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rock-craig-anthony-ludvigsen · 1 year ago

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Wisdom

Words are just words, it's only until they are said with the intent to cause harm that they become something more. CAL 2024

The mistakes of the past should not define the path forward to tomorrow. CAL 2024

Heavens storm shall befall the false king and silence will veil the Queen's voice forevermore. DEC 2024

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rock-craig-anthony-ludvigsen · 5 years ago

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Cyberpunk 2077 & Gaming

The gaming and entertainment industry sure has changed since the dawn of the home console by Atari in the 1980s or in other words my childhood, although our family never owned a Atari 2600 we knew people who did and I can remember playing them for hours never thinking where did the time go and hmm I wish the games had better graphics.

How times have changed, it seems the gaming and entertainment industry has become a cutthroat minefield where only the strongest survive and big name companies battle it out for digital superiority. We the public have become very demanding these days if our games aren’t captivating or drawing our attention 24 hours a day they quickly can end up in a massive landfill like many poor Atari games found out in the 1980s quickly becoming an urban myth. Performance is everything our loyalty means success so when a legendary actor like Keanu Reeves lends his voice and likeness to a video game well us fans we sit up and take notice.

Yes I’m talking about Cyberpunk 2077 like pretty much all the gaming industry is at present, since December 15th 2020 I have levelled 2 characters and achieved the platinum trophy in under 1 month which to be honest I don’t think is a huge selling point at all. I’m still plugging along on my trusty PS4 so the game has been a rocky road to say the least but I’ve finished it for now anyway. I’m not sure what CD Projekt is and was thinking during the initial production release and now troubled 1st person shooter, this game has so much potential and I think that’s why I’ve enjoyed playing it so much but on the other side of the coin is all the issues mostly technical Cyberpunk 2077 has plagued throughout its game play. I got into an almost obsessive habit of manually saving the game due to the constant crashes and loss of progression which happened frequently when playing the digital downloaded game, I like so many was fortunate to receive a full refund from Playstation before its totally removal from the online store. However I had 1 itsy trophy to get in order to achieve the platinum, off to EB games to buy a physical copy which I must say is a huge improvement in regards to crashing but the games multitude of issues are still there if you look hard enough. There are bugs throughout the game and often they are quite visible the game can be finished way too fast and after a few hours of game play you kind of start seeing a pattern emerge in regards to quests meaning they seem similar or way to dark for a video game. Cyberpunk 2077 is rated R+18 and for good reason but there’s to much dark or sexual content throughout the game and to be honest its on the side of being obnoxious or vile. Society is already living in a world that is drowned in sex and violence its thrust into our minds on a daily basis and as such most have become desensitised to it which is a toxic form of conditioning. If the game had more of say a Bladerunner or Akira tone it would have been an amazing piece of art but its fallen short, which is such a shame as its sound foundation is there to build upon. Something else which has disturbed me is the majority of enemy’s you must engage in combat with are people of colour or Asian, I’m unsure why this is the case but its alarming when your having to shoot these AI on a regular basis and their faces don’t seem to change very often. This is stereotypical of society today and how our thought patterns have been conditioned, CD Projekt and its developers need to take a good hard look at the context of the game that is if it survives which at present I don’t see this happening at least not in its current form. Perhaps were demanding too much from our entertainment? When we are spending over $100 on a game though I don’t think its unfair to ask that what were buying is definitely worth it. I have enjoyed my time playing Cyberpunk but things have to change to retain my attention, there are so many concerns I have regarding its content and I would say I’m not the only one, for now I don’t think I will be back and its time for a new adventure.

Craig Ludvigsen January 2021

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rock-craig-anthony-ludvigsen · 5 years ago

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Romantic Illusions- There's chalk upon the walls and voices walking in my head, I've been listening to the echoes of salem wishing the soft talking demon to be dead. Too many pills it does take for silence letting go of romantic illusions I keep why do our memories listen to violence and to much wandering for eternal sleep. They place me in unfamiliar rooms with the names I will soon forget all to soon the visions conceived feeling the crazy noise take my regret, there's the shallow voice bringing the cold and every winters doorstep shall be foretold.

Corruption 16/04/2023

I wake up feeling so low about the dawn weight of the world is crushing my skull The toxic air is polluting my soul the plastic people, they don't even care.

Chorus: I don't wanna live in a world so corrupt Everyday feels like it's another set up To cast me down until I break I don't wanna live, I don't wanna stay.

Verse 2: I don't wanna face another day Where everything around me is so fake news full of lies,politicians when they speak I wanna run from all this repeating every week.

Chorus: I don't wanna live in a world so corrupt Everyday feels like it's another set up To cast me down until I break I don't wanna live, I don't wanna stay.

