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I think one of the things that really gets me about Sanders Sides is that all of the four main Sides really love each other so much, so damn much.

Patton considers them his best friends and freely tells them he loves them when asked. He is the happiest in the series when him and Virgil are working together, he’s always so excited to see Logan and thinks Logan is the most amazing, and he’s so giggly and fun and free with Roman.

Logan tries to participate with them in their group activities even when he doesn’t understand them. He considers Virgil his equal and respects him greatly, he deeply admires all of the work Roman does for Thomas, and he compromises his pride for Patton when he needs it.

Roman is always trying to be nicer and kinder and better for everyone else because he just wants what’s best for them. He regards Patton as the pillar of what’s right and wrong in the world, he works hard to impress Logan and pushes himself to be better for him, and he changes his views completely around Virgil because Virgil is that important to him.

Virgil becomes willing to work together with the others because he sees them as a family worth working for. He tries to show Roman that he is loved by all of them, he finds comfort in Logan’s stability and his acceptance, and he stands by Patton even when he doesn’t always approve of how he treats him.

It truly breaks my heart because without a shadow of a doubt, I know that all of the main Sides love each other so deeply...

And yet I also know for a fact that all four of them think they are the least favourite and least loved by the others.

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gonna say it im gonna fuckin say it

not enuf vampire logan content

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True Loves’ Kiss

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Prompt: Bedside Vigil

Fandom: Sanders Sides

Pairing: DLAMP

Summary: Virgil has fallen under an enchanted sleep, but his boyfriends are determined to keep him company and find a way to wake him up. 

Content Warnings:  Sympathetic Deceit, kissing, let me know if I need to add anything else!

Word Count: 1,941

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“Patton?” 

“Hnng…hmm?” 

“Patton, you should get some sleep.” 

“Mmm…m’not sleepy, Lo, really, I can stay–” 

“You’re dozing off already, Pat. Take a break and let one of us look after him for a little while.”

“Okay…any luck with the countercurse?” 

“No…Janus and Roman are going over the books from the imagination library to see if there’s anything I missed, but…” 

“Hey, hey, Lo. We’ll figure it out, okay? You’re the smartest person I know; I know that you can do this. We’ll figure out how to save him.” 

“You…you are right. Of course you are right. Go to bed now, starlight, you need your rest.”

“Okay. Logan’s gonna look after you for a bit now, okay Virgil?” 

Virgil didn’t answer. 

He wanted to answer. He wanted to squeeze Patton’s hand and tell him to get some sleep and promise him that everything would be okay, but he couldn’t. He wanted to smile at Logan and thank him for trying his hardest and promise him that he was enough, but he couldn’t. He could only lie here, eyes closed and body frozen but still completely, painfully aware, trapped in an enchanted sleep with no way to let the others know that he could even still hear them. 

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Some vent-y band au content + close ups bc I know they’re pretty small

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sanders sides fans be like “in GAKDABXCDEFH” and expect you to know what episode they’re talking about

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anyone have cute royality hcs and fics i love tHEM

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entered the sanders sides fandom and all i got in return was passive agressive racism and the removal of my tactness

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Gaining Trust

Summary: A direct sequel to Trust Issues, please read that first or this will make NO sense at all. Virgil’s made amazing progress with Patton in the time they’ve spent together, but something’s still bothering him. 

Content Warnings: anxiety, mentions of human experimentation, Remus is here and has like, 2 lines, platonic moxiety, anxceit (platonic or romantic), let me know if I need to add something else!

Word count: 2,518

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“Knock knock,” Patton called through the door to Virgil’s room. “Can I come in?” 

There was a beat of silence, and then he got a soft, hesitant “Yeah” in response. Patton smiled proudly and hit the control panel beside the door with his elbow, taking care not to drop the tray of food he was carrying. 

“That was good, Virgil,” he said as he entered the room. “But remember, you can say no if it’s not a good time.”

Virgil was still getting used to exercising his own agency, but Patton had been working tirelessly to make sure that he knew his opinion mattered, and the progress he’d made had been beautiful to watch. 

