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I will forever be pushing my breeselnick agenda and will be furious if it doesn’t end up canon. I mean the signs are everywhere in the books

just wanted everyone to know

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Something, something, something, Nick is someone who supports Bree no matter what, Sel is someone who challenges Bree no matter what, Bree accepts them as they are because they do the same and that's why the throuple only makes so much sense.

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An Ode To Briana Matthews Part Deux

*Oathbound Spoilers Afoot!*

One of the many things I have enjoyed about this series is Tracy’s centering of Bree.  She is allowed to be complicated, powerful, and flawed.  She is shown being loved on furiously, being desired fiercely, and she is written in a way that makes you ache for her.  She calls something forward in me that challenges the notion of who Black girls are supposed to be in the eyes of those who deem us as too much.  Bree makes me proud because she makes mistakes, takes risks, and does not play about the people she loves.  

We have come a long way from the girl in Legendborn. 

Heavy is the crown.

Her Magic (The Consequences of The Choice)

“I push myself to my feet and walk toward him, a satisfied smile curving my lips.  As I get closer, I widen my hands again, and the thuds grow quieter and quieter as I thicken the barrier.  He can’t see me, but I can just make out the glow of his eyes.  His irises are green with fury, and I imagine what I would look like to him if he could see me…”

“A young brown-skinned girl in a long formal gown, striding toward him with her palms out wide.  A girl with deep purple magic flowing from her hand to feed the structure encasing him.  A girl raising that sphere into the air, levitating him from the ground.  A girl trained by the deepest Shadow himself, her teeth bared in an electric grin.”

Bree has come a long way from the Gala and the choice she made with the Shadow King back at the lodge.  In this scene, her confidence is on full display.  She looks strong, she flexes her prowess, and she is not holding back.  All of this came from the choice she made to go with Erebus and to burn her ancestral stream. As I said in my first ode, I loved her choice.  I knew it would be messy, I knew it would hurt.  I also knew it would be necessary.  We know Bree is a fighter, and there is little that would keep her from it.  Choosing herself meant breaking herself down to the studs to become more.  More physically, more mentally, more strategically.  Like any king worth their salt, she makes the difficult and sometimes unpopular decisions. She is finding her balance and pushing her limits until she ultimately finds the formula that works for her. At the end of Oathbound, we see her more in control. To say that the order, Erebus, and Tor's funky ass will hate to see her coming, is an understatement.

Desire/Sexuality

“Then I remember the sizzling sensation when I touch the Pendragon coin, and I wonder if he’s the one who stamped that memory onto my skin. Boys, I say quietly. I know that much…”

“I think…,” I say, watching the crowd with new eyes, "I’m into people people.”

One of the other aspects of Bree in which she became more sure of was her desires and sexuality.  We got a glimpse of it with Sel in the woods.  It was she who took the lead and kissed him, leaning into how much he wanted her, and showing him she wanted the same.  I am of the age that I remember girls being labeled as “fast” for doing something as mundane as wearing red lipstick.  In the Black community, there tends to be (at least there was when I was this age) a looking down upon of Black girls for owning their sexuality.  You get the, “Don’t bring no babies home” talk, but there is little discussion of the real world, practical shit.  Even into adulthood, if you enjoy sex and are open about it (like the men dem), you are labeled a HOE (304s as they said back in the day). This scene was so dope because we get a glimpse of her thought process in her own words.  I love that Zoe questions her, essentially prompting her to give voice to what she likes.  There is freedom even in the thought of exploration.  

So Drown and The Roof is On Fire

“I’m drowning in you, Bree.  I shouldn’t want to. I should fight it. But I can’t”

“My eyes flutter closed, then open.  I inhale a ragged breath. Exhale an answer. So drown.”