Verse 3: I wish to escape escape,there's no angles left to run It feels like the end has already begun Trapped in a cycle of lingering despair I don't wanna live, but I'm too scared to dare

Chorus: I don't wanna live in a world so corrupt Everyday feels like it's another set up To cast me down until I break I don't wanna live, I don't wanna stay.

Outro: I don't wanna live, I don't wanna stay In a false world that's full of decay Wishing I could find a way to be free Tomorrow shall fall and for now, I'll just keep on breathing.

The Wars Outside and The Wars Within

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A collection of my poetry, written over the years. I have always wanted to have something published as to leave my mark on the world. DREAMING OF ECHOS Lost thoughts of a precious kiss diamond knife so rare is a sharp memory, one’s own reflection awakens with surprising comfort time is lost winding through a dream, an echo from a song a calendars date now forgotten asleep I am, i know, I dare not be careless and wake. Mirrors and memories we shall lose as one fails to attempt rest or peace, Shall I sleep again and know splendours blue eyes we shall see, tomorrow, see we shall. FLAME Today I dreamt of sunlight, the past I’ve danced within the impossible dark but lived to defeat fear, with a lonely thought I wish to become anew, body forged in flame and iron replacing lost love knowing my heart no more that is all that remains. ALL I NEED I’m not alone your hands breathing on my shoulders and a whisper through the mist, your name I’ve known your one I can’t betray, all greatness within is nothing beyond your sight. Being afraid of shadows if for the unfortunate few, you’re my shadow and footsteps, my light years glimpse and that is all I wish to know. Heart of the Mountain The heart upon its fragile mountain stares from a-far as magnetic as the sun, climb high is to dissolve too fast, to stumble is to fall. The Heart calls we do not hear, we dare not speak and we shall endure its mysteries alone, its a silent splendour with shifting plains. How I love but fear you more, how I search its reasons but never finding. A heart is a mysterious veil and its secrets cannot be unlearned, a curse and a blessing, a cradle and a grave, I live to conquer your wisdom but find only fragility in your embrace. UNTITLED One’s soul is a voice for words, within its hidden depths lays ones own truth, to dare to listen and speak louder than the heart. INVISIBLE FRIEND An invisible friend is never wanted by the eye, you may see me but too late to realise, that trust was in my heart, friendship was without cost those who steal and leave never kind words one day too much they will take. Perhaps then you shall speak in remembrance maybe you can whisper my name, I don’t want to think of you in my heart it’s far from your reach and selfish hands, Perhaps one day you will decide I was never a friend to leave behind EARTHLY WISDOM Today I make the world my own It teaches and I shall listen its stories are ancient and wise, unlocking doors to possibilities beyond sight walking freely through green fields that fill thy heart with solace. Earthly delights welcome us all to dream beneath sunlight drifting upon winds, weightless and transparent, as a simple stone will outlive us all with more stories than we can imagine, who are we to the unseen? If we cut down these walls and replace them with steel all hearts will break for the greatest tragedy awaits, I don’t wish to forget the sublime nature of all things but rather be a part of it eternally. PASSING BY Loneliness is a dream I wish to awake from uncomfortable stillness in the passing of time, but I dare not accept charitable friendships the unfavourable desperation in this pursuit it does not hold sway I’m no slave to these emotions, I am free in my solitude I am not afraid to walk alone. Deaf are your words a silent dull touch is yours to keep, live your life unchanged but do not dare to ale me with your decent, I will not listen to a false embrace I shall not welcome you into my mind, forgetting you is the hardest task but I am master of this fate to sleep soundly as you pass by. LOST IN WONDER Don’t wish to be a shadow walking through crowds of darkness falling constantly, drowning in moonlight splendour, to be more than thoughtful music and a midnight waltz to become electrically captivating and scorch the night sky. Want to know laughter’s voice dancing as if dying tomorrow, embrace the unknown kiss that resonates to your very core who wishes not, I am no foolish wanderer I know the night sky and the magic from daylight resurrection all is there to be seen and heard with intent all is everything, nothing and all that it seems. SANE The ground with no shadow remains a soulless earth shaking and inviting the madness within, take a pill so we don’t fall down we may sleep and grow ugly can’t afford the sanity I need and yellow brick roads come with a cost. Drugs to take affecting hold on my everything an adventure in the dissection of my thought, doors with glimmers of light entice one’s freedom they are fleeting they are cautious. I make no home here this is their game and I will speak with playful charm only to allow my escape. SLAVE Why anger must taint me while your world revolves I’ve succumb to the noises from the internal battlefield, if I listen to you, long would I be gone just the dust and twilight years would remain, hair is grey and thy voice hardened by time and wondering how to discontinue the absence of peace in my mind. Success has found you well perhaps you’ve deserved the rewards of harvest but I doubt that too much, where would I truly be if I listened and danced with your lies laying down the earth embracing me home, saying goodbye should have been harder and maybe I will regret the failing friendly gaze but I’m not looking back at you anymore and I’m no longer your convenient slave. GREED What we need, illusionary mind control what we are wanting, thought full dictatorship, things to own our very souls delights they are gathering speed, corrupting blood flow, filling the veins with greedy necessity controlling thoughts with desirable pursuits. What consumes our tastes only abandons us tomorrow, it warms us for fleeting moments using our faith and misdirecting attentions, lessons to learn too late are realised and dollars define our vanity’s fashion, putting a price on everyday existence its going to sell us out for more, more and more until, nothing and emptiness remains, reigns. MY OWN REFLECTIONS Thousands of reasons why to shake the sunlight from my eye, I may stand in golden light but my heart is further from wealth, I’m without poverty but poor of clarity and directions. So long I felt the moon’s gaze and spent such time captivated by the universe, my world stretches no great distance a grain of sand inside a clock tick tock goodbye and forgotten. Dining on misdirection laughing at my own reflections, wondering where the spirit will end and recovery from the twisted sea will begin. COULD HAVE BEEN The loneliness of one and the careful misdirection of time has left me far from home, reaching out into the night to find solace in the days, I long for kindness in words or the simplicity from a smile. Plans are furthest from pursuit as I am not faded and forgotten from being seen. hope can be so vacant and truth can be so unkind. Saving me from myself seemed like a good intention, but I’m the road of destruction living breathing stone, I need to retreat and rebuild the greatest life that could have been. BLINDNESS The tone of one voice ringing out over the great garden, new days are given and taken but god’s eyes are listening, bestow to me a rose in a storm filled sky. Absence preys on the heart being finely tuned, thy instruments at hand are my own design and what becomes the dream shall reveal the blindness inside of me. DAWN White light, green light, deserts filled with golden splendour and friends of good company to carry me away, towards the grace that was once left behind. The stillness of a touch from the night’s air, a shiver and a smile a kiss locked inside the hand, the softness of rain the drifting of sleep, rest for now and live for tomorrow’s dawn. WOUNDED LIGHT No reflection I wish to see the empty gaze stares infatuated, a product of destruction a mind finding only the dark, how close the reasons seem too far to make sense

