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Well I meant that you two are responsible for my ridiculous/nightmarish dream, but -

There is no undoing that mental image now 😘

I don't put my face on tumblr, so have this instead @kaaaaaaarf @kaleidoscopexsighs

Flirting telepathically tonight so if you get nightmares its just me

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@kaaaaaaarf I dreamed that Mick Jagger bought me a harmonica. It was you two! And what does it MEAN????

Flirting telepathically tonight so if you get nightmares its just me

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people need to stop confusing their opinion as fact.

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WE LOVE YOU PEDRO

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some kaz to get me out of an art block

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writing? oh, i’m definitely writing. in my head. during the most inconvenient times. like in the shower or when i’m about to fall asleep. actual typing? no, no, we don’t do that here.

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I could not be more excited

I am 3 chapters away from completing Current Book and so help me I’m going to finish it this weekend.

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for a lesbian i sure do have a lot of husbands

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I thought you were Lebanese?

for a lesbian i sure do have a lot of husbands

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We owe it all to them.

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This is truly the only way we learn. It's so important to have these difficult and at times uncomfortable conversations.

Racism & Fic Writing

A few thoughts on what I do when someone says that something I wrote was problematic.

Background: I am a nuerospicy, middle class, cis, queer, white, millennial, american woman.

Situation: Friends and readers have in good faith pointed out spots in my writing where I've thoughtlessly used racist and ableist language, tropes, etc.

End Result: I changed the language. I rewrote characters and scenes. I asked the person who pointed it out to tell me more about the context, if they had the bandwidth, so I could understand better and do better next time. I apologized. We had a conversation. I looked up resources to educate myself so the other person didn't have to spend their time doing it for me. All of this is done in the context of sincere friendships where we're both remembering that the being on the other side of the screen is a three dimensional human.

I will be so honest. When this has happened, there's a voice in my head that chimes in with - 'That isn't what I meant, I didn't do that on purpose.' That is true. That doesn't mean what I wrote was okay. If the end result is that I perpetuated harmful stereotypes or language, my intent doesn't matter.

And this feels bad to admit, but I will probably make these kinds of mistakes again. Most of us will - they can be hard to spot unless we're listening to people whose lenses are different from our own.

These harmful ideas are buried very deep in our cultural DNA. I am grateful to friends who help me uproot them.

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I wrote a little Drarry one-shot

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64758283

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it really is crazy how quickly people were willing to just let chatgpt do everything for them. i have never even tried it. brother i don't even know if it's just a website you go to or what. i do not know where chatgpt actually lives, because i can decide my own grocery list.

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iris by goo goo dolls really is insane though. I'd give up forever to touch you? you're the closest to heaven I'll ever be? all I can breathe is your life? and I don't want the world to see me cause I don't think they'd understand? when everything's meant to be broken I just want you to know who I am? does anyone hear me.

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Thawra

"I am lucky. I have luck by my side. I also have culture. I have heritage. I speak Lebanese in my dreams. I might not ever be able to visit Palestine, but I know the streets of Beeka like the back of my hand. I know who I am. I come from a line of survivors and fighters. I feel guilty for my guilt, and for my apologetic past, and I'm not sure that it will ever go away. But I have learned not to be uncomfortable about where I was born, and instead to channel my privilege and use it to defend our people. I can do this no matter where I am or who I am with. Inshallah."

~ Tania Safi, This Arab is Queer.

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FE.RAL.

Go follow Olga Snow on insta and blue sky OMG