The challenge she levels at Nick made me squeal.  The way he obliged made me gasp.  Every moment where Bree is free to be a teenager exploring her sexuality is top tier.  Tracy makes these moments count, doesn’t she?  When I first started reading this series, I heard rumblings regarding the two white boys and their desire for Bree. Some conversations turned their dynamic into something dirty, and something that was happening to Bree instead of realizing she is a willing participant.  There are some interesting takes out there. I love that she is being loved on by two love interests who would set the world ablaze for her.  The fact that Bree disrupts their trajectory AND the trajectory in what Black girls deserve (love, respect, care, softness, a lil Selly Sazon) warms my soul.

“And if I want…?” My breath turns shallow, my skin burning beneath the winter coat. His brows lift in question.  “If you want…?”

“Actually, I murmur, that might be the end of the sentence.”

Clever hands aside, the conversation between these two was endearing.  The fact that she felt safe enough to express the longing she had been housing was nothing less than poetic.  Too often in media, Black girls are the sidekick, the funny one, the token, never to be chosen in a real way. We are the wisdom or the sacrifice that helps the non-Black characters have amazing epiphanies, that moves their stories forward, making the Black character disposable.  I know Tracy said, “Fuck all that!” at some point as Bree’s story progressed.  In my younger years, I had NEVER seen a Black girl exploring in this way. Being wanted and revered in this way.  Taking up space and challenging the status quo in this way.  Don’t get me started on her wanting BOFFUM.  Can’t a girl have her spicy black cat and equally as spicy Golden Retriever in peace? 

Rootcraft Girls

“Rootcrafters are Black.  Rootcrafter girls, specifically, make a good target, because a missing Black girl won’t raise alarm bells the way a missing white girl would.”

“I may not know the people in my life, but I know myself.  I won’t be able to let this go.”

When I read Valec’s birth scene, I had suspected that demons had been ingratiating themselves in the rootcraft community (especially Erebus), and for the very reason quoted above.  When Bree sees one of the girls being assaulted in the bathroom of the Rat, she springs into action.   When the warlock escapes with her, a new mission is born. Bree understands what is at stake at that moment.  She is not that far removed from the torture she experienced in the Institute.  She would not let anyone forget about the rootcrafter girls despite all of the other plates she was spinning.  My girl said, “We gon do both!”  In Legendborn, Nick and Sel spoke of things kings must do.  The sacrifice that lives under that banner.  Bree’s growth has demonstrated that she is a far superior king than Arthur and the Shadow King combined.  Her heart is what makes her more powerful than any magic she can wield.  Her intentions are pure, and she makes room for her care to wrap around the people and communities she cares about.  Bree makes hard decisions and faces the consequences head-on, plans be damned.

I love this character and have found her reach to touch a multitude of ages for various reasons.  For me, she is the niece, the daughter, the sister.  She is also me. Her fire and determination.  Her refusal to accept the unacceptable and willingness to join a fight, because those being fought for are worthy.  As Nick says, she is worthy. 

Oathbound’s dedication says:

For the girls who face the unknown…and leap anyway.  Bree has literally and figuratively taken the leap, and she challenges all of us in times of peril to do the same. 

I am so glad to be alive in the timeline where Bree Matthews exists.

Rumble Black Girl, Rumble. 

I hope you enjoyed part deux! Find part one here!

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fascinating thing about sinners is how absolutely doomed the narrative is.

like okay if sammie hadn't gone to the juke joint, remmick probably wouldn't have shown up. but then the klan would have. okay smoke took those assholes out solo, if it was him and stack maybe they could have handled it. well the juke joint would have shut down in a month because no one had any real fucking money because of the sharecropping scrip. not to mention two seperate mobs are on their way to fuck the twins up (what do you MEAN you robbed al capone??). okay maybe they covered their tracks, well they're still in the fucking jim crow south and stack and mary have a cool 35 years until loving v virginia so best case scenario is he's broke and watching the love of his life from afar until he's 70. plus annie implied the twins were on borrowed time anyway since she'd been quietly protecting them the whole time they were gone.

idk it both adds to the horror that there was no way out and just solidifies sammie saying it was the best day of his life, like that one little perfect moment was all they were going to get anyway

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"How can platonic BDSM be a thing". It's whatever Sam Reich is doing to his friends on Game Changer actually.