We shall suffer all the demons we evoke within our frail spirits, count their influence each day not listening to their dismay, long are my years dragging across the earth, I only want for peace I only need its embrace, to come forth into thy heart and take pain from my wounded light. THE WHY I’m a shadow without the sun a future deep with uncertainty awaits the day I could be more in others eyes and I agree with disbelief on how far I’ve fallen only never to levitate over the fractured man I have become. Where once I felt control only the useless cause remains beside, did my dreams fill my mind only to leave? Just how long does finding truth take, I’m to be forgotten I’m to be alone and forever broken, I hear this chant and fear its meaning how did solitude befriend me so easily only to pollute the everyday thought, am I even real or only some jesters mistake. All seems lost to the mist full siren with no splendour to be found, I’m beaten beyond the limit tarnished from daylight and granted no setting suns, the only reasons have escaped me hope grows thin with time, I’m trying to breath but knowing the why has lost its way. SIDEWALK SHEEP Small hearts know not the world consuming one’s soul into ultraviolet, we may walk through the skyscrapers in awe but we’ve lost sight of wondrous nature and although it calls us back might our dreams have turned to stone will the sunlight still look the same. The steel hides the earth pushing its way through our eyes bustling with irrational movement the dance of sidewalk sheep. BEYOND Sharing winter’s night with all my kin beside me, far more than just a wish filling my heart while aching being warm and cold all the same, missing them most during sunrise and forgetting for a glance at sunset. Why have you gone from physical sight, I cannot follow as time still follows me. True love knows the meaning of loss to not have you near tortures the senses, beyond this mortal soil and into the eternal you shall gaze, but listen to me now I need you to hear, emptiness has stained our breath and we are afraid, bring peace bring happiness and wealth in whatever shape it may cast. DROWN The long breaking wave takes its time upon the shore filling a blue landscape with solitary thoughts, I don’t wish for drowning greeting me none the less that quite fulfilling horizons gaze welcoming one home with distress. Leaving is hardest to bare, the ocean befriends my darkest mind take me away it calls and I am ill befriended, as enticing as such beauty bestows its trickery is never far from sight, killing me with delight forgetting the why and how never knowing the conclusion drifting further from earth’s embrace. INCREDIBLE There maybe an incredible girl living in my incredible dream, I know her name not well but I speak it softly just the same, can we kiss the sky’s light and let the unconsciousness take flight. Be brave I tell the heart listen closely to what she says, because tomorrow we may not know colours anymore tomorrow the universe may take us all home. DANCE OF DESERT EYES The weary mind wanders lost though her desert eyes and he a mirage in the world looking for her shy reflection in the sleeping oceans unknown. Dare beauty undone and carefully reside within, her heart alike the breath of sunlight invading the perfect view blinding all cause for alarm. We shall know the other worlds and walk together in perfect colours, kissing the starlight with her gaze I cant help but shiver and dream what immortal words shall we speak what dance may be our own. CHOOSE March forth hear your call may wisdom guide your mind walk free into what is your unknown. Simplicity in a city street happiness never too far to reach, misdirection within a thought left with mindful fiction sought. Each day ultraviolet news know nothing and everything within a box it seems the same, altering a course looking further from view, what we choose can define the simplicity in what we do. QUESTION Ask not the simple question reach out, search for the truest light let it fill your eyes with illusion be not afraid to wander answers are only our beginning what we learn is what defines. SIGHT I am the end and the beginning I see and am blind, walking through the worlds dance searching for the simple path to lay down my direction. Welcome hope to a newest found step thy feet travel the furthest desires but keep me from forgetting faith in trivial dreams. I am birth and death I shall speak and be silent, all has been found and lost all will be revealed and deceived, there are answers upon the dawn where listening to the kingdom reign true. UNTITLED The watching light shading over my sleep thy body shakes upon the north wind only to rise and glisten with the suns longing. AWAITING In the game life is the all unknown, wanting to change its rules trying not to come undone because hope seems polluted, I ask not for this winter passing through my veins with distaste, hours are lonely eyes that judge me am I asking broken questions of why and how I found misfortune. The furthermost truth the unyielding earth below me shall it come forth to comfort or break me beneath its embrace, upon the early dawn I did see the best and worst in what I used to be, I’m anew in this stream for long my end to seek as I live, now, the present is awaiting. DEVIL The Devil may come the Devil may stay, but all through time the Devil knows how to beat the merry heart. AS IF BY SEA As if by sea my mind did wander, over mountain tops to seek a meaning, perhaps not the only one to travel lost seeking and finding the loosing and discovering that path we walk down but daring to step wisely in direction, there’s excitement to be found in rain and new perceptions in sunlight, today new life found me and I shall gaze lighter through the sky. As if by sea my dreams did wander how this life has been the best friend and the worst, kindness heart let me be different allow me to see past the road of yesterdays but do not blind me from today, I’m breathing newest air and I’m not afraid to live I’m only afraid to fail the light that has found my thoughtful embrace. SCORCH Finding ways to overcome to redefine the unseen in me realising the way its meant to be, existing day to day doesn’t fill my heart with splendour, ultraviolet wake me ultraviolet break me let me scorch the past and leave it furthest behind.

