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The day passed by.. quite tiring..and the famous nordic darkness which is understated as depressing has kicked in…It’s killing you everyday..its saddening…

Well..As everyday I left from work to pick my son from his daycare ..tired..exhausted from daily running arounds! Snow droping on my jacket.. wishing i din’t have to do this and rather go home n relax nearly visualizing me on sofa with my coffee!!

But to be honest… exactly 5 minutes to his daycare.. and I notice a smile on my face..its the most candid , genuine expression I have in the day with the thoughts of seeing him:-)..

And with this smile I open the main giant gate..of the daycare…

And then the smaller one which gives me a little sneak peak of mushy, sandy playgarden, dark and grey but with street lamps on..

Bundle of joy running around, exploring their own space of creativity , craziness and happiness..

And now my eyes working harder to see the piece of me I left behind right here a few hours ago..

And I walk faster and spotting him ..say his name louD ..ISHAAN!!

And he recognizes the voice…turns and runs towards me.. with the same enthusiasm and excitement as was yesterday , day before and always…. its just the same…😊

He cuddles me tight ..wanting a confirmation that am with him now on for the rest of the day and happy that I din’t break his trust and am here to take him home as promised!!

This feeling is priceless.. it’s irreplaceable..its a validation of my being for someone.. for whom love, security, comfort comes from me!!

I feel like a priority, a necessity! It’s beautiful!

Do I still feel tired? No, I feel loved! I feel blessed and precious!

A 4 year old does this to me!! Everyday since 4 years!! 😊

Its unconditional.. its timeless… and with his little fingers tangled tight to mine..i walk out with literally my LITTLE piece of happiness cake!

I read RECENTLY..

“Love.. is just a word! Unless someone adds feelings and meaning to it!”

Choose the someone wisely! Or just recognize it in the right manner! 😊❤️

[priyanka08posts-blog]

The day passed by.. quite tiring..and the famous nordic darkness which is understated as depressing has kicked in...It’s killing you everyday..its saddening...

 Well..As everyday I left from work to pick my son from his daycare ..tired..exhausted from daily running arounds! Snow droping on my jacket.. wishing i din’t have to do this and rather go home n relax nearly visualizing me on sofa with my coffee!!

 But to be honest... exactly 5 minutes to his daycare.. and I notice a smile on my face..its the most candid , genuine expression I have in the day with the thoughts of seeing him:-)..

And with this smile I open the main giant gate..of the daycare...

And then the smaller one which gives me a little sneak peak of mushy, sandy playgarden, dark and grey but with street lamps on..

Bundle of joy running around, exploring their own space of creativity , craziness and happiness..

And now my eyes working harder to see the piece of me I left behind right here a few hours ago..

And I walk faster and spotting him ..say his name louD ..ISHAAN!!

And he recognizes the voice...turns and runs towards me.. with the same enthusiasm and excitement as was yesterday , day before and always.... its just the same...😊

He cuddles me tight ..wanting a confirmation that am with him now on for the rest of the day and happy that I din’t break his trust and am here to take him home as promised!!

This feeling is priceless.. it’s irreplaceable..its a validation of my being for someone.. for whom love, security, comfort comes from me!!

I feel like a priority, a necessity! It’s beautiful!

Do I still feel tired? No, I feel loved! I feel blessed and precious!

A 4 year old does this to me!! Everyday since 4 years!! 😊

Its unconditional.. its timeless... and with his little fingers tangled tight to mine..i walk out with literally my LITTLE piece of happiness cake!

I read RECENTLY..

“Love.. is just a word! Unless someone adds feelings and meaning to it!”

 Choose the someone wisely! Or just recognize it in the right manner! 😊❤️

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This morning I was again the usual dull me…staring outside my window..a breezy, grey day…finding motives to not get up from my sofa…and stay home..doing nothing but sitting on this corner…fighting the negativity in my  head… isolated…have no one..and just cry out loud alone…

Why? Ha..I wish I knew..

But then, I just thought for once, let me try overcome this..I got up..left my cup of tea.on the window…gave the dullness outside a look silently saying I will deal with you today…hugged my son..got him ready for his daycare, played my favorite music on…felt neutral..

