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posters and more available - shops in my bio :)

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I want to preface this by saying this is not victim blaming. This not calling people online lazy or grifting or whatever.

But an underlooked proponent on why some people are nearing homeless and crowdfunding heavily rn is bc society has failed you by making it as inconvenient as possible to learn about social systems and programs that already exist to help your situation as well as not having enough programs and aid.

Lemme give some examples. I have been unemployed for 10 months. My mom told me about a paying job training program a month ago after I already decided to mive in with her to find work, because nothing was coming up in my own city. My best friend didn’t know about affordable housing assistance in my state until she talked to my dad about it on a chance encounter. Some people on here have to see posts about much cheaper alternatives to their current prescriptions or medical plans because its not in the interest of their doctors paychecks to tell them about it. I would have waited to get vaccinated and not have crowdfunded for Uber money if I had known they were going to give free vaccine rides the next month. But I wouldn’t have really known this until I opened the app once that program started, because it is in their interest to keep taking my money until its their desired time for me to reap their “generous” services.

What I’m trying to say is that this is an under discussed aspect of how capitalism fails people. When you are forced to make your life and work and finances so singular and self interested, you are cut off from community and equivalent social services to proper government assistance. You literally don’t know that there is help somewhere out there for you unless you’re told.

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Hey y'all, I'm back! I've realized some things about myself over the past couple of years. I'm not great with words but I'll try my best.

As an AMAB I've never really felt like the term "man" was really for me, and growing up trying to fit into that mold has been the cause of so many mental issues and toxic behavior which has spanned for pretty much my entire life. I never put too much thought into it out of fear of being further outcast (I'm also Jewish and have experienced violent racism since I was in 3rd or 4th grade) so I kind of learned to keep my mouth shut about being different from others.

In the past couple of years especially with lockdown and more time for reflection and whatnot, I started to try and put aspects of my life in perspective. I'm still not sure if it's body dysphoria I've been feeling, but I always felt like something was... Off. I've always had the desire to wear more feminine clothes and have less "blocky" features. Even as a kid I used to dream about having long hair, makeup, etc. As a 30 year old adult, it was hard to come to terms with. The concept of your typical patriarchal values have been so deeply drilled into my head that I actually felt slightly guilty every time I challenged them. Obviously I always knew those values were total bullshit, but unlearning a lifetime of propaganda isn't easy.

I finally gathered up the courage to talk to my best friend about it. I told him I absolutely have to leave behind any and all patriarchal values in order to move on with my life, and this includes challenging how I've been feeling about my identity for over two decades. I've been feeling it in my head, like a fire that needed to be released. It's one thing to say it to yourself, but when I told him "I think... I'm non-binary", I could instantly feel my body loosening up. I didn't even realize that I was choking up when explaining everything beforehand. I knew he would accept me for who I am, but just admitting to it out loud to another person was simultaneously one of the hardest, and one of the most liberating things I've ever done in my life. I haven't come out to anyone else in person yet, however I feel like I'm going to have to eventually. In time.

If you're still here, thanks for reading this long ass post. I usually just like to post pictures and the occasional meme, but I really needed to get this off my chest and get back to living my life.

Tldr, I finally figured out at the age of 30 that I'm enby.

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Date an anarchist who is doing their best to be happy right now, and that’s okay.

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Glencoe, Scotland

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A post shared by Colin Smigelski (@csmigs87) on Sep 2, 2020 at 6:11am PDT

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last night my brother asked me if I ever get two completely unrelated songs stuck in my head together and then several hours later sends me this

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Crescent moon and Jupiter with 4 of its moons by jackblabberr

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