A Fated Tide

I’ve seen the sky grow dark and days are of a winters grave looming, there is my faith standing stretching out for my brothers and sisters I do not know, can you see me across the ocean calling you home. I see this ill fated tide washing over the world cracking its might upon the shore, there is a menacing sound about it as is all things that die within these hours. Yes a shadowy moment indeed we have and one our world must incur a new name, light has left us for now and troubled footsteps must find their way. C A Ludvigsen 21/2/2020

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rock-craig-anthony-ludvigsen · 5 years ago

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Crows and Ravens without them we would have alot more illnesses deaths etc they are great cleaners and watchers.

I am attempting to make corvid friends!!! Wish me luck!

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rock-craig-anthony-ludvigsen · 5 years ago

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Master Lee

Over 2 decades now I studied Shaolin Kung-Fu under the instruction of Master George Lee, Ever since I was a boy I wanted to study martial arts ever since the 1st time I watched a Bruce Lee movie since that day I thought I want to be like that but never understanding why and perhaps Im still learning this or we never stop learning in the 1st place.

The story goes 1 night of training Master Lee was demonstrating his use of Chi energy each student would face the wall and Master Lee holding his hands to their back would draw his hands backwards and without physically touching them the other students were moving falling backwards. My turn came but when Master Lee repeated the action on me I did not move backwards at all, I felt the heat from the Chi energy from Master Lee's hands from the back of my neck to the base of my spine but I didn't move backwards like every other student in the class and I still don’t know why this happened. I remember I deliberately moved backward as I didn't want to upset/disappoint my Master to which he said NO NO telling me it was ok but I still would like to know why I didn't move backwards like the other students.

#kungfu #martialarts #chi

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rock-craig-anthony-ludvigsen · 5 years ago

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A Fated Tide

I've seen the sky grow dark and days are of a winters grave looming, there is my faith standing stretching out for my brothers and sisters I do not know, can you see me across the ocean calling you home. I see this ill fated tide washing over the world cracking its might upon the shore, there is a menacing sound about it as is all things that die within these hours. Yes a shadowy moment indeed we have and one our world must incur a new name, light has left us for now and troubled footsteps must find their way. C A Ludvigsen 21/2/2020

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