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Space buns ✨️🤩✨️

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Could hire some thugs though

Everyones like Just hire mercenaries Just hire mercenaries IM NOT HIRING MERCENARIES

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Started the day hoping to achieve 3 tasks

Ended up acheiving 2 of those tasks and 5 other tasks that spawned from those 2 tasks

The third task can be better done tomorrow anyway

It's close to dinner time so I have to pause activities until after where I'll complete 1 more task and then allow myself some down to recharge executive functioning points.

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Thank you,

I feel like I've spent enough time crying already. I'm in problem solving mode. Arguably I have survived worse conditions so by comparison this seems manageable. There are significantly more support programs here than in the place where I was homeless the first two times. I'm also practiced in creating and executing game plans for complex problems.

I break it down into smaller pieces, assign values, and build logic trees based off of those values. My struggle with executive functions makes it difficult to assign values to tasks to determine which ones are most important, especially when there is ambiguity. But learning some Bayesian logic to assign values to each task helps circumvent that a lot because it keeps me out of the spiral.

Fem Friday! -^o^-

I lost my job, then my home. Having to administer my intramuscular injection in the bathroom of a homeless shelter. First time I've done it standing up and it doesn't really hurt like I thought it would. It's easier to find the muscle too.

Staying in the women's side of the shelter and I can never tell if I'm being clocked or not. The only people I disclosed my status to are the staff, which my ID outed me on that, and the one other trans lady here. It always seems to come as a shock when I disclose that information so pretty sure I'm cis passing. I question it though because I got called into the office yesterday because someone complained about me being in the bathroom, trying to peep under the shower. Cameras show I was on the other side of the building, after being gone since breakfast, when it was reported to have happened. Bitches be hatin', and it was never disclosed who reported me. I'm sure the staff handled it.

I know it's not a safe space to be out because I awoke in my bunk to a conversation between the other trans woman and 3 other ladies. When she left the room they were talking about her while using he/him pronouns and specifically talking about her being trans. I heard one of the ladies refer to her as a tranny and they all just went along with it. If I had piped up to say anything that would have been a losing battle because I don't think they have the capacity to understand.

But beyond that, I had my consultation for SRS and FFS last Wednesday in Chicago while my insurance was still active. I'm glad because now I don't have to reset the timer for a waiting list to consult with a surgeron. I can just pick up where I left off once I obtain health insurance again. Which rocks! >:D Navigated Chicago all by myself for the first time and I am very proud. VwV

My Driver's License is about to expire, and I am gonna get it renewed on Saturday and finally a new picture. Hell yeah! At least... I'mma try and social engineer to turn a voucher I got yesterday for an ID into just renewing my license with a new picture. I may end up with just an ID, but whatever because I don't like to drive anyway. It's just useful in the event that I find myself having to. (Like when renting a Uhaul for when I inevitably have to move my stuff out of storage.)

Which reminds me that when I had to rent the Uhaul and a storage room for my stuff I had to show my DL. The dude looked at my picture, looked at me, looked back at my picture, said "Damn, you got pretty. Let me do you a favour.", and proceeded to take off the fee for the first month's storage. I have... pretty privilege???

While I've been staying at the shelter I keep having to refuse offers for favours and the not at all subtle flirtations of some of them men. >~< Like damn... We're both homeless and they're out here tryin' to hook up in the shelter. Get some priorities. Which makes me glad I wasn't forced into the men's section. God damn.

Other considerations~ Know I'm homeless because I don't have a credit score, wasn't given enough time to save up enough money to compensate for that or the application fees, and because all my friends I've made here rent and can't have guests for more than (x) amount of nights without putting me on the lease too. Know I'm jobless because I can't afford rest when I'm sick or injured and because I can't care for myself when stuff like that incapacitates me. So therefor I missed too much work, non-consequtively, and built up too many occurences. If I could have just taken the time off to rest during my last illness and this current injury I wouldn't have lost my job. Bogus.

