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I’m back!

Hi. I thought tumblr was blocked y’all but here I am. So I just looking back to my old posts and yeah it was diaries. I would like to apologize for my english tho haha it hurts my eyes too lol. I’m still learning until now so yeah, that’s it. Hope you have a nice day!

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#5 #KillThemWithSilence

Dimana lagi kalo curhat selain disini wkwk. Karna kalo di media lain banyak pengikutnya. Sedangkan untuk media ini mereka tidak terlalu mengenalnya.

Jadi pengen cerita nih. Sebenernya apa ya. Kadang orang yg ga banyak omong tuh kalah sama yg banyak ngomong. Realita kan? Atau orang yg ilmunya tinggi hmmm ya bisa dikatakan seperti itu selalu berada dibalik layar kan? It's my opinion. Tapi nyatanya kebanyakan seperti itu.

Berkenaan dengan hari ini, sebut saja aku berbanding tipis dengan yg banyak omong itu. Jujur, untuk mengetahui kepintaran seseorang itu aku gatau kaya gimana gimananya. Karna semua punya proporsinya masing masing. Nah karna hari ini aku "tipis" dengan dia. Hal itu terngiang dikepalaku. Kenapa bisa? Saat ditanya seperti ini dan itu, aku bisa menjawabnya tapi untuk membuatnya sebagai kalimat lalu diutarakan itu, aku masih kesulitan. Berbeda dengan dia yg setiap hari hyperactive dengan obrolan. Disini lah aku merasa kalah. Memang ku akui untuk akademik, aku menguasainya. Sedangkan untuk kepercayaan diri, keberanian mengutarakan sesuatu dan hal-hal lainnya yang bersifat karakteristik seperti itu. Aku lemah. Memang bukan background ku untuk menjadi pembicara, si aktif, si tersorot,dll. Itu bukan aku.

Diam. Aku menyukainya. Membuatmu misterius. Memang ada sisi positif dan negatifnya. Tapi memang inilah aku. The nice "akademik" tapi pendiam. Si sibuk mengisi otak.

Memang hidup itu harus seimbang. Kita harus menyeimbangkanya dgn cara masing masing.

To be continued....

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#4 #ThrowbackBullying

Bullying aka mengejek aka nyirikan dan lain - lain. So i want to tell you about my elementary school's experiences. At that time, bullying is something common in real life. Doesn't have to take seriously. But now, bullying becomes headline in everywhere. Because it'll take disadvantages a lot. Now, government is focusing about bullying too like how they're gonna stop this or something else.

When i was in 3rd or 4th class of SD, i am victim too (not the serious one). I have a classmate, this guy is having disability yaitu kakinya pincang sebelah. But this guy always annoyed me. Calling me black person. I know im not having a white skin. But how could this person calling me black while he has a disability? I never called him pincang, never. I never treat him badly. He is a bad kid at that time, maybe he wants to people accepts him and seeing him as a person. Not a boy who has disability. Maybe some people underestimate him. I mean i don't know how it feel but i think i'll understand. Some of my friends who is annoying person called me like that too. Since then, i'm not kind of person who have confident too much because i'm not having a skin that everybody have it. Sometimes i think if they're blind or not, i mean do you know what black color is? Lol. Look at the pencil color, tire, road, and anything as long its black. It's THE REAL BLACK. Are you an idiot who doesn't know what color black is huh? Use your brain duh. So when i'm sick of it, i finally told my mom that this person aka tubag*s is bullying me. My mom went after him, she told him to stop bullying me, kira kira beginilah perkataannya "tong ngahereuyan rafiana wae, nyebut hideung2, emg maneh sempurna kitu. Tah suku maneh ge pincang tp rafiana tara nyirikan maneh pincang kan? Naha ath nyirikan rafiana? Boga salah naon kitu? Awas lamun ngahereuyan budak abi deui dek dilaporkeun". Yassss mom killed it!!!! Haha. Some of those words is true, but i disagree with my mom because calling him pincang at that time. I mean kalo mau marahin juga pake cara halus jgn kaya gitu. But it's my mom, at least she's defending me. Since then, he never annoys me again. When i looked at him, he always turn his face into "the guilty" haha. I mean i don't like this situation too, but he deserves that. Treating people like that it'll brings people's self esteem down. I want to apologize to him about my mom but i don't have any courage to talk to him. If you are still exist, i forgive you lol.

At that time, i hate living in Indonesia. I want to go abroad. To another country who against bullying and take it seriously from a long time ago. People who doesn't treat another people badly, even their skin or languages or religion or races are different. I mean people are born with differences right? God never created human being with the same thing. Even they're twins, Allah created them in differences too.

I just hate it when people being judgemental, i'm being judgemental too but i know how to use it. If you are bullying person, are you perfect human being? Are you free of sins? Are you good at any things? Well, if you don't. So stop bullying people. It really matters. For us. I hate my experiences at elementary school. Until now, i'm reserved but not as reserved as that time. Sometimes i hate myself for it.

So, i think people have to respect each other. Kalo kamu mau diperlakukan dengan baik, kamu juga harus memperlakukan orang dengan baik. Kalo dipikir pikir lucu juga ya yg ngebully w orang disabilitas wkwk. Lol kamu punya apa sih ngebully aku kaya gitu? Coba kalo aku orangnya beranian? Pasti aku ngelawan kamu loh tp aku tau kalo ngelawan bukanlah hal yg baik lah. Aku masih ngerti dan mikir lah yakali aku ngejek kamu pincang? Kamu sakit hati kan? Nah. Kok kamu bilang aku item ga mikir ya? Gapunya otak? Aku aja mikir 2 kali mau ngejek balik, kok kamu sering ngejek aku? (Yaaa walaupun akhirnya aku bilang ke mamah wkwk). Aku nyadar aku gapunya kulit putih seputih orang orang pada umumnya. Tapi hargain lah, ini ciptaan Allah. Kamu juga ciptaan Allah. Ada alasan dibalik semua ini. Sebutin orang yg paling sempurna di dunia ini? Gaada kan? Kecuali Allah dan Rasul.

Untuk para pembully jaman sd, aku tau kalo itu hereuy dan kalian ga bermaksud. Tapi apa yg kalian lakuin itu ngaruh loh. Kalian boleh bilang kek gini "ah eta mah jaman sd ath keur bolon sok hereuy". Eits, memang itu benar. Aku jg setuju. Tapi............. kita harus stop berpikir seperti itu. Kalopun orang yg dibully itu udah biasa aja or terima2 aja, itu masih membekas loh walaupun dikit juga. Kaya aku wkwk. I do forgive y'all. But i have a scar in my mind yg gapernah terlupakan. Lol haha.

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