Patton had learned quickly that Virgil would get overwhelmed if given too many freedoms all at once, so he’d started out small. 

“What would you like to have for dinner today, kiddo?” he’d asked a few days after he’d first made contact with Virgil. When even that simple question was met with a confused stare, Patton changed his tune. “Would you like soup or a chicken sandwich?” 

It took a bit of convincing that the choice wasn’t a test and that there was no wrong answer, but Virgil eventually selected the soup, and thus began the slow process of introducing choices back into his life. At the moment, he was decently comfortable asking for simple things, such as a preferred meal or a small leisure item, but he was still trying to process bigger concepts like his privacy being important or having control over how he spent his time. Still, he was learning, and Patton couldn’t be prouder. 

“How’re you doing today, kiddo?” he asked now as he set the tray of food down on the table.

Virgil hesitated, and Patton gave him an encouraging nod. That was another new thing that Patton was working on, letting Virgil know that he wouldn’t be punished for voicing his feelings or thinking in the Wrong Way. 

“I’m…alright, I guess,” Virgil eventually said, quietly reaching for his dish of pasta.

“Is something on your mind?” Patton asked as he sat down with his own lunch. Eating with Virgil had become his new daily practice, and even though Virgil no longer needed Patton to eat a bite of his food to be convinced it wasn’t drugged, Patton found that sharing meals was still the most effective method for building up their rapport.

Virgil was silent for a moment, and Patton waited patiently for him to gather his thoughts.  

“I…guess I have a question,” he admitted eventually. He glanced up at Patton, who nodded for him to continue, and he sighed. “Why, um…why did you rescue me?” he asked, his voice barely a whisper. 

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Trust issues with Virgil and Patton?

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Prompt: Trust Issues

Fandom: Sanders Sides

Summary: At a rescue/rehabilitation center for victims of human experimentation, Patton attempts to build a rapport with the newest patient. 

Content Warnings: Fear, mistrust, past trauma, implied human experimentation.

Word Count: 1,336

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“How is he today?”

The grim look on Logan’s face was all the answer Patton needed, and he sighed. He placed the tray he’d been carrying on Logan’s desk and stepped around him to peer at the monitors his partner had been studying. They showed a video feed of a small but comfortably furnished room that looked empty at first glance, but Patton knew what to look for. There! In the corner furthest from the room’s door, a small, dark figure was huddled in a ball. Even through the video feed, it was clear that he was shaking.

Patton’s heart ached at the sight, and he wanted nothing more than to swoop in and pull the poor thing into his arms and promise him that everything would be okay. However, given his previous reactions to anyone trying to touch him, Patton knew that would be a bad idea. Still, he wasn’t going to just sit on the outside and observe anymore.

“I’m going to bring him his food today myself.”

Logan looked up, eyes wide. 

“Patton, that is very ill-advised–”  

“He’s not eaten anything, Lo, if we don’t get that to change fast, we’re going to have to sedate him and hook him up to a feeding tube, and you and I both know that if we do that we’ll shatter any chance of him ever trusting us.” 

Logan sighed and rubbed his eyes, staring at the screens. “Yes, I know. I had hoped that us giving him space and providing him with food and water would be enough to show that we mean well, but apparently not.” 

“You know what he’s survived, Logan,” Patton said quietly. “He probably doesn’t even trust that the food is safe. We have to prove to him that we aren’t going to hurt him.” 

“Be careful,” Logan cautioned as Patton picked up his tray again and headed down the hallway to where the holding rooms were. Patton paused outside their newest guest’s room, and took a deep breath before punching a code in the keypad by the door. He hated that the door had to be kept locked, but when the subject was so unstable, they had to keep him confined for his own safety. Patton hoped they’d be able to change that soon. 

“Hey there, kiddo,” Patton called softly as he stepped into the room, the automatic door sliding shut behind him with a hiss. “You doing okay this morning?”

The figure in the corner flinched away, and Patton smiled gently. He kept his eyes lowered and curled in on himself as he approached, trying to appear small and nonthreatening. He sat down on the floor, folding his legs underneath him, and glanced up to check for a reaction.

