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neo-assyrian siege engineer writing a sort of "harry potter and the methods of rationality"-esque fanfiction of the iliad where the siege of troy is over in like 6 months with few heroics after odysseus organizes the construction of a few siege towers and an earthwork ramp up to the wall

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i dont really post personal art anymore but this is such a cute and unusual piece for me. im so pleased w seeing it when i leaf through my little sketchbook, even if im not really drawn to make more like it. i think id roll my eyes a bit seeing it from anyone else lmao but i like having the range to be kinda twee

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wrt getting scratched at the hair salon.... i know people w huge nails talk about how they manage daily tasks just fine and i believe it. but this hairdresser also seemed super timid w how she handled everything, it looked like either she was either kinda inexperienced or the nails were bothering her. and like if you dont know confidently that you'll be able to work w long nails and you handle people's skin for a living, why get them done super pointy?

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super wasnt lmao also she scratched my scalp birthmark w her nails (made a dermatologist appointment bc it still hurts and has a red bump ://) and bonked me on the head w the hair dryer

just made my first ever hair cut appointment im p sure :0 bc in my early 20s i cut it myself, and then just did walk ins at the super cheap place next door. the appointment place is 5x the price i pay there, cant imagine itll be 5 times as good but im always ready for expensive things to be better

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the "multipassionate" is sth ive been seeing in my feed recently. obv i never watch these videos, id go insane w rage (i should sort myself out with that, like who gives a shit. these people are stupid but they're probably only harming themselves. i gotta not be mad at people thinking they're better than i think they are, it's my worst trait), but i do think abt it when i see it. feels like an outgrowth of the artist-identitarianism, where they run up against the limitation of living only for their instagram stickers business that makes them the highest class of human soul. but everything one does has to be in service of that superior identity so you gotta come up with being a special type of guy who has more than one hobby. if you asked them they'd probably say it's resistance against late capitalism.

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so turns ot the 2020s scifi awards get repetitive fast.

outside of that i got kinda excited seeing a standalone imperial radch book bc i was compelled by ancillary justice in its concepts but bored w the style and story so i wasnt gonna finish the series. however the style at least is just as bad in Translation State :/ good on ann leckie for using neopronous tho

book blurbs suck so bad lmao

this is abt a p devastatingly drawn lonely middle-aged alcoholic. i feel like it's actually a kinda common type of grandma, not unusual for sure lmao

anyway, i finally started picking books off of recentish scifi awards lists and it's working for me. The Animals in that Country is going down very easy, tho idk if it's good exactly.... intensely affecting for sure, but the scifi idea is maybe kinda thin. but it's a type of human melodrama i love a lot and still probably wouldnt stick with if it wasn't dressed up in speculative fiction

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basically there’s two types of thing in the world, Punk and Puritan. anything you like is Punk, and anything you don’t like is Puritan

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Jenny Morgan — The Movement (oil on canvas, 2024)

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haven't sculpted anything in half a year but i got so much clay, need to get ideating with it.

my last sculpture (i say last, it was sth like the 2nd i ever did) was like. a very immediate expression of my state at the time in a way that my art literally never is - maybe in a way that's pretty banal even. a wild eyed snarling dog to show that i was feeling insane. i had the thought that i found it easier to express myself in clay than in painting bc it is so new to me and im not like boxed in by knowledge of technique. so maybe doing more sculpture when i dont have a strong feeling to put in it is kind of a bad move actually, but ofc it's stupid to not make art so that maybe later i can still be bad enough at making art. like how will i know that the time has come to make it? so maybe the thing to start with is search for a feeling.

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Pig Shaped Flask, AD 100–300, Syria,

Courtesy: MoMa

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waving my freak flag at half mast to indicate there has been a pervert tragedy

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just made my first ever hair cut appointment im p sure :0 bc in my early 20s i cut it myself, and then just did walk ins at the super cheap place next door. the appointment place is 5x the price i pay there, cant imagine itll be 5 times as good but im always ready for expensive things to be better

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oil pastel studies: little fires, pouring rain, and pink night forest (2021)

shop: suhaylah.bigcartel.com instagram: @suhaylah.h

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speaking of youtube and hatred. back when i watched the sef improvement freaks more often, like 7-5 years back, i always found it funny how these people would have jobs in marketing and website design etc but would tak abt it as this like sincerely meaningful thing. and they would talk abt work a lot because it's so central to the self-improvement grindset obv. and like.... maybe im kind of evil, but it's so ridicuous to me. like who gives a shit.

there was this one girl whod get up at 5 to meditate and speak so much on how her day-to-day was about growth and spirituality and wholeness and reconnecting with her ancestral cultural practices and everything she did was about intention and meaning and making the world a better place, a large part thereof being deeply dedicating herself to her work. but then that work was advertising cosmetics on a buzzfeed knock-off web-video thing. this was probably at the dawn of the whole pivot to video collapse, 2018ish, so that's even funnier.

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hate

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