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Finally caught up with Apothecary Diaries. I can't believe they gave Maomao a gun.

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maomao and her dedication to never discovering anything about jinshi's personal life

fake idgafer final boss

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maomao when every important figure in the empire keeps asking for her help

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maomao is my favorite "not like other girls" style protagonist bc for one shes a girls girl through and through. to the bone. and two she's just a weird little freak. absolute lunatic. they have the whole "omg she's actually beautiful and everyone falls for her when she's all made up" trope but the punchline is that she does not fucking want to look like that. she actively puts dirt on her face every day bc she does not want to be perceived as attractive (mostly out of fear of being used for sex work though at the same time she has the utmost respect for women who do sex work like she grew up in a brothel those are her sisters). she's Sherlock level smart and solves every mystery so fast but goes "well thats none of my business. anyway back to testing poisons on myself" she has the 2nd most powerful guy in the nation head over heels in love with her and is like "man this guy is weird around me what's his deal. I guess he's fine though because he gives me rare medicines and has no dick" fucking ICON i love her. also she once slapped someone so hard they fell on the floor. 10/10

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Happy star wars day!

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Andor season 2 next week so here is little Rebelcaptain doodle

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we’ve all had better times to die

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Obligatory disclaimer: I love Bix. She is a healer and a fixer in a galaxy that desperately needs people like that and i respect the hell out of her. This post is absolutely not intended as Bix slander. Hell, it's not even intended as being super against Bix/Cassian, as much as an examination of why their relationship and why it had to end, even beyond the obvious R1 canon-compliant reasons and within the theming of the show.

Star Wars, at its core, is a love story. In the OT, it was love that saved the galaxy; Luke’s love for his father, and Anakin’s love for Luke, while in the prequels, it was Anakin’s love for Padme that led to the destruction of the Jedi and the birth of the Empire.

Andor is also a love story. But not entirely the kind of love story you’re probably thinking of. 

It’s a story of agape; selfless love. A person’s love for humanity. And Andor explores this kind of love through the use of a theme that has been consistent throughout both Andor and Rogue One. 

Home.

Both seasons of Andor begin with Cassian trying to find a connection to his home. In s1 that means searching for his sister- his last connection to Kenari. We all remember how that ends. In s2, that means getting the fuck off Yavin and back to Bix, Brasso, Wilmon, and B2- his last connections to Ferrix. Brasso, of course, died, and B2 had to be left behind. In the very next arc, we see Wilmon solidify his bonds with the rebels and Saw, choosing to inhale the Rhydo, become the spark the lights the fire. Choosing the Rebellion over any of his other connections- even, as we saw in the finale, his eventual connection to Dreena. There’s a reason he never told her about the radio under his bed. 

Choosing the Rebellion- which, at this point, is everywhere. Wilmon, by choosing the Rebellion, is choosing his love for humanity over his individual relationships. 

This is a choice that almost everyone in Andor makes- to keep to themselves and their kind, to choose and prioritize that which is comfortable and familiar, until the truth comes knocking that eventually they won’t have a home to choose unless they rebel against the Empire and fight alongside their fellow man. Lieutenant Gorn made his decision after he “went native” and loved and lost a woman on Aldhani. Maarva begs the people of Ferrix to make it in her speech at the end of s1- “...the moment they pulled away, we forgot them. Because we had each other…if I could do it again, I’d wake up early, and fight these bastards from the start.” We saw Mon Mothma make it in s2e9- leaving Coruscant, abandoning her Chandrilan blue, to become a leader of the Rebellion. 

We see Bix struggling too- all season long, she was trying to make a home of where they were at the time, and all the while Cassian was trying to make a home of her. He wanted Bix to be a place of comfort and safety, a place he could go where he didn’t have to “look up” and see the flags of the Empire. Somewhere he could rest easy.

But Bix, after her torture at the hands of Gorst, will never be able to rest easy and turn a blind eye to the suffering of the rest of the galaxy and the need for the Rebellion. It has been haunting her dreams and robbing her of sleep since. And the truth is, neither will Cassian. Any home he found with her would have been a lie. 

Cassian may have loved Bix, but he wasn’t in love with her, and it certainly wasn’t a selfless love. Cassian loved her for what she represented. With Bix, Cassian could shut out the atrocities being committed by the Empire, the cries for help, the truths that Mon Mothma, Maarva and eventually Jyn all convey in their speeches: Palpatine is a monster. The Empire is a disease. We created them and it is our duty to stop them; if we give way to enemies with that much power, we doom the galaxy to an eternity of submission. The time to fight is now.

Here’s another truth: for revolution to succeed, it’s not enough to hate your enemy. You have to love the people and place that you’re fighting for and who are fighting for you in turn. You have to put aside your differences and work together, and do so without hesitation. 

For the Galaxy to survive, Cassian has to choose the Rebellion. He has to choose selfless love over a love that is selfish. But he can’t bring himself to do it. He’s not Nemik; he’s not a “true believer.” Even less than a day or two before Rogue One begins, Cassian is still being haunted by dreams of his sister and Kenari. He’s still searching for a home. 

And then he meets Jyn.

With Jyn, Cassian sees the truth, and he cannot look away. He sees a woman who is a summary of everything terrible the Empire has ever done. He sees someone who is scared, angry, and bitter, who wants nothing more than to escape away to the Outer Rim and turn away from it all- and then he sees her change, into a woman made of stardust and hope who makes the Rebellion her home, and he realizes he can do that too. Cassian doesn't have to cling to the past to find a home; he has one in the present. He sees it on the horizon. He feels it all around him. 

"Welcome home," he says, and he believes it.

Cassian sees Jyn, and it's like looking in a mirror.  And then, in the face of a massacre on Jedha, reeling from the loss of not one but two parents, burned by betrayal from the very rebels she's placed her trust in- he watches her open her heart to the Rebellion and choose to save the lives of trillions of others all across the galaxy who will never know her sacrifice. He sees her choose selflessness and love over selfishness and fear, and if she can do it, then so can he. Cassian loves Jyn unconditionally, and it moves him to love the galaxy as well.

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doing what god intended: watching rogue one immediately following the andor finale

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shoutout to rebels in imperial disguises, gotta be one of my favourite genders

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I am hopeful that those of you who know me will vouch for my credibility in the days to come. I stand this morning with a difficult message... ANDOR | 2.09

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me: oh yay Andor is back what's going on gang

Andor: undocumented immigrants are facing sexual violence every day. left wing infighting will get everyone killed. rich people buying back things stolen by colonists is still an act of colonialism.

me: right so just a light season then

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My art 🎨(bic pen : black, turquoise, blue, green, red and orange + grey colored pencil)

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I had a great time doing this :)