“I brought you something to eat,” he said. “Are you hungry?” 

The boy glared at him from under a shock of dark hair, and Patton resisted the urge to reach out and brush it out of his eyes. He had to be more delicate than that if he was going to get through to him. 

“You’ve gotta eat something, kiddo, you don’t wanna get sick,” he said. He held out the tray, but the boy just scooted further away. Patton nodded, setting the tray on the ground. 

“Listen, I get it,” he murmured. “You’re scared, and suspicious. I don’t blame you; I would be too if I’d been in those labs. But this place isn’t like that. We’re a rehabilitation facility, you don’t have anything to fear here, I promise.”

The boy didn’t look convinced, but Patton hadn’t expected him to be. For all he was concerned, Patton was just another scientist who wanted something from him.��

“Look kiddo, if you won’t eat your lunch, do you mind if I have some?” he asked lightly. “I haven’t eaten yet today, and this soup smells amazing.” 

The boy frowned at that, glancing at Patton out of the corner of his eye, and Patton suppressed a smile. 

Good, he had his attention. 

Carefully, so the boy could see what he was doing, Patton picked up the plastic spoon from the edge of the tray and took a bite of the soup. He smiled over at the boy, who was staring openly at him now. 

“You sure you don’t want any?” he asked. “It’s really good.” 

He took another spoonful, then picked up the piece of bread lying on the tray and tore off a section, dipping it in the broth. He popped it in his mouth, then nudged the tray towards the boy with an encouraging smile. 

The boy hesitated, and Patton made a show of swallowing his mouthful of bread. That seemed to finally be enough for him, and he scooted closer, just close enough to grab at the tray. He snatched up the hunk of bread and dunked it in the soup broth before tearing off an enormous bite. He barely took time to chew before swallowing and taking another massive mouthful, and Patton fought the urge to giggle. 

“Easy, kiddo,” he said instead. “You don’t wanna choke and hurt yourself. There’s more where that came from if you want it.” 

That made the boy pause, and he regarded Patton with a curious look. He swallowed slowly, then, in a voice so low and raspy that Patton almost didn’t hear, asked “Really?” 

Patton forced his face to remain calm, even though his insides were leaping with excitement. He’d talked! He’d actually talked! Other than his panicked screams and aggressive hissing when he’d first been brought in, he hadn’t made a sound the entire time he’d been here, and now he’d spoken! Only one word, but still, it was progress, and Patton was going to take it. 

“Of course,” he said, keeping his voice even. “There’s definitely enough for seconds if you want. I’d have to take a trip down to the kitchens to get some, but I’d be happy to do so!”

There was a beat of silence, and then, 

“Why?” 

Oh, that simple word spoke volumes, and Patton couldn’t decide whether he should pull the kiddo close and promise him that he’d never be hurt again or go out and hunt down anyone and everyone who was responsible for making the notion of kindness such a strange and foreign one to him. 

“Because you need to get your strength up, kiddo,” he said, pushing both urges away for now. “You’ve been through a lot.” 

“And what...” the boy’s voice shook, and he paused, swallowing before continuing. “What happens...after I get my strength up?” 

Patton smiled sadly. 

“Absolutely nothing. We’re not here to hurt you.”

The boy looked skeptical, and Patton sighed. 

“I don’t blame you for not trusting me,” he said quietly. “I’d be cautious too, if I were in your shoes. I just...hope that you’ll give me a chance to prove that I really do want to help you. Will you let me do that?”

The boy regarded him silently, and eventually nodded. Patton smiled brightly at him, then took a deep breath. Time to test the waters. 

“My name is Patton, by the way,” he said, and the boy's eyes widened just a bit. “Do you have something I can call you, besides just kiddo?” 

The boy looked away, and Patton held his breath, hoping that he hadn’t moved too quickly. If he spooked now, it could take ages to coax him into opening a dialogue with them, and- 

“Virgil.” 

Patton nearly squeaked in surprise. 