After he and my husband left,I just closed the door and looked at myself..into the mirror..the sad gloomy me…with a dull nightwear..hair tied…and I don’t know why.. I just let my hair loose…smiled…at myself..and the next second I cried…cried loud…cried my heart out…stranded, helpless ..not knowing why…Why don’t I want to face it…

But I CONTINUED THE EFFORT, took a shower..and again thought of that one thing.. that makes me happy…

I put on some music…AND danced…the clock was ticking…but I looked into the same mirror and I smiled and I danced…smiled…and told myself…you can do it…got dressed just flawless. In my favorite black top and skinny jeans…gave an extra brush of makeup…and walked out for work…

We don’t know how many of us, might have colleagues, friends, loved ones..who face this and then come out right next to you, face you, like nothing’s wrong…it takes strength! I know it! I feel it!

There’s no motivation like self-motivation..there’s no love like self-love..and there’s no power like you see in that mirror…when you see yourself..

I go through turmoil’s of emotions every minute…I face anxiety, fear…and everything negative. And it’s at peak in the mornings…Yet, each morning..I fight it…some days I loose , some days I win over…but today I decided to be happy..for myself…I wanted the little piece of happiness cake. Greedily just for myself!! 😊

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Little bit of happiness cake

Today like every day i got into the train.. rushed with people..trying to step in find a place.. some angry, sum calm faces..me the observer.. that I am.. trying to focus on a spot in this chaos which is calm and happy so I can look there and hear my favorite music..

just then, i notice a lady turning back , her face in anger… staring at an old man who was a bit louder in his talking than one would..be in a train…

When i looked closely…well…he was so well dressed.. in his 80’s …shiny..polished shoes.. styled hair.. wrinkled face but a sparkle in eyes.. and happiness visible while he looked at his even beautiful wife and laughed.. and said..loudly in excitement I solved my last suduko word… in his hands he had a newspaper.. solving sudoko..

And his wife in her soft shaky voice asked..

What was the word… and he said JUL

in english means “ Christmas “ :-)

And she held his hand, looked at him again with a smile and that said so much in silence.. :)

It virtually may be flashed all the memories of 40 or more Christmas they may have seen together.. and look forward to seeing more.. her hand on his hand.. was a sign of ever lasting commitment that they have shared probably.. in life.. and trusted one other to be there!! In bad times and good..

It was beautiful to see this moment!!

No i wasn’t angry from his loud voice.. I was smiling… overwhelmed.. and thought we are all so busy.. rush mornings, crowded trains, piled work, responsibilities..and feel where’s happiness?

It’s in witnessing these moments… it’s in seeing these two souls who have lived lifetime and still together..i got off..the train.. but.. with my little share of happiness cake!!

:-)

Biggest problem we search of happiness too often in things that may not be our real happiness!! Real happiness is small little moments that build a pillar of strength and contentment which bring happiness within but in time!! 😊but to last forever!

[priyanka08posts-blog]

Little bit of happiness cake

 Today like every day i got into the train.. rushed with people..trying to step in find a place.. some angry, sum calm faces..me the observer.. that I am.. trying to focus on a spot in this chaos which is calm and happy so I can look there and hear my favorite music..

just then, i notice a lady turning back , her face in anger... staring at an old man who was a bit louder in his talking than one would..be in a train...

When i looked closely...well...he was so well dressed.. in his 80’s ...shiny..polished shoes.. styled hair.. wrinkled face but a sparkle in eyes.. and happiness visible while he looked at his even beautiful wife and laughed.. and said..loudly in excitement I solved my last suduko word... in his hands he had a newspaper.. solving sudoko..

And his wife in her soft shaky voice asked..

What was the word... and he said JUL

in english means “ Christmas “ :-)

And she held his hand, looked at him again with a smile and that said so much in silence.. :)

It virtually may be flashed all the memories of 40 or more Christmas they may have seen together.. and look forward to seeing more.. her hand on his hand.. was a sign of ever lasting commitment that they have shared probably.. in life.. and trusted one other to be there!! In bad times and good..

It was beautiful to see this moment!!

No i wasn’t angry from his loud voice.. I was smiling... overwhelmed.. and thought we are all so busy.. rush mornings, crowded trains, piled work, responsibilities..and feel where’s happiness?

It’s in witnessing these moments... it’s in seeing these two souls who have lived lifetime and still together..i got off..the train.. but.. with my little share of happiness cake!!

:-)

Biggest problem we search of happiness too often in things that may not be our real happiness!! Real happiness is small little moments that build a pillar of strength and contentment which bring happiness within but in time!! 😊but to last forever!