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The Fate of a War Horse

Excerpt from a soldier’s journal written during World War 1, a particular scene about a war horse:

“Utterly exhausted, battered and bruised, the starved horse stumbled and fell into the mud, where he laid and did not make an attempt to get back up, even when he was prodded by other soldiers. “He’s done for, poor beast,” one said, and another drew his gun. The bay horse saw the gun aimed at him and fear sparked in his eyes so intensely it startled me. He had seen the fate that other horses and mules had met at the hands of their own men when they could no longer keep moving, he knew what the gun meant for him. Despite the immense suffering and agony he’d gone through, and knowing he’d only go through much more, he did not want to die. And so, struggling and heaving and slipping in the mud, the horse somehow managed to bring himself back onto all fours. “Well look at that, he wants to live.” And so that horse lived to see another day.”

Excerpt from the same journal, many months later:

“One of the saddest sights I’ve witnessed throughout this treacherous war happened today, and not to man. It was the bay horse that did not want to die all those months ago. He could bear his weight no longer, he was too weak, too broken, too starved—of food, warmth, rest. He crashed into the mud and like before, did not try to get back up. He was prodded and pushed but wouldn’t budge. “I guess it’s time to put you out of your misery, old bud,” my comrade said sadly, and drew his gun. The horse saw the gun aimed at his head, but made no move to get back up; he couldn’t even if he wanted too. This time his eyes remained dull, bleak, lifeless. He had suffered so much in this cruel war that it had diminished his very will to live. He saw nothing ahead but pain, hunger, and cold, and he could no longer take it. The horse closed his eyes and brought his nose down to the mud, accepting his fate. The bullet made its home in his head.”

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I’ve been doing lots of research on the animals of WW1 and the conditions they were forced to go through, namely the horses and mules, and it absolutely breaks my heart. A few lines of this story popped into my head and I just had to write it down before I forgot it. This precise event did not actually happen but I can guarantee hundreds of thousands of the 8 million horses and mules that lost their lives in that war suffered the same fate of being shot when they were too broken to continue on.

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luke: ben……. you killed your fellow students….. burned my temple…… why did you do this?

kylo:

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Ben understood Luke’s sacrifice

Luke knew he would die, and did it anyway.

How do we know Ben understood this? And why does it matter?

Luke Force projects himself on Crait to face Ben, in a Space Western like showdown, where dirt has become salt and stings the bleeding wounds of Ben’s psyche.

But Luke is not there to save him. No!

He actually says it twice, to Leia first, then to her son. He is there to admit his guilt to the person that was hurt the most by his actions. “I failed you Ben, I am sorry”

He is there to atone.

Facing Ben, means facing the tragic moment he thought he should kill his nephew and finally taking responsibility for ALL the consequences. He is  giving Ben a chance to act on his anger in a cathartic and healing way as @huntedbyacreature  explained, but doing so, he is also punishing, literally sacrificing himself, because he knows, this will kill him.

He is taking away the guilt that Ben could have felt if he had truly killed him, while still allowing him to release his resentment. Watch Kylo/Ben pouring all his hatred into  striking Luke’s image,  where he appears exactly the same as the day he raised his lightsaber to his nephew. Luke is not only taking Ben back to this moment, but  himself too. He is accepting of his fate, by lowering his lightsaber this time.

At the end of the showdown, we see Ben realising: 

                         ‘that man’ is only a ghost image of his uncle.

As he understands this, he whispers ‘No’…

                       Ben knows that Luke is now dying.

During his first Force connection with Rey, when he sees her he says:

“You’re not doing this. The effort alone would kill you”

Ben knows that such Force projection is at the cost of one’s life!

I think this barely audible no, was not said in anger and frustration but in shock at understanding Luke’s sacrifice, which is meant to help Ben heal his wounds and compell him to face the guilt of killing his  father.

A little more on the context:  The entire planet is covered in salt layered over a bleeding like earth. The colour red is striking against the  white mineral. Salt hurts when placed on a wound but is also used  to disinfect and cleanse.

Salt is traditionally seen as a symbol of life, friendship and healing.

The planet is, in a way, a metaphor for guilt and the pain that has to be endured during the healing process.

So I am coming back to my theory that Kylo/Ben experiences an epiphany at the end TLJ.

He has cleansed the gaping wound that created Kylo Ren, therefore the healing process can start.  He is now ready to face his own sins, instead of focusing on his anger and those who wronged him.

          No more excuses. No one else to kill. Just him and his conscience.

                                          He is not saved …YET

                            But Redemption is coming…

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My weaknesses: • ARM VEINS • nice hair (& soft) • jawlines • attractive hands (its a thING) • SCARS • eyes that ~sometimes~ flash with emotion • good sense in style • toned or muscular body • kind heart • shaped eyebrows • a sexy smirk • a sexy laugh • a sexy voice • smelling GOOD If you have some of these qualities or all of them it’s guaranteed I am in love with you thank you for your time and have a nice day

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man im lovesick

all i want from you is...

butterflies in my stomach.

morning-after breakfast.

hand holding.

netflix & cuddle.

inside jokes.

goodnight texts.

wake up calls.

your comfiest sweater. the one that smells like you.

bear hugs

your hands in my hair, on the small of my back, tickling my ribs.

pillow talk.

forehead&cheek&neck&mouth kisses.

a heart next to my contact name.

little love notes.

a date.

a best friend.

you.

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Kylo Ren’s voice

reblog if you agree

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My bby

#hairporn

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Kylo Ren: “She… she left me.” Anakin: “I know, I know.”

*cries in reylo*

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Reylo parallels

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sOBBING

The Last Jedi summarized by vines

Luke: *is handed the lightsaber* This bitch empty! YEET *throws

Disney about Stormpilot: 🎵Two Bros sitting in a spaceship, 5 feet apart cause they’re nOt gay🎶

Kylo Ren: *shirtless* Hi welcome to Chili’s

Poe: 🎵Where’s my Little Droid, where’s my Little Droid🎶 Finn: 🎵Here he is🎶

Finn to DJ: 🎵Why you always lying, why you always lying mmmmm oh my god🎶

Hux: Hey everybody today my supreme leader pushed me so I’m starting a kickstarter to put him down *shows graph* the benefit would be I would get pushed way less

Rose: *Finn breaths* *Looks at camera* Wow

Rey: I’m a bad bitch you can’t kill me

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when rey shuts the door on kylo at the end of tlj

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Basically Luke when Rey confronted him about Kylo

Rey: Tell me the truth! Why did Ben really turn to the Dark Side?!

Luke:

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Bob Morley + text posts

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Me: *says anything remotely related to my Kylo/Adam crush*

Mom: He's MARRIED!!!

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Reblog if you fucking love Kylo Ren

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hux: what happened to our supreme leader snoke?!?!

kylo:

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💖Reblog if you're a Kylo Ren fan and don't ship him with anyone💖

Just wanna prove that we exist lol