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bratworth my beloved

Some things never change . . . whether you're 20 or 35.

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yeah

Is this anything

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HELLO LEGENDBORN YURI

kisses and bites

so i think i’ve finally gotten all the fayetasia crazies out of my system for the time being so now i can go back to focusing on art of the lb mains hehe

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there is nothing more that i want them to be a vtuber so i can be autistic and stream my silly little games and yap without fear. literally even if no one is watching, just the freedom to do so without feeling actually horrible is a dream come true

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they’re so fucking silly sweet i love them

girl with so many dads who is so so cherished

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I JUST FOUND THIS??? I’M EATING THEM.

Narumitsu but they are soft like bread dough

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yeah. grumpy sunshine except you are mislead on who’s who

the problem with how people characterize narumitsu is that they only see them as the grumpy and the sunshine ship dynamic, so they end up writing phoenix as a golden retriever and miles as an old gay queen.

but like, phoenix is such a bitch. the bitchiest bitch that ever bitched, actually. he enjoys sarcasm and trash talking, but he has this thing called "situational awareness", so he knows not to behave like a massive cunt in front of people involved in a murder investigation

on the other hand miles gets easily flustered and his fight or flight response to being caught off guard is spitting a venomous comeback. but in his head he's making puns. he's thinking about how the plants are beautiful. he's like an easily spooked horse who is also a dork that gets into a staring contest with a dog. and then loses

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this is literally where it’s heading TRUST

to me bree, selwyn, and nick have the vibes of a throuple and I think they should go for it, but every time all three of them get together one of them runs away, straight up just fucking bolts, and so they never get to actually talk about it, but they should, they'd be even more of a pain in the ass to everyone than they already are and it would be great

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Reblog and you’re guaranteed to be successful at whatever you do next!

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I would like to preface this with the fact that I think that Molly and Iona will both do excellent jobs, and this is not hate to them, they're children. I'd be lying if I said that my heart didn't melt the moment that I saw how little they were.

Louella & Lou Lou were so clearly meant to be metaphors for how Indigenous and African American girls are medically exploited and abducted in our own world. By casting white actresses to play them, they're erasing this aspect of their characters.

This is especially disheartening when you remember that Katniss was also a non-white character played by a white actor, and so was Gale. Neither the Seam or District 11 are predominantly white, and yet, they cast white actors.

Of course, in theory, they could be white. But, by casting white actors, they're disregarding their fates at how they correspond to our own world. The Hunger Games is a dystopian novel series, it is supposed to reflect us, and these girls deserve to have someone like Lou Lou to help themselves feel seen.

We're not melting down, we're just disappointed.

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absolutely. you’re dirt under my shoes if you’re sending hate to those girls

trigger warning: opinion!!

I’m gonna start off by saying that it’s fine if you’re upset over casting. Whatever

BUT.

to ANYONE who is being cruel to the little girls who got casted as Louella and Loyalty LITERALLY fuck you. You are a piece of scum who has nothing better to do other than hate. It’s FINE if you’re upset over their race. It’s FINE if you’re disappointed in the casting, but I’m gonna say the same thing when I heard this argument about Lenore dove:

“Why would they cast a black woman to play Lenore Dove if it said she had tints of red hair!!”

Suzanne collins is HEAVILY involved in the casting of her characters! She would not pick actors/actress she did not believe were good enough or fit the roles.

AGAIN

It’s fine if your upset or disappointed

But if you’re attacking those little girls over it—just think

They’re 11/12/13 no older—and are overjoyed because they just got their first leading role in a big time movie!!

And now scumbag, faceless people are attacking them on the internet for a role they auditioned for and got. Not their fault.

ONCE AGAIN.

It’s fine if ur upset. But do NOT attack those girls.