“My name is Virgil,” Virgil said again, and Patton’s face bloomed into a smile. Virgil watched him for a moment, then offered a tiny, hesitant smile back. 

It was official. Patton was putting all his other cases on hold until he was sure that Virgil would never be afraid to smile again. The path towards his recovery certainly wouldn’t be easy, but if Virgil was willing to try, then Patton would give it his absolute everything. 

“Well, Virgil,” he said, his smile growing wider. “It’s very nice to meet you.”

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Part Two: Gaining Trust

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listen please you dont understand all i want is for logan to be cradled in virgil’s arms 

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how come hurt/comfort sanders sides fanfics that is set in the kitchen at midnight hit harder than most fanfics out there

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Summary: “Patton sucked in a deep breath. His hand that wasn’t in Logan’s hair clenched as all his other muscles tensed, teeth gritted and nails digging into his palm in an attempt to curb his emotions. Later on, Patton would be glad that Remy lived so far away from them because he was quite sure that if he had been nearby Patton would not have hesitated to take out all of his anger on him—and right now, Patton had quite a lot of anger.”

Or, Logan gets into an argument and Patton just needs him to know how much he’s loved.

(With ADHD Patton and autistic Logan, cause Projection).

Pairing: Queerplatonic logicality

Warnings: Discussion of a past argument, possible ableism, very minor self-harm as a result of emotional overload. 

A/N: Thank you, hon!!! I hope this is alright!!! I haven’t written anything in over a week and it felt Bad, but here is something! It’s here! And I hope it’s good.

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Patton was sweeping around the kitchen—having entered the room about half an hour before in a plan to make cookies but having yet to actually start—when he heard the sound of the door clicking open. Immediately, he discarded the shopping list he’d mostly been thinking about writing and bounced his way over towards the front door, a smile planted firmly on his face.

The minute he saw his partner, however, Patton stopped dead in his tracks.

Logan was slumped down against the door, head in his head and shaking almost imperceptibly. He seemed to be fighting to keep himself together, trying to project an aura of some level of calm and control despite not even knowing Patton was there—he’d taken a day off and neglected to let Logan know.

Patton felt something inside him crack and he bit his lip, raising a hand to tap against his chest.

“Lo?” Logan snapped his head up, eyes red and watery and Patton tapped faster and bit harder. “Can I…? Am I… allowed…?”

Logan laughed but his smile was more like a grimace, his face contorted in pain from a series of emotions Patton was sure he wished he wasn’t feeling. He blinked rapidly, sucking in his bottom lip to stop the way it was wobbling.

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Boy Band AU is Romantic LAMP (eventually)

Or, I was thinking about the boy band au and was like, y’know what? Could be gayer.

warnings: cursing, kissing, some miscommunication and angst, mentions of/fear of resentment and divorce, running away from problems as an anxiety response, getting together, happy endgame romantic lamp stuff tho

This got so long I’m so sorry, y’all. It started as just “listing fun facts about it” and evolved into a bulletfic. Woops. 

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i picture it, soft, and i ache

He cannot love Patton.

But god, does he want to.

It doesn’t take Janus very long to fall in love with Patton, when it comes down to it. It takes him far longer to accept it, and to allow it to grow.

Content Warning: brief, non-graphic depiction of a panic attack

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It’s unbelievable, how fast he falls.

He prides himself on his rationality, his pragmatism. He’s no Logan, of course, but it has been a very long time since he allowed his emotions to get in his way. Over the years, that has cost him so much– his relationship with Virgil, his ability to trust and be trusted, any moral compass that he may once have possessed, among other things. But he has never regretted it, not once, because his primary directive is to help Thomas, and if he has to play the villain to do so, so be it. Lord knows none of the others see the world for what it is, are willing to do what it takes to ensure Thomas’ success.

But the scene is like this: time passes, Thomas begins to listen to him, and one day, Patton smiles. He doesn’t know at what, doesn’t know why, because he wasn’t paying attention until now, but Patton smiles, wide and bright, and in that moment, Janus would do anything for that smile to be directed at him.