I now have to search for a full time job with medical insurance first, and then for a home. Only taking the time to post now because I need to charge my phone before I go and I don't have the option to charge it while I sleep. I have 3 stops today.

1) Place to enquire about job fair

2) Place to inquire about paid learning courses to empower women to get into the work force

3) Public library so I can write down job listings and a brief description, and then apply directly to the company because I'm never giving out my contact information to a hiring website again. I applied to one job, through Indeed, over a decade and a half ago because there was no other way to apply, and got spam calls about furthering my education for the next 5 years.

OH! I also been heavily flirting with one of my mutuals. When I get back on my feet and stable I'mma scoop her up like a little kitten and make her mine. I'mma cherish her like the goddess she is. I didn't mean to fall for her while we were chatting back and forth, but I did. qwq She's an autistic nerd and I love it. I wanna cuddle her while she plays games or while we indulge in media together. Wanna listen to her info dump. Wanna do hot girl shit with her. Just damn, she is beautiful in so many ways.

A little under 70% battery life, but I'mma stop writing here. Thank you for reading this far. <3

[robotmechagirl]

My posts already find their audience. Why would I want to broadcast to people who don't want to see it and make myself a target?

IN WHAT WORLD WOULD I WANT THAT

[robotmechagirl]

Fem Friday! -^o^-

I lost my job, then my home. Having to administer my intramuscular injection in the bathroom of a homeless shelter. First time I've done it standing up and it doesn't really hurt like I thought it would. It's easier to find the muscle too.

Staying in the women's side of the shelter and I can never tell if I'm being clocked or not. The only people I disclosed my status to are the staff, which my ID outed me on that, and the one other trans lady here. It always seems to come as a shock when I disclose that information so pretty sure I'm cis passing. I question it though because I got called into the office yesterday because someone complained about me being in the bathroom, trying to peep under the shower. Cameras show I was on the other side of the building, after being gone since breakfast, when it was reported to have happened. Bitches be hatin', and it was never disclosed who reported me. I'm sure the staff handled it.

I know it's not a safe space to be out because I awoke in my bunk to a conversation between the other trans woman and 3 other ladies. When she left the room they were talking about her while using he/him pronouns and specifically talking about her being trans. I heard one of the ladies refer to her as a tranny and they all just went along with it. If I had piped up to say anything that would have been a losing battle because I don't think they have the capacity to understand.

But beyond that, I had my consultation for SRS and FFS last Wednesday in Chicago while my insurance was still active. I'm glad because now I don't have to reset the timer for a waiting list to consult with a surgeron. I can just pick up where I left off once I obtain health insurance again. Which rocks! >:D Navigated Chicago all by myself for the first time and I am very proud. VwV

My Driver's License is about to expire, and I am gonna get it renewed on Saturday and finally a new picture. Hell yeah! At least... I'mma try and social engineer to turn a voucher I got yesterday for an ID into just renewing my license with a new picture. I may end up with just an ID, but whatever because I don't like to drive anyway. It's just useful in the event that I find myself having to. (Like when renting a Uhaul for when I inevitably have to move my stuff out of storage.)

Which reminds me that when I had to rent the Uhaul and a storage room for my stuff I had to show my DL. The dude looked at my picture, looked at me, looked back at my picture, said "Damn, you got pretty. Let me do you a favour.", and proceeded to take off the fee for the first month's storage. I have... pretty privilege???

While I've been staying at the shelter I keep having to refuse offers for favours and the not at all subtle flirtations of some of them men. >~< Like damn... We're both homeless and they're out here tryin' to hook up in the shelter. Get some priorities. Which makes me glad I wasn't forced into the men's section. God damn.

