs3og7

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My newest crystals, just added today.🥰. The last one I zoomed in on at the end of the video has me stumped, not 100% sure what it is.... #crystals #crystalhealing #gemstones #collection #collector #witch #witchesofinstagram #tryingtoheal #witchythings #witchyvibes (at Marietta, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CIHDfsShiW1/?igshid=168o6al9xc7d8

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#depressed #sad #lost #struggling #alone (at Marietta, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CHs_Zq7h8JX/?igshid=po2jgnr53k4j

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Well I was unable to set up my crystals how I wanted in the new place. For now this will have to work. #crystals #crystalhealing #gemstones #color #happiness #witch #witchesofinstagram #witchyvibes #witchcraft #witchthings (at Marietta, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CHqSBR_hgR_/?igshid=1j2kisrm5yadk

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Beautiful 77 degrees here in Marietta.💜 #marietta #ohio #beautifulweather (at Marietta, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CHYX-eCBZyl/?igshid=1wcs19qn4cki0

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#not #lost #broken #poetry (at Marietta, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CHL8gvXhp5I/?igshid=avpp5d8fya5q

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So not how today was supposed to be! Out movers never came with our stuff and now won't answer calls.😞 . So here I am in a hotel again for at least one more night. To top it off I can't get warm ABD keep throwing up. #wellfuck #notthewayitshouldbe #depressed #justwantitdone #nobodyneedsmeanyway https://www.instagram.com/p/CG5jTlUBqIm/?igshid=6p22o0yretac

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New place. Need current for that door! :D lol #themove #goodbyehello #anothernewstart #tiredofwhoiam #tbhihatemyself #seeya (at Marietta, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/CG3gDpTBvTq/?igshid=1l4xje2n7x15u

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A great big witchy thank you to @crazycrystalchicks! You know why ladies! I will share just how wonderful you are in the next live show! You all saved me💜💜🤣💜💜. #witchesofinstagram #witch #thankyou #witchyvibes #witchcraft https://www.instagram.com/p/CGa1sfxBHTT/?igshid=1xmlhha4g721w