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“Logan,” Virgil says, softly, slowly, “you do know that you’re allowed to be a person, right?”

In the aftermath: Logan, Virgil, and things that have gone unsaid for far too long.

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When all is said and done, Logan sits in his room for a little while, hands folded neatly in his lap, staring at the ceiling. It’s painted with a star map, charting the cosmos: Ursa Major by Ursa Minor, Perseus reaching for Andromeda, Canis Major ever lapping at Orion’s heels. They glow with a bright, otherworldly light against a black backdrop, and they change as the seasons turn, too, change and wheel overhead as the real night sky does. 

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just keep stumbling forward (baby im waiting for you)

Pairings: CALM/LAMP

Summary:

College AU that has since expanded.

Patton is ready to bloom as a person.

Logan is ready to increase his knowledge of the world.

Virgil is ready to start another insignificant chapter in life.

Roman is ready to live his life to the fullest.

Four very different people collide, and ultimately, they’re all the better for it.

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Advent- Logan, his struggles and feelings about the importance of tradition and routine, and his family’s inability to support an autistic child. [ao3 link]

Turn Signal- Virgil and Remy’s first meeting in this au, with a healthy side of service dogs, struggles for independence, and the idea of safety.

Paths Collide- Virgil, Logan, Patton, and Roman’s first meetings in this au, ft. Logan being unwilling pulled into everyone else’s shit, Patton being group dad, Virgil as a ball of anxiety, and Roman falling off a desk.

Growing Roots- Virgil and Roman have a long way to go before they can truly be considered friends. [ao3 link]

Celestial Equator- The summer through the eyes of Virgil, Logan, Patton, and Roman before Virgil’s sophomore year of college.

Calendrical Consequences- A Virgil-centric story that deals with PTSD, trauma, and refacing your abuser years later. Also the getting together of CALM/LAMP. [tumblr link]

Interdependence- Remy shows up at LAMP/CALM’s house after running away from home. Virgil is there to listen to and help guide him.

The Kübler-Ross Model- The aftermath of Interdependence as Remy struggles through the five stages of grief. [ao3 link]

Liminal- 5+1 (actually +3) story that follows Patton’s history of falling, particularly the idea of falling in love.

Detoxify- A medical scare not only reminds Virgil of his biggest mistake in life, but also brings up feelings of shame over the things that have been done to save it.

Satellite- Logan and his sister have played the blame game for years. It’s time to metaphorically clear the air. But doing so brings up a lot more than simple sibling rivalry. [ao3 link]

Synergy- Virgil’s graduation with an emphasis on his relationship with his service dog Trixie.

Superstitious- When Patton had gone to the store to get groceries, he hadn’t planned on getting stopped by the police on account of so-called “suspicious behavior.”

Healing Process- Virgil begins his job as a student teacher. It’s all going great until Virgil falls back into a trauma spiral.

Chiasmus- The inevitable “do we want kids?” discussion comes up. Roman panics.

Patch- A study of Virgil and his particular feelings about having a PTSD service dog. [ao3 link]

Puzzle Pieces- “I love you” can be said in many different ways. Sometimes running away in the middle of the night only to return the next morning is the way to show it.

Echolocation- Deceit never excepted to hear the name “Virgil” again, after all, Virgil was dead. Wasn’t he? AKA Deceit and Virgil’s complicated history.

Interlude- Logan and Deceit bond over snakes. [ao3 link]

Affirmations- Virgil experiences a jarring experience at work. His husbands help him through it.

Exothermic- Logan’s experience with autism, from strong resentment to grudging recognition to eventual acceptance.

Optical Phenomena- Roman was gay. He had known that since he was a child. Roman being gay had never been a question. But he wasn’t sure if he was a boy. [ao3 link]

Blood Relation- The intertwined and convoluted backstory of Roman and Remus, and how they finally meet. [ao3 link]

Cannonball- IN PROGRESS- One shot series for smaller stories that fit within this universe but aren’t substantial enough to stand alone. Requests Open.

Extras:

About the Service Dogs

Character Appearances

What’s in a Name?

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