Other considerations~ Know I'm homeless because I don't have a credit score, wasn't given enough time to save up enough money to compensate for that or the application fees, and because all my friends I've made here rent and can't have guests for more than (x) amount of nights without putting me on the lease too. Know I'm jobless because I can't afford rest when I'm sick or injured and because I can't care for myself when stuff like that incapacitates me. So therefor I missed too much work, non-consequtively, and built up too many occurences. If I could have just taken the time off to rest during my last illness and this current injury I wouldn't have lost my job. Bogus.

I now have to search for a full time job with medical insurance first, and then for a home. Only taking the time to post now because I need to charge my phone before I go and I don't have the option to charge it while I sleep. I have 3 stops today.

1) Place to enquire about job fair

2) Place to inquire about paid learning courses to empower women to get into the work force

3) Public library so I can write down job listings and a brief description, and then apply directly to the company because I'm never giving out my contact information to a hiring website again. I applied to one job, through Indeed, over a decade and a half ago because there was no other way to apply, and got spam calls about furthering my education for the next 5 years.

OH! I also been heavily flirting with one of my mutuals. When I get back on my feet and stable I'mma scoop her up like a little kitten and make her mine. I'mma cherish her like the goddess she is. I didn't mean to fall for her while we were chatting back and forth, but I did. qwq She's an autistic nerd and I love it. I wanna cuddle her while she plays games or while we indulge in media together. Wanna listen to her info dump. Wanna do hot girl shit with her. Just damn, she is beautiful in so many ways.

A little under 70% battery life, but I'mma stop writing here. Thank you for reading this far. <3

[robotmechagirl]

hey guys just here to say that the new online safety act in the uk has blocked the suicide hotline

this is extremely problematic for very obvious reasons and i have no idea what the fuck this country is fucking coming to

childline has also been restricted

if you're a uk citizen and still haven't signed the petition please do so

even if you're not a uk citizen please reblog to spread the word !!!!!

this isn't safety, it's censorship

[robotmechagirl]

I suddenlt feel way better about choosing not to have children. Thank you.

[robotmechagirl]

I'll toast to that

better a toast in hand. than a toast on the floor.

[robotmechagirl]

For anyone wondering I am okay now. I missed the last two Fridays for diary entries, but I'mma be able to start up again this Friday. I have a lot to share this time because I was sorting so much stuff out so I can be safe. Thank you for continuing to read these entries and I appreciate you for staying with me while I record my experiences.

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Y'all, I feel this sentiment in my bones

EUGHHH I NEED cute clothes clothessssss

[robotmechagirl]

Reblog to give mutuals a break from whatever they're been going through

[robotmechagirl]

고마워애요 <3

사랑해요

[robotmechagirl]

Thank you <3

Lots of calls today

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Officially homeless! -^o^-

That makes this the third time in my life I have been homeless and as much as I'm tryin' to be cool it's still devastating. A friend is letting me stay the night so I don't have to stay awake all night, wandering around with a suitcase. I'll be going to the shelter tomorrow morning.

I was fortunate that my last paycheck hit because I was able to get a Uhaul and a storage room for my stuff. So at least that's taken care of for the moment.

I am nervous and scared, yet I remain hopeful. I do feel like a loser for having to restart my life so many times.

I noticed my insurance doesn't expire until the 7th, so I'mma go to my ffs and srs consultations on the 6th because I suspect the surgery dates will be a while from now and I am fairly confident I can obtain a job with healthcare by the time those dates roll around.

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사랑해요

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I know we are all used to hear bad news from the USA or UK when it comes to trans rights but this time Germany wants to play in the same league.

Our idiots at home ministry came up with the fucking idea to start a register for all transgender and nonbinary people which would mean every person working at some public position could always at any given time see your assigned gender at birth, your deadname, your address and who knows what else.

We had been there in the past. Hitler Germany called it the "Travestite Law" back then. Our politicians didn't learn.

We all know this is unacceptable.

Please, if you are German, sign it. If you are not, spread it wide and far.

This had been stopped once a few years ago. It needs to be stopped again.